Duet

Elephant Song Medley


Ewan: All you need is love.
Nicole: A girl has got to eat.
Ewan: All you need is love.
Nicole: She'll end up on the streets.
Ewan: All you need is love.
Nicole: Love is just a game.

Ewan: I was made for loving you baby
and you were made for loving me.
Nicole: The only way of loving me baby is to pay a lovely fee.

Ewan: Just one night, just one night.
Nicole: There's no way, cause you cant pay.

Ewan: In the name of love, one night in the name of love.
Nicole: You crazy fool, i wont give into you.

Ewan: Dont leave me this way.
I cant survive without your sweet love, oh baby,
dont leave me this way.
Nicole: You'd think that people would of had enough of silly love songs.
Ewan: I look around and i see it isnt so, oh no.
Nicole: Some people want to fill the world with silly love songs.
Ewan: Well whats wrong with that, i'd like to know. Cause here i go again.

Ewan: Love lift us up where we belong. Where eagles fly on a mountain high.
Nicole: Love makes us act like we are fools, throw our lifes away, for one happy
day.
Ewan: We could be heroes... just for one day.
Nicole: You, you will be mean.
Ewan: No i wont.
Nicole: And i, i'll drink all the time.

Ewan: We should be lovers.
Nicole: We cant do that.
Ewan: We should be lovers, and thats a fact.
Nicole: No nothing would keep us together.
Ewan: We could steal time just for one day.
Together: We could be heroes forever and ever.
We could be heroes forever and ever.
We can be heroes...

Ewan: Just because I will always love..
Nicole: I...
Together: Can't help lovin' you.

Nicole: How wonderful life is..
Together: now your in the world.


that is the elephant song medley that was in Moulin Rouge, one of my all time favourite movies. there is just something about duets that are so fascinating, interesting, and touching. when 2 people can harmonise and compliment each other through voice, the feeling invoked is amazing.

Singing can help to get feelings out, sometimes when you feel a certain way, i love how there are songs that seem to totally encompass how you feel. sometimes through the lyrics of the song, we find deeper understanding of how we are feeling, or find the words to say how we feel.

I am looking for a duet partner. that was quite... crude, but at this time who doesnt have the rush of hormones and the craving for a confidant? sometimes relationships can be really one sided. when people pour their troubles towards you, the listener would (being a considerate friend) listen wholsomely, and not make any comments until they are done. I admit that i do and face the same thing. there are people that i confide in, but they dont usually share much about them in return, which sometimes can be quite frustrating. or instead i listen and listen, but do not share back how i feel, or my problems. So its looking for that person that you can share with, yet you can listen to their problems. that is how good friends and even relationships are formed.

I feel like i have much bottled in me, and that i cant find a suitable person for me to share with. I aint attatched (but i think that is what im bottling up anyway) and for friends that i am close to, we are all quite busy with one thing or another, so to pick up the conversation is even more difficult. maybe i could do like i previously did, and blurt to anyone i know roughly, then i would get it out, and they would learn more about me. but that is no longer what i am like, i want to keep more things to myself, and think about it more, instead of shooting my mouth off.

Such is life isnt it? when you dont want something it would naturally gravitate towards you, but the moment you want it, it naturally repels. its not so easy to throw away all your want and thoughts and just be natural. that is the idea of friends being lovers right? just when you find out you like your friend, you become less firendly, and are more conscious of your actions, and words.

Back to dreaming of my duet. i just thought of the perfect setting, 2 people in love, performing for an audience, a duet that encompasses their feelings for each other. the duet which can be called /"Our Song"/

sigh >.< hopeless...

Attention and Attraction

Some have said that i am not aware of my environment, or that i am ignorant of my "space" and it can lead to be quiteselfish, when i ignore those around me and their problems. yes i can be more carefree when the weight of the world is not bogged down on my shoulders, but then i realise that i wont have many around me that know me well, or any that i will know well either.

Truthfully, i dont think that i am very ignorant of my surrounding, but i think like most normal people, i can shut things out and ignore specific things or incidents. i sometimes even beleive that i am too sensitive even i f dont openly show it. thrown me and insult that has substance, and no matter how minorit may be, it would definitely affect me. However, after a while i learnt to seive through comments and leave out the emotionally charged bull, that actually dont make any sense at all, but what is left i can pick up on, if it is really a true things that i know i need to change, i would bear that in mind. Still, there is the shred of truth that i can unconciously ignore certain things that stare me in the face, and that can lead to frustration in certain people.

Anyway, i also have been noticing my surrounding more closely this year, and this could be some delusion of mine (or rumours that i have heard), but i may be getting more attenttion in respect with last year. It does seem a little odd, as i did feel that this year i have not been as overly friendly or hyper as last year, nor have i had teh time to go and try to know everyone in the school. perhaps its something to do with the TA year 1s. I still remember TA Orientation 06, and getting to know all the year 1s. at that time there wasnt many i knew, and i think it was only those that stood out more that i interacted with. I think i remembered 1B the most, as it was the break where they were still in the Lt, and i happened to have a breather from the rushing preperations for O nite. The accents i pulled off, and flirting with TA nicholas, as well as the gay pic with lester, one of the people that i noticed for O was clare, i mean how hard is it to notice her? haha. then of course there were others from the other classes, ximin, xiu qing, siddarth, sean, sophia, rachna etc. they just stood out, noticing them definitely was not hard.

School term started and everyone, including myself, got really caught up in work. the long days and the stressful workload, not much time for anything else. anc i kinda guess that i didnt realise how much i was getting to know the TA 1s. So i think i know a lot of people, yet it doesnt occur to me that many people know me. i still remember xiu qing metioning to me during her audition for drama.

Xiu qing: did you know that a lot of TA girls [know]* you?
J Heng: rite... i dont need to know this...
Shouvik: OMG!!! so cute! jonathan (in shouviks weird cutesy accent)
Xiu Qing: you know during that TASC talk? why do you think there was so much chatter, even giggles when you and kumarans name was said?
J Heng: oh, i thought i did something embarassing...
Xiu Qing: No. (goes on with her evil grin)

Flattered, quite a bit, embarassed, a whole lot. yet after a few days i guess i sort of dismissed it. it was not like i saw the TA juniors that often, so it did not really affect me or make me notice things that much either.

Image-conscious is what i have become more of over the year(s) in TA. friends have said that i dont look that bad, and all i gotta do is lose some weight, and it will help my image, confidence, and presentation in front of people. that is why i am spurred to go gym and find as many opportunities as possible play basketball and get myself involved in actvities that require me to move my body. Cheerleading, Road Run and other things, i feel the change in my body, and i do see a slight change in physical form. and i enjoy it too! maybe not the running portion, but i feel accomplished when i exert myself. maybe that is what isaac means. if you dont feel the push you dont feel the accomplishment. the strain and the fatigue felt are just testimony to your accomplishment.

I dont know about the looking better part, as that is not for me but rather for others to judge, but in the feeling better department, i definitely feel more confident and more gung ho to try things. a matter of empowerment. when i can play a good game of bball or can lift a flyer with ease, or getting 35 mins for a 5 km run, the accomplishment felt just pushes me to go on.

sigh.. i dont think i like holidays much now. holidays have to be packed with activities, if not i would feel like a pig/sloth/slug at home stoning in front of the TV and pigging out on junk food. after the march holidays i do feel fatter, which i am determined to work off when im back in school!

All in all, i really feel like more eyes are on me. like somehow people are watcing me. it is a little creepy at times, and can be exasperating when i dont know what they are talking about me. Insecure maybe, but then again i know that its not gonna affect me much if i know or not, its just interesting to know. I guess i have always been a sort of attention craver, but it can be weird when you get attention that you did not purposely attract. Oh well... i will just live with whatever it is. so long as my life is not severly affected by rumours, i think things will be fiiinneee!

i realised i havent hade real homemade lemonade before... maybe i can try to make some?

*ok so it wasnt actually /"know"/ but i think you can fill in the blanks >.<

term 1 forcing growth

so a term has passed, and now is the commencing of the holidays. or what is noted on the calender as holidays, but more like time to catch up, and for teachers to pile wok on us students, and for basically anyone who has freaked out or cried to come to their senses and take a sabbatical of sorts (yeah rite).

juniors are fascinating creatures. technically i have not had any real juniors for the past 3? years of my life. sec 1 no juniors, and sec 2 there was no new GEP intake in VS, and then to restart my school life by becoming the first batch of TA students here in TJC. then came this year, where the whole flux of fresh IP students came out from their secondary schools, to get severly scarred and horrified when a part of the big thing called /" LIFE/" swoops down and smacks them right in the face.

then that is where the TA 2s step in, and have experience beaming from them in every direction. to be a guiding light for each student, and to be like some kind of elder sibling to all.

along with that i think this first term has been extremely fascinating... the scandal meter has increased by god knows how many fold, but it just has been entertaining watching as these things unfold (and secretly being glad that you are not caught in the confusion and mess). so as usual, it is the spectators having the most fun (you perverse little sadists).

it was the all about the elective weeks. everything from the free and too-much-time-to-spare students, and the events that TASC came up with, it just brought the TAs together at the same time sprouting opportunity for conflict, crushes, and every form of /"coming together/".

so that way my life became better too. instead of droning in class everyday, dealing with the same people and the same work and the overwhelming urge to run out of class screaming like a bloody idiot. now there is opportunity to catch up on my social life, and find other ways of putting that hyperness to good use. i especially enjoy all the days that i get to play basketball. i could be deluding myself, but i think im getting better at basketball, and hopefully toning the right muscles too!

along with the things that i do on my own, i have to say that Movie Mania '06 was good, if not to say a great success! the night was good, and it was not so much the movies (even though i have to say that Shutter and the Longest yard was good) but it was also the company, and the various ongoings that night. i swear i have never knew how much could result from one night of TA 1 and 2 interaction. i shall not go into detail in fear of being flamed as i walk around school, but that night was just a whole chunk of fun. the people, the response, the retarded guys that cannot stop screaming during shutter, and sitting in the LT watching scandals unfold (you know who you are =D) . the food was good too, we managed to sell most of our wares, and provided enough drinks and tidbits so that ppl could constantly get their stomach's satisfied. along with hanging out with the people that found movies boring ,and decided to crap and talk rubbish downstairs with others. it concluded simply, with people leaving even before the last movie was screened, but the overall response would be to have another one.

then the second event was the inter class captains ball. even though it did not have the best planning, i think judging by the audience, they quite enjoyed it. and the competition was taken slightly further, in terms of violence, than expected. still it was a joy referreing and seeing how each team fared. there were not any extremely loud cheers, but you could tell from the shouts of encouragement, that even the supporters were having a good time as well.

i shant go all inspirational and give some pep talk saying /"oh! how wonderful the TASC is! with its amazing and fun activities!/" that might be taking it a bit too far. however, let the response stand for itself, and im sure that the cheering speaks louder than words!

i think the SC has had time to mature. we now handle our tasks better, so we can afford to make it more glam and up the standards of our activities. it is no longer trying to grasp the reins, but more like settling and now challenging ourselves to make everything better than we think we have made it. that is why im quite hyped up about Black Lights, the TA function. Movie Mania has been our benchmark, and i guess it upped our confidence by quite a fair bit.

i see myself growing. amazing how all the things that have happened makes me realise how much i am actually accomplishing. it is a bit accelerated, but i dont really feel it until the tangible results. so things definitely have picked up, and i look forward to the term to come. till next post i guess *smilez!