I actually believe i'm still on a high from Friday. like there's the remnants of Ubin still under my skin, and that always gives me a little joy in my everyday work. and a bit of poop to clear up this week. API due, 2 tests in 3 days, and i've got my schedule packed for the days up till friday. but surprisingly, i think the weekend is still kinda free >.< haha. SURPRISE.
Today after school, went down to Chinatown (i've always wanted to say that!) to do some measurements for our Costumes for R&Gad. it was fine, no great shakes. i realise that its hard to converse when 2 girls who know each other are around, it makes whatever i say seem very intrusive, at least that's how i feel, haha.
I think about what Kenneth said during Ubin. We all started on the 2nd half of our day, and i think Hui Min had a problem with her bike cable or something. Eugene was helping to fix, so the rest of us were waiting at the foot of the hill, and we were talking. Me, "Eugene's helping Hui Min fix her bicycle chain? haha, just like Eugene, always 'The Healer' " so we categorised our guys into stereotypical party members
Eugene : The Healer
Raghav : The Aggro
Jonathan : The Tank
Kenneth : THE CHEAT CODE
haha, you can go figure out what the others mean, but for me, i was quite intrigued when Kenneth said i was the Tank. (not the physical way mind you >.<) The Tank has high HP, and takes a lot of damage for the team, enough so that they can move in for the kill. haha, sounds a little sad, and a little unlike me, in the sense that i usually wouldn't so easily sacrifice myself, cuz i'm kinda selfish >.< but then the more i thought about it, it seemed to make sense.
As a Tank, your objective is to help the rest of the team by letting yourself take the hits. And for the Ubin Trip, i did take some crap from some people, and had to brave the 'sian-ness' of people, so that the event would still go on, and so those who did turn up would have a good time. or on a daily basis with friends, i try to interact with everyone, and TRY to let them feel included, but at that time, by not focusing on a core group, i don't get as close to them, and i lose out on the friendships with more depth.
haha, i was extremely lucky with the TA people though. with the guys being in the same class, i had a good 2 years to spend with the gang of guys, and that's why we are as close as we are, but before, and even now, i realise that making close friends is not easy for me, because i want to try to be friends with everyone.
I watched the 2nd Naruto Shippuden Movie, Bonds, over the weekend. i want to be like Naruto, haha cliche yes. I'm just as loud, rowdy, annoying, but i hope to be as inspiring. there was a scene where he took a stab from his friend to prevent her from killing herself, he said something along the lines of, "i have always been alone, and i never want to see anyone feel that kind of pain ever again, so i will take on all your pain for you" and i completely understand what he means.
so till the time where i learn to grow up, and live more for others, i will keep trying hard, and be there for the people who matter much to me :)
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