Slimming down

I am aware that I am overweight, but I am quite confused on what to do about it. At first I was skeptical about writing this post, the reason is that when I do post something, I want to let it out and deal with it so that it is no longer weighing in my mind. Yet, this is one thing that I wanted to make sure that I keep so that I can do something about it.

It is not that I do not want to slim down, but I just am not exactly sure how to go about doing it. I know that I can eat less and exercise more, but firstly I am not that strong at controlling and sometimes I eat more than I should, but that is something I am already working on and I think we some guidance I think I can make it, the second would be exercise, I like basketball and mass dance and that kind of stuff, but I cant possibly do that everyday, and I guess I need to do something about that.

I know that some people have told me that if I slim down my image would change for the better, and there are people who said that If I were to slim down I could look quite hot (o.O) either way, I have been quite conscious of my image recently, and I kind of am trying to look and present myself better.

Perhaps it’s the influence of the girls. I want to look better in front of them and maybe their constant engrossing over their clothes has led me to do that too. But anyway, I am glad that they have influenced me like that, because it just gives me more reason to want to change. I am not unhappy with my current image, but I guess that it can be better.

I am not embarrassed about my weight, and I guess I have come to terms with it. I am not petite, and I am tall, but sometimes I think I use my height to hide my size. I was with a few guys on Friday last week, and we were eating dinner and chatting. Then there was this girl that was quite fat, that one of the guys said had a crush on him. At first I laughed along and found her antics to flirt with him quite funny, but then I felt awkward, as I knew that I am possibly made fun of that way too. So I mentioned it to them and said, /“I am not that slim myself you know”/ they agreed but I was intrigued when they said, /“hey, but we are guys, and it is not like you don’t think you are fat, you accept it, and we do too”/. At that point I was not sure whether to feel good or bad, but I just let that matter rest. Thing is that I have friends that do not mind me being big, if they did, they wouldn’t be my friends, would they?

So now I can but try to slim down, I have never felt more driven about it. I will have problems, and I may eat more now and then, but I can try and control (I kinda want to save more for hols any way), so all the best for me and may I come back to school next year watching the shock o their face =P