Meep meep! so many things to do! i have effectively made my entire weekend and now days leading away from weekend, filled up, when usually it should be this time which i'm most free.
Just this week so far: Weekend was kinda no life, haha. Sat morn was rehearsal, and had the whole afternoon to myself! but due to others not having free time, i spent the rest of the day just reading SHAMAN KING! haha, well at least i'm almost up to speed with the series! i even had to write myself a note to stop wasting my time just reading shaman king, need to get on with the rest of my life! Sunday was pretty much all rehearsal, since it was pushed forward to 3pm, and lasted all the way till 8+.
Yesterday, guess what i did? REHEARSAL, again. haha, seems like monday is our designated weekday rehearsal. so down to SMU and rehearsed till 9ish. Its only 3 more weeks till production! i can't wait! haha, i want to see it all put together, in its entirety and profession, but also, i just want it to be over, then i can get onto the rest of the plans i have!
speaking of clashing plans... I just got my duty forecast! and man is it giving me a mondo-headache! first, i have a duty on production DAY (Fri, 17th) and i'd gladly trade it for other days, but i've got ANOTHER FRIDAY, and a SATURDAY on the weekend just before production.... sigh... the trouble. now desperately trying to get my duties swapped out.
Just in case you were wondering what Duty is. For me i'm doing Guard Duty, Prowling. so basically i stay in camp, get assigned a detail, and do 2 hours of prowling and then 4 hours of rest, and this goes on for about 2 cycles on a weekday, and 4 cycles on a weekend. prowling is just walking the camp area, with arms drawn of course. It actually sounds quite fun, since i get duty rest the next day and that means no need to do work for half a day, but this doesn't happen if i got friday duties (since next day is Sat) and Sat duties (since next day is Sun), paired with sunday also being 24-hr duty, these are the 3 worst days to have duty. sigh... i actually don't mind doing (i believe Ni3 De Jiu4 Shi4 Ni3 De, Bu4 Shi4 Ni3 De Jiu4 Bu4 Shi4 De, or translated to What is yours is yours, what isn't yours isn't yours) but this month is just messed up. I should have submitted my duty committments with more thought put into it... sadly, i didn't >.< now i gotta go clear the mess i made.
Along with Duty committments, the work at unit is starting to come in. as i learn more from Jeremy, i find that there is a lot more to know. I actually don't like the helpless feeling of always needing someone else's card, or needing Jeremy to approve and check whatever i'm doing, but it is part of the learning process, and it is this discomfort that will drive me to learn things on my own.
I actually prefer and education like this. learning on the job, and watching as what i learn immediately get translated into doing something, or improving a job process. I've always been this hands on guy, and i learn best by trying things on my own, making a few careful mistakes, and picking myself up along the way.
However, despite all this enthusiasm, the day still seems to pass very slowly. like i'm waiting forever for the clock to strike 12pm for lunch and 5pm for fall out, maybe because i'm still a dependant, still observing, and not really taking on the responsibilities full force. but hey, take it easy! its just the 2nd week, you still have a whole 1+ year to go!
Tomorrow's another day. Wednesday. damn, this week a bit the slow huh? haha. and this friday is my first Duty, coupled with rehearsal on Sat morn. woo. haha, i hope i don't burn out! (maybe i should reward myself with a nice breakfast on Sat!)
till then, army boy out!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Fighting Frog
When you roll on the sugar like that,
it scares my fighting frog.
tweed is made from sugar crystals,
and i'm a smelly log.
wee. typed whatever popped into my head. that seems like a nice way to start my posts! haven't got much to update. weekends are gonna be pretty much 'rehearsal-rehearsal-rehearsal' 3 more weeks to production! woo. can't wait for it to be done :)
it scares my fighting frog.
tweed is made from sugar crystals,
and i'm a smelly log.
wee. typed whatever popped into my head. that seems like a nice way to start my posts! haven't got much to update. weekends are gonna be pretty much 'rehearsal-rehearsal-rehearsal' 3 more weeks to production! woo. can't wait for it to be done :)
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Post as i Digest my BBQ dinner :D
MMMmmm..! BBQ! haha, haven't had that in a while, and every now and then we should use the BBQ pit here, to justify the monthly payments we are making. Afterall, i don't play tennis, and i hardly swim anymore, so the BBQ Pit is the only other thing i use, apart from the fitness corner everyday.
Haha, was kinda mean to Mom tho. kinda left her to rush and plan/do everything on her own today. Afterall, i was in camp, and i think we were unable to book for after Fri, so today was the only option! Mom got all the food ready, Fried Bee Hoon, potato salad, meats and all, PorPor brought some Curry that she made, and the spread was great.
I think i ate too much >.< sigh, and after all that effort to lose weight. oh well, at least i'm running 12km for Live run tmr! then i'll be able to feel less guilty, hur. My stomach's kinda bloated and bursting now. Haven't had so much carbohydrates for dinner in REALLY LONG. i kept exclaiming "I miss eating bread so much!" haha, yes yes, i'm a little ang moh kid, but i love rice too! but i just like bread that smidgen more than rice XP
My posting has been really good so far! sure, it may seem i got some lazy job, sitting in an office all day, but i'm actually quite excited about my job scope, got a lot of potential to do interesting things. I really wish i could say more about what i do, but i'm not really sure what i'm allowed to disclose and what i am not. so to be on the safe side, i'll just not say anything, you can ask me all about it in person :)
So life's been good. feeling a little lazy in the office, cuz i'm not actually doing anything. waiting for some clearance pass to come, then i can use the computers, but as of now, i'm just helping my stand-in upperstudy, Jeremy, get some work done. doing work passes the time much more than just stoning.
I signed up for the NS plan last night, so as of next week i should be able to access my UNLIMITE FREE SMS! haha, i think that's gonna be quite worth it, cuz i'm really spamming on the messages now that i'm in army. just feel that need to connect with friends, haha, you know, since there's no other way to, and sms is oh so convenient :)
I'm really counting down the days to production! can't wait to get it over and done with XD a little worried about my month of July and August. Duty Forecase should be coming out soon, and as of next month, i'll be getting my hand at Prowling Duty, shouldn't be too bad, since it has to be done, then do it lah. plus i get to earn off! woo! i don't mind that at all!
My worry for July is passing my IPPT. i really should get my ass down to passing the damn thing. i must pass, just once so that i can get my 3 SGT. that's all. i want it so bad. now Milks no longer around to push me, i must do so myself. need to go gym, it seems like that's the only way i'll make it in time. its gonna make me damn shag, but its only for 1 month. the only worry is balancing that with Production. yeah that kinda worries me.
Ahh... i've just got to spend some time and digest all that food, then off to sleep i go :) catch ya'll soon!
holla at Raghav who just came back from India!
Haha, was kinda mean to Mom tho. kinda left her to rush and plan/do everything on her own today. Afterall, i was in camp, and i think we were unable to book for after Fri, so today was the only option! Mom got all the food ready, Fried Bee Hoon, potato salad, meats and all, PorPor brought some Curry that she made, and the spread was great.
I think i ate too much >.< sigh, and after all that effort to lose weight. oh well, at least i'm running 12km for Live run tmr! then i'll be able to feel less guilty, hur. My stomach's kinda bloated and bursting now. Haven't had so much carbohydrates for dinner in REALLY LONG. i kept exclaiming "I miss eating bread so much!" haha, yes yes, i'm a little ang moh kid, but i love rice too! but i just like bread that smidgen more than rice XP
My posting has been really good so far! sure, it may seem i got some lazy job, sitting in an office all day, but i'm actually quite excited about my job scope, got a lot of potential to do interesting things. I really wish i could say more about what i do, but i'm not really sure what i'm allowed to disclose and what i am not. so to be on the safe side, i'll just not say anything, you can ask me all about it in person :)
So life's been good. feeling a little lazy in the office, cuz i'm not actually doing anything. waiting for some clearance pass to come, then i can use the computers, but as of now, i'm just helping my stand-in upperstudy, Jeremy, get some work done. doing work passes the time much more than just stoning.
I signed up for the NS plan last night, so as of next week i should be able to access my UNLIMITE FREE SMS! haha, i think that's gonna be quite worth it, cuz i'm really spamming on the messages now that i'm in army. just feel that need to connect with friends, haha, you know, since there's no other way to, and sms is oh so convenient :)
I'm really counting down the days to production! can't wait to get it over and done with XD a little worried about my month of July and August. Duty Forecase should be coming out soon, and as of next month, i'll be getting my hand at Prowling Duty, shouldn't be too bad, since it has to be done, then do it lah. plus i get to earn off! woo! i don't mind that at all!
My worry for July is passing my IPPT. i really should get my ass down to passing the damn thing. i must pass, just once so that i can get my 3 SGT. that's all. i want it so bad. now Milks no longer around to push me, i must do so myself. need to go gym, it seems like that's the only way i'll make it in time. its gonna make me damn shag, but its only for 1 month. the only worry is balancing that with Production. yeah that kinda worries me.
Ahh... i've just got to spend some time and digest all that food, then off to sleep i go :) catch ya'll soon!
holla at Raghav who just came back from India!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Some Me Time
Hello Ya'll, hmmm maybe i should have posted this earlier then it would be more obvious how early i am home today. heh. Anyway, got early fall out today, and was actually planning to go out and meet people, but seems like no one's free... so its okay i guess, some 'Me-time' to get reacquainted with myself :)
I had an early fall out today because this morning i decided to attend the wake of the army fellow that passed on recently. he was from my unit, but he was posted overseas, so didn't get a chance to know him, so when the news came, it kinda felt like, 'oh its just another guy' but i think my perspective really changed after the proceedings at this morning wake/funeral/cremation. The first thing that struck me was during the eulogy, when i heard all the stories told and all the good words put in. at first i felt that maybe its just what should be said, and it would be the same old cliches that we hear so often. But actually hearing how the commanders said their peice, i thought different, and started to appreciate more than just a soldier, but as an individual.
The other part was during the cremation. i stood outside as there was insufficient space in the viewing gallery, and i saw the tears flowing from the eyes of the many commanders that i was so familiar seeing around camp. sometimes when serving NS, with the ranks and the regimentation, i forget that we are group comprising of people, of individuals, and of friends. when i saw 1SG Daniel crying, i was seriously stunned. he usually has this cool and lazy look to his face, that it is hard to imagine him bawling his eyes for his lost friend.
And as i stood around looking at the people around me, i realised that so many of us who didn't know who he was, couldn't really bring ourselves to feel for the guy. sure, we paid our respects, but there's a certain awkwardness and a certain distance, when you don't know the deceased personally. such were the distinct difference it people i saw today. unfortunate but true.
Then i thought back to Ah Gong's funeral (Gking Gking's Dad) and realised that the situation was not that different. sure, in that case there weren't 50+ NSFs paying their respects, but its a similar situation as there are bound to be those who are not as close and familiar to the deceased, but what was important was the paying of respects, and the effort made to show the family that there was care and support from those who mattered.
I couldn't help but wonder what my own funeral will be like. I almost don't want to talk about this since its so cliche, and such an obvious thing to do at a funeral procession, but i guess its cliche because its natural. I wondered what mine would be like, what would be said? who would be there?
Let's see, this is the 2nd Funeral i've attended in the last 1+ month? and i'm performing in a play that is deals a little with death and existentialism, but no no, i'm not emo, just thinking. I thought about what happens in death. well, i would cease to exist physically, but what else? and i know this is only going to exacerbate my bad habit of constantly craving attention, but i hope to leave a legacy behind. something that people can look to and derive inspiration, to be a memory not a passive one, but memories that teach lessons, that inspire, and memories that are not easily forgotten. then at my funeral, the eulogies will be of joy, and sadness, inspirational and memorable.
i guess that's why i didn't want to stay home today. There's no one at home at the moment. maybe i'll spend this evening downstairs. (or maybe i'll spend it reading Shaman King! who knows, haha) I want to play an active role in getting myself off my lazy bum and be part of the memories of others. to organise events we can laugh about as we meet many years down the road. making connections that do not easily sever. And i want to be important to people.
yay, so i had some me time to think today. These times are good, but if i can i want to balance with more family time, and friend time if you please :)
I had an early fall out today because this morning i decided to attend the wake of the army fellow that passed on recently. he was from my unit, but he was posted overseas, so didn't get a chance to know him, so when the news came, it kinda felt like, 'oh its just another guy' but i think my perspective really changed after the proceedings at this morning wake/funeral/cremation. The first thing that struck me was during the eulogy, when i heard all the stories told and all the good words put in. at first i felt that maybe its just what should be said, and it would be the same old cliches that we hear so often. But actually hearing how the commanders said their peice, i thought different, and started to appreciate more than just a soldier, but as an individual.
The other part was during the cremation. i stood outside as there was insufficient space in the viewing gallery, and i saw the tears flowing from the eyes of the many commanders that i was so familiar seeing around camp. sometimes when serving NS, with the ranks and the regimentation, i forget that we are group comprising of people, of individuals, and of friends. when i saw 1SG Daniel crying, i was seriously stunned. he usually has this cool and lazy look to his face, that it is hard to imagine him bawling his eyes for his lost friend.
And as i stood around looking at the people around me, i realised that so many of us who didn't know who he was, couldn't really bring ourselves to feel for the guy. sure, we paid our respects, but there's a certain awkwardness and a certain distance, when you don't know the deceased personally. such were the distinct difference it people i saw today. unfortunate but true.
Then i thought back to Ah Gong's funeral (Gking Gking's Dad) and realised that the situation was not that different. sure, in that case there weren't 50+ NSFs paying their respects, but its a similar situation as there are bound to be those who are not as close and familiar to the deceased, but what was important was the paying of respects, and the effort made to show the family that there was care and support from those who mattered.
I couldn't help but wonder what my own funeral will be like. I almost don't want to talk about this since its so cliche, and such an obvious thing to do at a funeral procession, but i guess its cliche because its natural. I wondered what mine would be like, what would be said? who would be there?
Let's see, this is the 2nd Funeral i've attended in the last 1+ month? and i'm performing in a play that is deals a little with death and existentialism, but no no, i'm not emo, just thinking. I thought about what happens in death. well, i would cease to exist physically, but what else? and i know this is only going to exacerbate my bad habit of constantly craving attention, but i hope to leave a legacy behind. something that people can look to and derive inspiration, to be a memory not a passive one, but memories that teach lessons, that inspire, and memories that are not easily forgotten. then at my funeral, the eulogies will be of joy, and sadness, inspirational and memorable.
i guess that's why i didn't want to stay home today. There's no one at home at the moment. maybe i'll spend this evening downstairs. (or maybe i'll spend it reading Shaman King! who knows, haha) I want to play an active role in getting myself off my lazy bum and be part of the memories of others. to organise events we can laugh about as we meet many years down the road. making connections that do not easily sever. And i want to be important to people.
yay, so i had some me time to think today. These times are good, but if i can i want to balance with more family time, and friend time if you please :)
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Movie Junkie
I was all prepared to go all ape over my new obsession of the past 2 days, but then it decided to go irritating on me, and now i'm a little fed up. Sigh. Good, but just not good enough >.<
Anyway! let's get to storytelling! Saturday had rehearsal in the morning as usual, and was going to meet the guys at Siglap for lunch. We were at KFC laughing over army stories, and congratulating varun on his OCS achievement (stupid kid is scared now! haha) and talking about Eugene's 'adventure'. heh, shan't give it away, go ask him yourself. Anyway, caught up just like we used to, and then left to go down to Parkway Parade to spend our afternoon.
We made a slight detour to Video Ezy (heh heh) and there was the $3 VCDs sitting there, calling out to me like a clarion call... at first i wasn't gonna get anything, even though it was only $3, but then! something caught my eye! Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan! after hearing how Gku Gku and Mom gush all over how good it was, i had my curiousity perked, and was quite intent on getting it! so since i was ready to get 1, why not make it 5? and woo, just like that $15 was spent, but getting some cool movies, like Batman (the Tim Burton, Jack Nicholson one!), The Girl Who leapt through Time, The Leap Years and The Singing Detective (it was mainly for the stellar cast of Robert Downey Jr, Mel Gibson and the likes).
At first i was thinking that VCDs aren't that practical now, since on the home theatre it won't have good quality picture and sound, and besides, the computer running it is kinda spoilt, so no point right? WRONG! it struck me, that i could finally install my mp4 player CD to convert the VCDs into clips for my Player! then i can watch movies on the go! just like those IPod/IPhone bastards :D Sure, my screen may not be as big, but its good enough to pass the time and take those long rides, its better than the same old music i've been hearing time and time again XP So Sat night was spent converting files and uplouding 1/2 movies into the player, 2.1 GB isn't that much space, especially when i'm trying to squeeze in songs as well...
By why stop at 2 GB? The brilliant thing about my MP4 player is that it can accomodate microSD cards as external memory as well! woo~ so this morning when we went out to run errands of settling Matthew's phone, and changing ownership of my number, i decided to pop down and get myself another microSD card! to chock my player with more space and MORE MOVIES :D Finally settled on an 8 GB microSDHC for a reasonable price of about $40 and couldn't wait to get back to shove all those movies in! (I found an old George of the Jungle VCD! i loved that movie, hilarious shizz XP)
And i've been home for quite a few hours now, and this is the turnaround point, the damn microSDHC doesn't seem to be compatible with my player >.< sigh... its not even compatible with my com! it can't read the card at all! so i dunno, may have just wasted $40. maybe i'll chuck it into the Wii system Downstairs instead, maybe it'll be more effective there? But before that i'll continue trying to get the thing to work. maybe with a little upgrade here and a filesystem update there, there's hope that the card might work? will just have to try tomorrow i guess, for now its a tad too late to do all that.
I'm quite the movie junkie i realise. no i wouldn't pay for the movies, and i'm not a crazy fan of watching online, but somehow i get wind of many movies, maybe i should consider investing more in getting VCDs to put into my player... hm... haha.
another week of things ahead, can almost count down to production day. Will have to make a bunch of arrangements this coming week, hopefully not too much clashes with other plans. haha, but it sounds like a tiring week already.
Oh well, gonna have live run tmr, so shouldn't sleep too late, gotta have the energy to go for it, especially since i haven't gone for a WHOLE WEEK, hopefully i don't collapse tmr, haha. my weights not really moving, that's troubling, need to go down further! especially if i'm not eating any carbo for lunch and dinner (oh, rice, how i miss thee!) sigh, must pass IPPT! haha, goodnight ya'll!
Anyway! let's get to storytelling! Saturday had rehearsal in the morning as usual, and was going to meet the guys at Siglap for lunch. We were at KFC laughing over army stories, and congratulating varun on his OCS achievement (stupid kid is scared now! haha) and talking about Eugene's 'adventure'. heh, shan't give it away, go ask him yourself. Anyway, caught up just like we used to, and then left to go down to Parkway Parade to spend our afternoon.
We made a slight detour to Video Ezy (heh heh) and there was the $3 VCDs sitting there, calling out to me like a clarion call... at first i wasn't gonna get anything, even though it was only $3, but then! something caught my eye! Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan! after hearing how Gku Gku and Mom gush all over how good it was, i had my curiousity perked, and was quite intent on getting it! so since i was ready to get 1, why not make it 5? and woo, just like that $15 was spent, but getting some cool movies, like Batman (the Tim Burton, Jack Nicholson one!), The Girl Who leapt through Time, The Leap Years and The Singing Detective (it was mainly for the stellar cast of Robert Downey Jr, Mel Gibson and the likes).
At first i was thinking that VCDs aren't that practical now, since on the home theatre it won't have good quality picture and sound, and besides, the computer running it is kinda spoilt, so no point right? WRONG! it struck me, that i could finally install my mp4 player CD to convert the VCDs into clips for my Player! then i can watch movies on the go! just like those IPod/IPhone bastards :D Sure, my screen may not be as big, but its good enough to pass the time and take those long rides, its better than the same old music i've been hearing time and time again XP So Sat night was spent converting files and uplouding 1/2 movies into the player, 2.1 GB isn't that much space, especially when i'm trying to squeeze in songs as well...
By why stop at 2 GB? The brilliant thing about my MP4 player is that it can accomodate microSD cards as external memory as well! woo~ so this morning when we went out to run errands of settling Matthew's phone, and changing ownership of my number, i decided to pop down and get myself another microSD card! to chock my player with more space and MORE MOVIES :D Finally settled on an 8 GB microSDHC for a reasonable price of about $40 and couldn't wait to get back to shove all those movies in! (I found an old George of the Jungle VCD! i loved that movie, hilarious shizz XP)
And i've been home for quite a few hours now, and this is the turnaround point, the damn microSDHC doesn't seem to be compatible with my player >.< sigh... its not even compatible with my com! it can't read the card at all! so i dunno, may have just wasted $40. maybe i'll chuck it into the Wii system Downstairs instead, maybe it'll be more effective there? But before that i'll continue trying to get the thing to work. maybe with a little upgrade here and a filesystem update there, there's hope that the card might work? will just have to try tomorrow i guess, for now its a tad too late to do all that.
I'm quite the movie junkie i realise. no i wouldn't pay for the movies, and i'm not a crazy fan of watching online, but somehow i get wind of many movies, maybe i should consider investing more in getting VCDs to put into my player... hm... haha.
another week of things ahead, can almost count down to production day. Will have to make a bunch of arrangements this coming week, hopefully not too much clashes with other plans. haha, but it sounds like a tiring week already.
Oh well, gonna have live run tmr, so shouldn't sleep too late, gotta have the energy to go for it, especially since i haven't gone for a WHOLE WEEK, hopefully i don't collapse tmr, haha. my weights not really moving, that's troubling, need to go down further! especially if i'm not eating any carbo for lunch and dinner (oh, rice, how i miss thee!) sigh, must pass IPPT! haha, goodnight ya'll!
Friday, June 19, 2009
Shonen Jumpy Jumpy!
Having spent the last 3 days at home instead of going out, i realise that i dont have the urge to blog so much when i'm not doing anything. but it seems to be somewhat of an obligation now, so i shall, and as i start this para, i'm starting to think of things to blog about!
Okay, so the thing is not really that i don't wanna blog, its just that now when i go online, the main thing i want to do is READ MANGA! haha, stupid Milks must have passed me his disease (not the dissentry one :D) So the past few days i've been indulging myself in manga on onemanga.com!
I already read/am following
+ Naruto
+ Bleach
+ Katekyo Hitman Reborn
+ Liar Game
+ Addicted to Curry
+ Yakitate Japan
+ No Bra
+ I"s
there are a few more, but i can't remember off hand
Adding to my list of manga i'm reading:
+ Ichigo 100%
+ Shaman King
Ichigo 100%! haha, that might seem like a wierd choice, but after reading I"s, i realise i like these kind of wierd, funny, awkward, sweet, perverted, romance, stupid kind of manga. i like to laugh out loud at the guys antics, feel a little jealous, but also ogle at girls :D haha, yes yes, go ahead and judge me, but if you ever pick up ichigo 100% i'm sure you'd get hooked and laugh along too :)
Shaman King was surprising for me. i watched the Anime when they use to screen it on the (then known) Central Channel, but i think it stopped at some episode and i never bothered to look for the episodes further online. So i randomly decided to see the first few chapters of Shaman King, and now i'm hooked again! But according to Milks, the story get quite bad towards the end, so maybe i should just follow the retcon and follow the second story when i get to it. hmm... shall think about it. now i'll just enjoy my shaman king :D
So yeah that's pretty much what i've been doing at home. not terribly exciting i know, but hey, i enjoy it! and its a good break from the previous slew of outings. Sat Sun will have things to do, but i think most of it will be eaten by rehearsals >.< Work-wise there's been HUMUNGO LOTS of changes! but i don't know how much i can disclose... hmmm... just the surface stuff will do for now. Well, i've officially finished my ATT course, and am now a certified (with certificate!) Ammo Tech! so with a little elbow grease to pass my IPPT, 3rd SGT here i come! So with Wed, we got our posting orders! the numbers were quite funny. Derek obviously disrupting for Medicine, so he's a LOBO now, 2 guys at SYS office, 2 guys OPS branch, 6 at CTAB (this was a unusually high number!), 10 at GSAB, and the most hilarious posting of the day goes to Lin Zhe Zhao, proud posting of the SOA permstaff HAHAHA, poor fellow, took us all completely by surprise. Funny thing, with his "wonderful attendance" and "great results" he still got posted to school, oh well, its That Guy's choice. Haha, good luck ZZ!
Then i was 1 of the 10 posted to GSAB, and with that info, i figured i was almost definitely getting PAD, afterall, it is closest to home, and my PES status fits perfectly with it. Thursday was our Induction programme, and we pretty much sat at SOA getting lecture after lecture of what GSAB is and all the things we might/will be doing, duty and whatnot. then the moment of revelation came as we got our GSAB postings. i'm thinking that this post will be traced, so as little revealed as possible is best, but whatever it is, i got posted to HQ! which was utter surprise for me! okay okay, all the other details ask me in person!
So now the next chapter begins! i've got a great stand in upper study, who's very on the ball, and eager to teach, and i'm off course eager to learn, so that's not a problem. I'm quite happy to start my work proper as an Ammo Tech, but i also must get my stupid IPPT out of the way. gah. well, i've got to work hard!
Next Month is gonna be... HECTIC. with Duty starting, and R&Gad going full force into the final stages of production, i don't even know if i can get my leave to be approved. hope all goes well on monday! but what excitement! i can't wait for all these to fall into place! i am making plans for the next few months already! i should probably get a daily planner, i need to see all my plans fall nicely into my calendar, or face possible trouble with my unit, or with other people.
Things lined up for June and after:
+ Production R&Gad
+ Studying/ taking my FTT
+ Start Chionging my Driving lessons to get my License!
+ 2 Star Kayaking and hopefully expedition after that!
+ apply to overseas Uni's (i really got to stop talking about it and just get it done)
+ make the 'Factory Game' ~ and possible hold a game night!
+ plan an overseas trip if possible. all the best for Varun's posting (Don't mess up our plans!)
haha, these are just the things off the top of my head. woo, i like being busy! the girls are starting school soon. sigh. syak's going away soon. Rag's going away soon. the only consolation is that nick is back in Asia! hope when he comes to visit it won't be in the middle of production >.<
after looking at my list, i'm getting a little wary, and a little dauted by my plans... but its the exciting kind of daunted! :D EXCITING!
haha, i wonder how i'm gonna sleep with this new found excitement, lol.
Okay, so the thing is not really that i don't wanna blog, its just that now when i go online, the main thing i want to do is READ MANGA! haha, stupid Milks must have passed me his disease (not the dissentry one :D) So the past few days i've been indulging myself in manga on onemanga.com!
I already read/am following
+ Naruto
+ Bleach
+ Katekyo Hitman Reborn
+ Liar Game
+ Addicted to Curry
+ Yakitate Japan
+ No Bra
+ I"s
there are a few more, but i can't remember off hand
Adding to my list of manga i'm reading:
+ Ichigo 100%
+ Shaman King
Ichigo 100%! haha, that might seem like a wierd choice, but after reading I"s, i realise i like these kind of wierd, funny, awkward, sweet, perverted, romance, stupid kind of manga. i like to laugh out loud at the guys antics, feel a little jealous, but also ogle at girls :D haha, yes yes, go ahead and judge me, but if you ever pick up ichigo 100% i'm sure you'd get hooked and laugh along too :)
Shaman King was surprising for me. i watched the Anime when they use to screen it on the (then known) Central Channel, but i think it stopped at some episode and i never bothered to look for the episodes further online. So i randomly decided to see the first few chapters of Shaman King, and now i'm hooked again! But according to Milks, the story get quite bad towards the end, so maybe i should just follow the retcon and follow the second story when i get to it. hmm... shall think about it. now i'll just enjoy my shaman king :DSo yeah that's pretty much what i've been doing at home. not terribly exciting i know, but hey, i enjoy it! and its a good break from the previous slew of outings. Sat Sun will have things to do, but i think most of it will be eaten by rehearsals >.< Work-wise there's been HUMUNGO LOTS of changes! but i don't know how much i can disclose... hmmm... just the surface stuff will do for now. Well, i've officially finished my ATT course, and am now a certified (with certificate!) Ammo Tech! so with a little elbow grease to pass my IPPT, 3rd SGT here i come! So with Wed, we got our posting orders! the numbers were quite funny. Derek obviously disrupting for Medicine, so he's a LOBO now, 2 guys at SYS office, 2 guys OPS branch, 6 at CTAB (this was a unusually high number!), 10 at GSAB, and the most hilarious posting of the day goes to Lin Zhe Zhao, proud posting of the SOA permstaff HAHAHA, poor fellow, took us all completely by surprise. Funny thing, with his "wonderful attendance" and "great results" he still got posted to school, oh well, its That Guy's choice. Haha, good luck ZZ!
Then i was 1 of the 10 posted to GSAB, and with that info, i figured i was almost definitely getting PAD, afterall, it is closest to home, and my PES status fits perfectly with it. Thursday was our Induction programme, and we pretty much sat at SOA getting lecture after lecture of what GSAB is and all the things we might/will be doing, duty and whatnot. then the moment of revelation came as we got our GSAB postings. i'm thinking that this post will be traced, so as little revealed as possible is best, but whatever it is, i got posted to HQ! which was utter surprise for me! okay okay, all the other details ask me in person!
So now the next chapter begins! i've got a great stand in upper study, who's very on the ball, and eager to teach, and i'm off course eager to learn, so that's not a problem. I'm quite happy to start my work proper as an Ammo Tech, but i also must get my stupid IPPT out of the way. gah. well, i've got to work hard!
Next Month is gonna be... HECTIC. with Duty starting, and R&Gad going full force into the final stages of production, i don't even know if i can get my leave to be approved. hope all goes well on monday! but what excitement! i can't wait for all these to fall into place! i am making plans for the next few months already! i should probably get a daily planner, i need to see all my plans fall nicely into my calendar, or face possible trouble with my unit, or with other people.
Things lined up for June and after:
+ Production R&Gad
+ Studying/ taking my FTT
+ Start Chionging my Driving lessons to get my License!
+ 2 Star Kayaking and hopefully expedition after that!
+ apply to overseas Uni's (i really got to stop talking about it and just get it done)
+ make the 'Factory Game' ~ and possible hold a game night!
+ plan an overseas trip if possible. all the best for Varun's posting (Don't mess up our plans!)
haha, these are just the things off the top of my head. woo, i like being busy! the girls are starting school soon. sigh. syak's going away soon. Rag's going away soon. the only consolation is that nick is back in Asia! hope when he comes to visit it won't be in the middle of production >.<
after looking at my list, i'm getting a little wary, and a little dauted by my plans... but its the exciting kind of daunted! :D EXCITING!
haha, i wonder how i'm gonna sleep with this new found excitement, lol.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Too Much of a Good Thing
Surprise surprise! I'm actually home on a weekday evening! :O haha, that's my mom's reaction anyway. haven't exactly been the good stay at home boy for the past few days. Or as my mom likes to put it, " I have no son..."
Sigh. haha, i know she's just kidding, though i did feel a little bad, so i shall try my best to be at home and spend quality time with the family for this week :)
I came home from Malacca on Sunday, due to NS and rehearsal, but the rest of the family stayed on for one more night. And when they did return on Monday night... I wasn't home >.< Monday was AngelMortal Dinner, at least i called it that, but can't really be considered such, since the only angelmortal pairing was ZT and Sam. It gave me a major headache organising it tho, started all nice-like with everyone able to go, and turned out with so many cancellations. It ended up a lot like the previous one though, the Glass House Fish and Co. one, where only Sam and Chiaps came rep-ping the angels, and 4 guys, ZT, Marcus, Gene and I repping the mortals. This time, the only difference was Eugene swapped out for Varun, he was bored, wanted to tag along. I kinda felt i let down those who went, since ZT was 'sian' and varun didn't really mesh. i was afraid the girls wouldn't enjoy themselves too, Marcus seemed quite alright, haha. But it was a chance to meet Sam and Chiaps i guess, though i realised i didn't talk that much to them, gotta work on that...
So with a little heavy heart, i went home mulling over what could be done to salvage the situation, or at least, lessons to learn so that i won't make such mistakes again. Thought about it long and hard, but didn't really have any answer to it. The other worry, of course, was that we were supposed to meet up the next day too, and i didn't want it to be a repeat of Monday night. what to do? what to do?
Surprisingly, a change of circumstance was what i needed to break out of the 'sian'-spell. Tuesday night (sorry MumDad for going out again >.<) was looking to be like the previous night, and i was actually quite uninspired the whole day, until going back time, when i got a call from Hui Min, to join the girls at Minds Cafe along Clarke Quay to play games and chill with them. Woo-hoo! (small teeny weeny part of the reason is because it was girls, but the bigger part was that it was a change of grouping, and! i was not the organiser anymore!) So rushed home and out again, and down to Clarke Quay where i was the first to join them, and played an awesome-shizz game called "Intrigue" but i think it was better known to us as the Factory Game.
Factory Game:
Game about betrayal, backstabbing, bluffing and bribery (note the alliteration!)
5 players
each owning 8 workers, competing to earn money in other people's factories
The game was supposed to be open table bribery, with offers and counter offers for other players to take our workers in, but we spun it into our own version! where more trechery and manipulation could be done, by organising it into a silent auction. sure it meant that during offers, those not involved were more bored, but it definitely heightened the risk of playing the game, and we enjoyed it very much!
So one of my new projects this year will be to remake that game (so we don't have to pay $3.50 an hour to play >.<) for us to play and hopefully finish the game this time!
The rest of the guys (ZT, Varun, Marcus) joined us later, but they didn't want to join the girls to play, and that was when i noticed it. It was an expectation to be entertained, but when they were not, they immediately decended into a 'sian'-ness they felt the night before. not that i want to talk badly about them, it's just that, it was tough organising something for them, if they were not open to just talk freely and have fun no matter what. I had fun with the girls, because it was loud and crazy, but also because we were open to each others ideas, suggestions and antics! so that increased the fun-ditude (fun + altitude = funditude!) of last night.
Another thing i realised, it could be due to the fact that i always meet the same people, it could be a case of 'too much of a good thing', without having enough time apart to grow and develop, when we meet, it can get boring to hear the same stories, while not having any common ground to chat about (like school and schoolmates). Abscence makes the heart grow fonder, if we are just gonna meet to chat, then we need to have more time on our own.
The other solution (IMO is better) is to go and do stuff together, varun sms-ed me later that night, and said 'if tonight was sian, its not your fault, we just didn't have anything to do" and that can easily be rectified if we go and do something! Ubin Cycling Trip was awesome fun, every beach outing was good since we do lots of crazy things, and it just takes a little effort to orgainise an event people will put thier attention to, to create shared experiences that pull us closer together.
I shall go back to thinking about activities like that. BBQs, Beach stayovers, weekend trips to malaysia, 2 star kayaking, expeditions, game nights, pot luck. just a few minutes and i'm brimming with ideas! i feel the excitement bubbling once again!
I'm glad i had these 2 days to contrast and learn from, its almost too coincidental! almost like i was meant to learn this lesson(yes yes, i've been talking to people about religion again >.<) But whatever the case, i'm glad i learnt it, i might take a break from organising events for now, but you can bet i'll be at it again soon! first gotta clear some things like R&Gad performance and maybe even my Driving License. Still! there are many years more of friendship! Many more opportunities to plan things :)
Tomorrow i start a new chapter of NS. Just finished my Ammo Tech Course today! will tell you more about GSAB once i find out where i'm posted to tmr!
Sigh. haha, i know she's just kidding, though i did feel a little bad, so i shall try my best to be at home and spend quality time with the family for this week :)
I came home from Malacca on Sunday, due to NS and rehearsal, but the rest of the family stayed on for one more night. And when they did return on Monday night... I wasn't home >.< Monday was AngelMortal Dinner, at least i called it that, but can't really be considered such, since the only angelmortal pairing was ZT and Sam. It gave me a major headache organising it tho, started all nice-like with everyone able to go, and turned out with so many cancellations. It ended up a lot like the previous one though, the Glass House Fish and Co. one, where only Sam and Chiaps came rep-ping the angels, and 4 guys, ZT, Marcus, Gene and I repping the mortals. This time, the only difference was Eugene swapped out for Varun, he was bored, wanted to tag along. I kinda felt i let down those who went, since ZT was 'sian' and varun didn't really mesh. i was afraid the girls wouldn't enjoy themselves too, Marcus seemed quite alright, haha. But it was a chance to meet Sam and Chiaps i guess, though i realised i didn't talk that much to them, gotta work on that...
So with a little heavy heart, i went home mulling over what could be done to salvage the situation, or at least, lessons to learn so that i won't make such mistakes again. Thought about it long and hard, but didn't really have any answer to it. The other worry, of course, was that we were supposed to meet up the next day too, and i didn't want it to be a repeat of Monday night. what to do? what to do?
Surprisingly, a change of circumstance was what i needed to break out of the 'sian'-spell. Tuesday night (sorry MumDad for going out again >.<) was looking to be like the previous night, and i was actually quite uninspired the whole day, until going back time, when i got a call from Hui Min, to join the girls at Minds Cafe along Clarke Quay to play games and chill with them. Woo-hoo! (small teeny weeny part of the reason is because it was girls, but the bigger part was that it was a change of grouping, and! i was not the organiser anymore!) So rushed home and out again, and down to Clarke Quay where i was the first to join them, and played an awesome-shizz game called "Intrigue" but i think it was better known to us as the Factory Game.
Factory Game:
Game about betrayal, backstabbing, bluffing and bribery (note the alliteration!)
5 players
each owning 8 workers, competing to earn money in other people's factories
The game was supposed to be open table bribery, with offers and counter offers for other players to take our workers in, but we spun it into our own version! where more trechery and manipulation could be done, by organising it into a silent auction. sure it meant that during offers, those not involved were more bored, but it definitely heightened the risk of playing the game, and we enjoyed it very much!
So one of my new projects this year will be to remake that game (so we don't have to pay $3.50 an hour to play >.<) for us to play and hopefully finish the game this time!
The rest of the guys (ZT, Varun, Marcus) joined us later, but they didn't want to join the girls to play, and that was when i noticed it. It was an expectation to be entertained, but when they were not, they immediately decended into a 'sian'-ness they felt the night before. not that i want to talk badly about them, it's just that, it was tough organising something for them, if they were not open to just talk freely and have fun no matter what. I had fun with the girls, because it was loud and crazy, but also because we were open to each others ideas, suggestions and antics! so that increased the fun-ditude (fun + altitude = funditude!) of last night.
Another thing i realised, it could be due to the fact that i always meet the same people, it could be a case of 'too much of a good thing', without having enough time apart to grow and develop, when we meet, it can get boring to hear the same stories, while not having any common ground to chat about (like school and schoolmates). Abscence makes the heart grow fonder, if we are just gonna meet to chat, then we need to have more time on our own.
The other solution (IMO is better) is to go and do stuff together, varun sms-ed me later that night, and said 'if tonight was sian, its not your fault, we just didn't have anything to do" and that can easily be rectified if we go and do something! Ubin Cycling Trip was awesome fun, every beach outing was good since we do lots of crazy things, and it just takes a little effort to orgainise an event people will put thier attention to, to create shared experiences that pull us closer together.
I shall go back to thinking about activities like that. BBQs, Beach stayovers, weekend trips to malaysia, 2 star kayaking, expeditions, game nights, pot luck. just a few minutes and i'm brimming with ideas! i feel the excitement bubbling once again!
I'm glad i had these 2 days to contrast and learn from, its almost too coincidental! almost like i was meant to learn this lesson(yes yes, i've been talking to people about religion again >.<) But whatever the case, i'm glad i learnt it, i might take a break from organising events for now, but you can bet i'll be at it again soon! first gotta clear some things like R&Gad performance and maybe even my Driving License. Still! there are many years more of friendship! Many more opportunities to plan things :)
Tomorrow i start a new chapter of NS. Just finished my Ammo Tech Course today! will tell you more about GSAB once i find out where i'm posted to tmr!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
A good thing
its another one of those intermission posts, cuz once again, i'm home uber late, and MomDad say they have no son >.< they don't mean it lah... i hope. I've spent my last 2 nights out, and out till late. 2 nights with similar people but feeling quite different after. So be patient for a little while, and i'll tell you all about it soon :)
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Gula Melaka
Hello ya'll! i'm back from my M'sia Trip, and came back from rehearsal today, so though a little tired, still have the energy to note down what happened over the weekend!
I really miss going on malaysia family trips, its so rare that i get to catch up on sleep as much as when we travel! haha. that's cuz when we go malaysia, usually we wake super early like 4 - 5 a.m. thereabouts, and we all get into the car and drive off. From there pretty much everything was a blur, cuz i spent the whole time sleeping, waking only to show my face at customs at Woodlands and on the Johore side, then back to sleep!
Of course there's the usual few rest stops, but i must have been more tired than i think, cuz i pretty much slept the whole way to malacca, oh well. since we left so early, by the time we reached it was 9.30 going on 10 a.m already, and Mom had such a frust (short for frustrating) time finding our breakfast place, that we just gave up, and went straight to lunch. For Mom, Grandpa and I, it wasn't so bad, since Grandma packed for us SweetCorn to eat along the way, but according to Grandma, Dad is not a fan of corn, and Mat... well you know his picky taste, so he was left quite the hungry bunny too.
Lunch was in 2 parts. the pre-lunch was fishball noodles/soup. some yong peng fishballs... they were alright, no great shakes. Then the main part was a nonya lunch! Maybe the Xiao Niang Re after effects haven't worn off completely, so maybe that's why we die die wanted to get some authentic Nonya food since we were in Malacca. Pictures of the food shall be posted when the rest of the family gets back!
Went a little shopping, the supermarts weren't as super as we remembered, but i got a nice new bag which i will be sporting off at camp tmr, very ME with all the red and black, and useful, now i've got a suitable bag to go out with, but also to go cycling and adventuring with Varun as well!
Then Dinner was along Jonker Street, saturday nights are also pasar malam nights, so they had loads of food stuffs that were worth getting! HOWEVER, the major tradgedy of yesterday was my nose. couldn't appreciate all the food the best of its effect cuz my nose was running/blocked/flu-ish the whole day, and so spent most of my time trying to heal from it.
that meant that by the time we returned from Jonker Street, i was too 'out-of-it' to go for seafood supper at Portugese Square, right next to our hotel/resort place. oh well, gives me a reason to go back!
Bought a few cheapo model toys, the RM1.50 ones were hard to put together and not very nicely coloured, hopefully the Gundam Model is not so bad >.<
Had a good nights rest, and so glad that the flu went away the next morning! This time finally got to eat at Selvam's this great Indian Food place which was so hard to find and get to the first time! Well got to indulge ourselves in the good food today, and for me it was to have a last good meal in Malacca, before i set off back to Singapore.
I had to come back early for 2 reasons.
1) I had R&Gad rehearsal at 4 pm on sunday
2) i've got NS/work/School/SOA tomorrow, and so i've got to be back.
So i've added Bused home from Malacca on my list of things done, took a 4 hour bus journey home, to sweet Singapore, but would not have survived if not for my trusty mp4 player! just plug in and fell asleep close to the whole way. Even now i think i feel remnants of the crazy shaking the Bus did, i think something was wrong with the suspension >.<
I feel kind fat now that im back though. totally wasted all my efforts to lose weight in the past few weeks. oh well, back to the ol' low carb thing. sigh, it was nice while it lasted.
It's great to spend time with just the family, undistracted by handphones and committments, although had to sacrifice a few things, it was great to just be with the family again :)
I'm growing up, but its good to know that there are some things i can go back to and hold on to even now :)
I really miss going on malaysia family trips, its so rare that i get to catch up on sleep as much as when we travel! haha. that's cuz when we go malaysia, usually we wake super early like 4 - 5 a.m. thereabouts, and we all get into the car and drive off. From there pretty much everything was a blur, cuz i spent the whole time sleeping, waking only to show my face at customs at Woodlands and on the Johore side, then back to sleep!
Of course there's the usual few rest stops, but i must have been more tired than i think, cuz i pretty much slept the whole way to malacca, oh well. since we left so early, by the time we reached it was 9.30 going on 10 a.m already, and Mom had such a frust (short for frustrating) time finding our breakfast place, that we just gave up, and went straight to lunch. For Mom, Grandpa and I, it wasn't so bad, since Grandma packed for us SweetCorn to eat along the way, but according to Grandma, Dad is not a fan of corn, and Mat... well you know his picky taste, so he was left quite the hungry bunny too.
Lunch was in 2 parts. the pre-lunch was fishball noodles/soup. some yong peng fishballs... they were alright, no great shakes. Then the main part was a nonya lunch! Maybe the Xiao Niang Re after effects haven't worn off completely, so maybe that's why we die die wanted to get some authentic Nonya food since we were in Malacca. Pictures of the food shall be posted when the rest of the family gets back!
Went a little shopping, the supermarts weren't as super as we remembered, but i got a nice new bag which i will be sporting off at camp tmr, very ME with all the red and black, and useful, now i've got a suitable bag to go out with, but also to go cycling and adventuring with Varun as well!
Then Dinner was along Jonker Street, saturday nights are also pasar malam nights, so they had loads of food stuffs that were worth getting! HOWEVER, the major tradgedy of yesterday was my nose. couldn't appreciate all the food the best of its effect cuz my nose was running/blocked/flu-ish the whole day, and so spent most of my time trying to heal from it.
that meant that by the time we returned from Jonker Street, i was too 'out-of-it' to go for seafood supper at Portugese Square, right next to our hotel/resort place. oh well, gives me a reason to go back!
Bought a few cheapo model toys, the RM1.50 ones were hard to put together and not very nicely coloured, hopefully the Gundam Model is not so bad >.<
Had a good nights rest, and so glad that the flu went away the next morning! This time finally got to eat at Selvam's this great Indian Food place which was so hard to find and get to the first time! Well got to indulge ourselves in the good food today, and for me it was to have a last good meal in Malacca, before i set off back to Singapore.
I had to come back early for 2 reasons.
1) I had R&Gad rehearsal at 4 pm on sunday
2) i've got NS/work/School/SOA tomorrow, and so i've got to be back.
So i've added Bused home from Malacca on my list of things done, took a 4 hour bus journey home, to sweet Singapore, but would not have survived if not for my trusty mp4 player! just plug in and fell asleep close to the whole way. Even now i think i feel remnants of the crazy shaking the Bus did, i think something was wrong with the suspension >.<
I feel kind fat now that im back though. totally wasted all my efforts to lose weight in the past few weeks. oh well, back to the ol' low carb thing. sigh, it was nice while it lasted.
It's great to spend time with just the family, undistracted by handphones and committments, although had to sacrifice a few things, it was great to just be with the family again :)
I'm growing up, but its good to know that there are some things i can go back to and hold on to even now :)
Friday, June 12, 2009
A need for more time and space
Hello! have not been updating that much this week because there were so many days that i came home utterly exhausted and lacking energy to update my blog. but now i'm back! well for a while, cuz tomorrow i'm going for a family trip to Malacca, M'sia, for a weekend of good food and reconnecting with the family :) its gonna be so nostalgic! just like when i was younger, wake up at 5 am, sleep in the car all the way to M'sia, yes yes!
I like having lots to do, but it gets tough when things clash. i originally thought wednesday would be free, since no plans were made, but Syak sprang a little surprise on me, with wednesday DINNER! the reason i'm so stunned by this is cuz Syak's curfew after JC has been really... tough, to say the least. so i haven't been able to meet her after SOA all this while, plus everytime there was an activity we were supposed to go together, either of us would be unable to make it. Sadness... but that's why seeing her again on Wed was so great, gave us a chance to reconnect a little, and make plans to meet for longer.
Blah, after a short dinner with Syak, Jane, Sian, Hui Min, Wendy and Sarah ($6!!! like seriously! that was cheap and good XD i should go out with them more often!) had to rush off for R&Gad rehearsal at SMU, and i guess my mind just wasn't there, felt like we have to meet so often because there isn't proper direction and structure to each rehearsal. if there was only some form of structure.... sigh... i should really bring this up to Cheng, but part of me doesn't want to come off as some arrogant prick telling him how to do his job, but the other part also can't really be bothered... sigh... maybe i should approach isaac? then it might be easier to break it for Cheng? i dunno. but i guess i will have a 4 hour bus ride back on Sunday to think about it. (Note to self, bring paper and writing materials.)
Was intending to plan a gathering for the POP boys on thurs, but with the last minute cancellations and the 'having errands to run' (i'm looking at you ZhongTing!) plans kind of fell through, and decided to move our plans to next tuesday! such that we can see both Nick Lau and Marc (if they don't PS me again >.<) and their newly fashioned botak heads :D looking forward to that. So instead of my plan, ZT decides to invite me and varun to dinner at Tampines1, just like how we used to (just that not in Tampines1 of course) and of course its fun laughing at varun, or joking about ZT's insecurities, or me being (not-so-) Fat (-anymore) :D and had a decent dinner at Carl's Juniors, yum. Mmmm... Guacamole *drools the Homer way*
A funny comment came from Varun, "i didn't really make much friends in BMT. I have BMT friends, and the pre-BMT friends, if i make more friends in BMT, then i will lose some of the pre-BMT freinds" or something to that effect. I kinda get what he's getting at though. i mean, with Syak going off in July, Raghav too, Dim's already gone, and in fact is going FURTHER, girls are starting school, we're all drifting in our directions, the true test of our friendships are just beginning.
Then another thing hit me. How we make such friends in the first place. I'm so close to the bunch of guys, consisting of Gene, Marcus, Varun, Kenny, ZT, Fidot, Gavin, just to name a few, is because we used to spend so much time together, we had all the free time in the world to do stupid things and create memories and get to know each other better, things we would like to know, and things we were better off not knowing, its a package, that can only reveal itself with time. I'm thinking that my event planning doesn't have to be as ambitious as doing some expedition or cycling trip, what is important is that we have the space and time to sit around (we don't necessarily have to sit, standing or running is fine with me too (: ) and talk and catch up and reminisce and make fun of Varun.
Good Friends spend time together, Great Friends spend TOO MUCH time with each other.
There's a need for more time and space, to meet up and just connect. without the luxury of school, and with the added weight of more responsibility, it gets tough to have much time to spend with the people we hold close. so that's why i must make time for them, friends, and for this weekend, its all about the family!
There's love that needs to be shared :)
I like having lots to do, but it gets tough when things clash. i originally thought wednesday would be free, since no plans were made, but Syak sprang a little surprise on me, with wednesday DINNER! the reason i'm so stunned by this is cuz Syak's curfew after JC has been really... tough, to say the least. so i haven't been able to meet her after SOA all this while, plus everytime there was an activity we were supposed to go together, either of us would be unable to make it. Sadness... but that's why seeing her again on Wed was so great, gave us a chance to reconnect a little, and make plans to meet for longer.
Blah, after a short dinner with Syak, Jane, Sian, Hui Min, Wendy and Sarah ($6!!! like seriously! that was cheap and good XD i should go out with them more often!) had to rush off for R&Gad rehearsal at SMU, and i guess my mind just wasn't there, felt like we have to meet so often because there isn't proper direction and structure to each rehearsal. if there was only some form of structure.... sigh... i should really bring this up to Cheng, but part of me doesn't want to come off as some arrogant prick telling him how to do his job, but the other part also can't really be bothered... sigh... maybe i should approach isaac? then it might be easier to break it for Cheng? i dunno. but i guess i will have a 4 hour bus ride back on Sunday to think about it. (Note to self, bring paper and writing materials.)
Was intending to plan a gathering for the POP boys on thurs, but with the last minute cancellations and the 'having errands to run' (i'm looking at you ZhongTing!) plans kind of fell through, and decided to move our plans to next tuesday! such that we can see both Nick Lau and Marc (if they don't PS me again >.<) and their newly fashioned botak heads :D looking forward to that. So instead of my plan, ZT decides to invite me and varun to dinner at Tampines1, just like how we used to (just that not in Tampines1 of course) and of course its fun laughing at varun, or joking about ZT's insecurities, or me being (not-so-) Fat (-anymore) :D and had a decent dinner at Carl's Juniors, yum. Mmmm... Guacamole *drools the Homer way*
A funny comment came from Varun, "i didn't really make much friends in BMT. I have BMT friends, and the pre-BMT friends, if i make more friends in BMT, then i will lose some of the pre-BMT freinds" or something to that effect. I kinda get what he's getting at though. i mean, with Syak going off in July, Raghav too, Dim's already gone, and in fact is going FURTHER, girls are starting school, we're all drifting in our directions, the true test of our friendships are just beginning.
Then another thing hit me. How we make such friends in the first place. I'm so close to the bunch of guys, consisting of Gene, Marcus, Varun, Kenny, ZT, Fidot, Gavin, just to name a few, is because we used to spend so much time together, we had all the free time in the world to do stupid things and create memories and get to know each other better, things we would like to know, and things we were better off not knowing, its a package, that can only reveal itself with time. I'm thinking that my event planning doesn't have to be as ambitious as doing some expedition or cycling trip, what is important is that we have the space and time to sit around (we don't necessarily have to sit, standing or running is fine with me too (: ) and talk and catch up and reminisce and make fun of Varun.
Good Friends spend time together, Great Friends spend TOO MUCH time with each other.
There's a need for more time and space, to meet up and just connect. without the luxury of school, and with the added weight of more responsibility, it gets tough to have much time to spend with the people we hold close. so that's why i must make time for them, friends, and for this weekend, its all about the family!
There's love that needs to be shared :)
Thursday, June 11, 2009
A need for time and space
Hello! just came home from Dinner with Varun and ZT, but its super late, tmr got Live Run, and i'm kinda tired, so i'll post tmr or something. for now, Sleepytime! :D
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
The Climb
Damn Derek! its all your fault! now i feel all cliche and 'mainstream' haha, but its okay, there's a certain uniqueness from being mainstream when i'm supposed to be unique! haha (that sorta made sense >.<)
I mentioned before that i MUST get the Hannah Montana OST! AND I FINALLY DID! haha, okay, i can bet that a whole bunch of people are gonna give me weird looks about now, but its okay! I'm Happy :D I can't believe i did it though, almost like i was hypnotised by it, and seems like so has a lot of people >.<
Sunday, i couldn't help but have all the songs stuck in my head. The Climb, Butterfly fly away and the best was Rascal Flatt's Bless the Broken Road, it just kept playing in my head, even searched all the lyrics online so that it wouldn't just be tunes running in my head. Like i said, i'm a lyrics kind of guy, i like meaningful lyrics that say something, haha, Hannah Montana might not be the best example, but they have a nice ring to it, and Miley has a voice that just clings on to you :)
Monday, decided that after camp i was gonna find the damn CD! couldn't stand it anymore, i would hear my player and it still got drowned out by the HM songs in my head, so had to get them. Ever since That CD Shop left Tiong Bahru Plaza, there hasn't been any replacement, kinda wish i had made use of the place before it became a Wanko (that's really the name of the shop >.<). Next stop, Vivo! and i can't believe i took 2 buses, passed by home, just to go to Vivo! and even after travelling all the way there, went to the Music shop, and lo and behold... THE ALBUM WAS OUT OF STOCK. sigh... went home dissapointed, but that's not going to be the end of it!
Today, decided that i'll try a new way home, since i wanted to pass by Borders to see if they carried the CD. so when i finally got there, the CD was finally there! BUT, it was the LAST COPY! like seriously?!? i'm a little wierd so me getting is fine, but the tweenie crowd it is meant for doesn't have the income to get it.. right? hmm... maybe i have underestimated this Hannah Montana Franchise... and during the small talk with the cashier, she even said that the GUY in front of me bought the same CD! sheesh....
CONFESSION: feel so bad >.<>.< said it was for my cousin, but actually... you know... hahaha. oh well, at least i have confessed here right? so random cashier lady, i hope you see this, though you don't know who i am. I'm enjoying the CD very much :)
haha, i sound like such a teenie-bopper in this post. its just another side of me! or maybe it has to do with the fact that as i typed out the entire post, the Hannah Montana Movie Sountrack is playing in the background. (aside: Backwards by Rascal Flatts is a hilarious song!) Soon gonna put the album in my MP4 player! then can enjoy it for the days to come while the songs still ring :)
+++
:( i'm worried about the next few days, Wed has lots of things clashing, and so does Sat... sigh, can't be helped i guess, that's what happens when i over commit, so have to learn to balance, i'm still in a dilemma over tmr tho. SO LITTLE TIME SO MUCH TO DO!
haha, i shall just slow down and enjoy a little HM music first. check back soon :)
I mentioned before that i MUST get the Hannah Montana OST! AND I FINALLY DID! haha, okay, i can bet that a whole bunch of people are gonna give me weird looks about now, but its okay! I'm Happy :D I can't believe i did it though, almost like i was hypnotised by it, and seems like so has a lot of people >.<
Sunday, i couldn't help but have all the songs stuck in my head. The Climb, Butterfly fly away and the best was Rascal Flatt's Bless the Broken Road, it just kept playing in my head, even searched all the lyrics online so that it wouldn't just be tunes running in my head. Like i said, i'm a lyrics kind of guy, i like meaningful lyrics that say something, haha, Hannah Montana might not be the best example, but they have a nice ring to it, and Miley has a voice that just clings on to you :)
Monday, decided that after camp i was gonna find the damn CD! couldn't stand it anymore, i would hear my player and it still got drowned out by the HM songs in my head, so had to get them. Ever since That CD Shop left Tiong Bahru Plaza, there hasn't been any replacement, kinda wish i had made use of the place before it became a Wanko (that's really the name of the shop >.<). Next stop, Vivo! and i can't believe i took 2 buses, passed by home, just to go to Vivo! and even after travelling all the way there, went to the Music shop, and lo and behold... THE ALBUM WAS OUT OF STOCK. sigh... went home dissapointed, but that's not going to be the end of it!
Today, decided that i'll try a new way home, since i wanted to pass by Borders to see if they carried the CD. so when i finally got there, the CD was finally there! BUT, it was the LAST COPY! like seriously?!? i'm a little wierd so me getting is fine, but the tweenie crowd it is meant for doesn't have the income to get it.. right? hmm... maybe i have underestimated this Hannah Montana Franchise... and during the small talk with the cashier, she even said that the GUY in front of me bought the same CD! sheesh....
CONFESSION: feel so bad >.<>.< said it was for my cousin, but actually... you know... hahaha. oh well, at least i have confessed here right? so random cashier lady, i hope you see this, though you don't know who i am. I'm enjoying the CD very much :)
haha, i sound like such a teenie-bopper in this post. its just another side of me! or maybe it has to do with the fact that as i typed out the entire post, the Hannah Montana Movie Sountrack is playing in the background. (aside: Backwards by Rascal Flatts is a hilarious song!) Soon gonna put the album in my MP4 player! then can enjoy it for the days to come while the songs still ring :)
+++
:( i'm worried about the next few days, Wed has lots of things clashing, and so does Sat... sigh, can't be helped i guess, that's what happens when i over commit, so have to learn to balance, i'm still in a dilemma over tmr tho. SO LITTLE TIME SO MUCH TO DO!
haha, i shall just slow down and enjoy a little HM music first. check back soon :)
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Country-fy it
Hello all! yes i'm back! finally have my laptop working, so i can indulge in blogging again :) So first a short list for myself to keep track of what i've done over the past days!
Thurs: Josh came over for dinner
Fri: NE Trip
Sat: BTT and Mahjong and Movie
Sun: Rehearsal
++Thurs++
Joshua came over! Uncle Francis' Kid, just messaged him out of the blue last week and asked if he wanted to do dinner, haven't really met him in a while, and i hear he's been baking! so what better way to get to know what Josh has been up to, and the additional baked good was a bonus :D haha. He's been at MINDEF since he POP-ed, and having quite a senang life there, so like me he is using his time productively to pursue interests.
"Take half the time you spend on things and put it for Baking, the other half for knitting, and you pretty much have how i spend my time" - Joshua Heng
haha, great stuffs, Knitting is good! maybe you can make me a nice handphone pouch to rival ZhongTing's! haha
Oh! and Josh has got his license already! so he actually drove me back on Thurs, awesome-cool, makes me all the more eager to get my license!
++Fri++
Garh, NE Trip, even the sound of it sounts like a waste of time... and actually it was >.<>.< haha
The other thing was the KARAOKE SYSTEM, holy crap! its freaking fun! and everyone had a good laugh with my Chipmunk rendition of Superman, wish i knew more chinese songs, since that was what everyone else seemed to be obsessed over, oh well, they had english songs, but trouble was we discovered it too late, so we kinda had no time to play around with it, still hilarity for those that did take part!
the trip was... erm. yeah. But the guys made it funny, and enjoyable.
Racism: Embracing the many races is not living together as one race, but instead able to accept other races, in their practice, culture, and able to make jokes about them without them feeling offended :D
That's the only way to describe the fun we had with Sanji (the 'New' Xiao Bai!) also awesome just walking around talking cock with Milks and Xiao Bai, making the tour guide Laugh incessantly at Transvestites, and all sorts of other retardedness, all NAISE! (Sanji's 'nice')
++Sat++
woo~ this was a long day, to describe, because it actually felt quite short >.<
Morning: BTT day! finally get this part over and done with! walked in, finished the silly test in 10 mins and walked out to get my PDL, all done in about 1/2 hour? yes yes, so quickly have to get my FTT and practice done within 6 months! or else have to pay for the stupid extension, that would be a terrible waste of money. i'm thinking maybe i can do all my lessons intensive for 2 months after the production ends, then can take my TP practical early, before i forget everything i've learned. yes, sounds good.
Afternoon: itching to play mahjong! and i finally got my chance to on Sat! still, i lost TONNES of Chips to everyone, but as we call it "Jiao1 Xue2 Fei4" or 'pay school fees', not as painful as real money, but i guess bad enough huh? Still must practice! and train up, cuz i cannot be the only weak mahjong guy in the family, must be able to hold my own, so must play some more! hahaha
Night: now, we were all supposed to meet 6.45 p.m. at Somerset MRT, but EVERYONE ELSE was late, save for me of course, so by the time they reached, we decided to just catch the later movies, 9+, and go grab some dinner first. So sat around eating and catching up, hearing about how all the Sergeant trainees all are dropping like flies, all OOC or find someway to escape, sigh... oh well, be a Tech! and get your sergeant anyway! :D
More important was the movie! from the beginning we knew we were gonna split up, Eugene, Gavin, joined by Lester and Marshall, caught Monsters Vs. Aliens. While me and Kai Jie happily went off to catch HANNAH MONTANA: THE MOVIE! okay i know you guys will pass judgement and call us gu niangs or whatever, but! a Disney movie is a Disney Movie, and as long as the magic is there, it doesn't matter what others say :)
Hannah Montana: The Movie
i just had to do a review and my take on how it was! Sure, Disney is a Machine, taking young kids, and churning them through a life so littered with sparkles and glamour that many get caught up in it, and lose their way after (Stupid Britney, and Lohan, messing themselves up >.<) Miley Cyrus may be no different, but there is hope for her yet, partly because faith makes a difference (yes Brit used her faith too) but the other quality is her Dad. Miley is not alone in this business, her Dad has many years of experience under his belt, and hopefully he can help in steering her in the right direction.
Back to the Movie, it was a feel-good, tweenie love-type movie, and they pull out all the usual things with love, and dual-life, and friendship, and family, but they did it with the same ol' Disney Magic, and there's one person who made all the difference, Miley Cyrus. I really really hope she makes the choice of going into acting, because she has charisma, and is one charming girl, if she rides the acting wave like Zac Efron, she can go on to do better things with Music in them, much like our Christian, Ewan McGregor, from the likes of Moulin Rouge. To go down the music path would be much tougher for her, and as Hilary Duff tried to, Duff fizzled out, hopefully Miley doesn't go the same way.
If anything, the movie did 3 things for me, showcased Miley's acting and charm, but for me, i was enchanted by the landscape of the Countryside, and i think i've got a new found appreciation or maybe even interest in Country, culture, but more importantly Music!
So for me i usually rate movies by how much i want the DVD (whether i do or not is another thing) I prolly won't go out of my way to get it ( I STILL WANT MY SIMPSONS: MOVIE DVD!) but if i do it'll be nice :) BUT! I really want to get the OST, soundtrack! to this movie, great stuff by both Miley and other country stars.
i think i was caught at the Rascal Flatts Cameo, with their Bless the Broken Road acoustic, that kinda make me look at Country in a new-found light. as the pretty boy in the movie put it, Country Music is always about something, it isn't just fluff, it always tells a story, i like that in my music :)
++Sun++
Speaking of country, i got an awesome new shirt today! from Marks&Spencers, this lovely denim-washed shirt that cost $89 >.< but it's REALLY NICE, and it has that country-flavour which i have a new found love for. hopefully i can continue to lose more weight and i'll look even better in it :)
Rehearsal was good, i'm getting more comfortable with the people each day, and now that the rehearsals are combined for full runs, i get to see the nice Hamleteers like Rosary (Zhao Han, haha) and the other fellows, and even Darren, who has come back from BMT recourse! so the people are fine. the play itself-though... it still got ALOT of work to do, so yeah shall just go along with it i guess, hopefully it turns out good. maybe i should say something to the directors...
But that pretty much sums up my past few days, i've got another filled week coming up, with POP-boys galore, PAY DAY! and rehearsal lined up on Wed, i know my later half of the week is gonna be packed, i'm worried for my wallet again >.<
now i leave you with, Bless the Broken Road
Thurs: Josh came over for dinner
Fri: NE Trip
Sat: BTT and Mahjong and Movie
Sun: Rehearsal
++Thurs++
Joshua came over! Uncle Francis' Kid, just messaged him out of the blue last week and asked if he wanted to do dinner, haven't really met him in a while, and i hear he's been baking! so what better way to get to know what Josh has been up to, and the additional baked good was a bonus :D haha. He's been at MINDEF since he POP-ed, and having quite a senang life there, so like me he is using his time productively to pursue interests.
"Take half the time you spend on things and put it for Baking, the other half for knitting, and you pretty much have how i spend my time" - Joshua Heng
haha, great stuffs, Knitting is good! maybe you can make me a nice handphone pouch to rival ZhongTing's! haha
Oh! and Josh has got his license already! so he actually drove me back on Thurs, awesome-cool, makes me all the more eager to get my license!
++Fri++
Garh, NE Trip, even the sound of it sounts like a waste of time... and actually it was >.<>.< haha
The other thing was the KARAOKE SYSTEM, holy crap! its freaking fun! and everyone had a good laugh with my Chipmunk rendition of Superman, wish i knew more chinese songs, since that was what everyone else seemed to be obsessed over, oh well, they had english songs, but trouble was we discovered it too late, so we kinda had no time to play around with it, still hilarity for those that did take part!
the trip was... erm. yeah. But the guys made it funny, and enjoyable.
Racism: Embracing the many races is not living together as one race, but instead able to accept other races, in their practice, culture, and able to make jokes about them without them feeling offended :D
That's the only way to describe the fun we had with Sanji (the 'New' Xiao Bai!) also awesome just walking around talking cock with Milks and Xiao Bai, making the tour guide Laugh incessantly at Transvestites, and all sorts of other retardedness, all NAISE! (Sanji's 'nice')
++Sat++
woo~ this was a long day, to describe, because it actually felt quite short >.<
Morning: BTT day! finally get this part over and done with! walked in, finished the silly test in 10 mins and walked out to get my PDL, all done in about 1/2 hour? yes yes, so quickly have to get my FTT and practice done within 6 months! or else have to pay for the stupid extension, that would be a terrible waste of money. i'm thinking maybe i can do all my lessons intensive for 2 months after the production ends, then can take my TP practical early, before i forget everything i've learned. yes, sounds good.
Afternoon: itching to play mahjong! and i finally got my chance to on Sat! still, i lost TONNES of Chips to everyone, but as we call it "Jiao1 Xue2 Fei4" or 'pay school fees', not as painful as real money, but i guess bad enough huh? Still must practice! and train up, cuz i cannot be the only weak mahjong guy in the family, must be able to hold my own, so must play some more! hahaha
Night: now, we were all supposed to meet 6.45 p.m. at Somerset MRT, but EVERYONE ELSE was late, save for me of course, so by the time they reached, we decided to just catch the later movies, 9+, and go grab some dinner first. So sat around eating and catching up, hearing about how all the Sergeant trainees all are dropping like flies, all OOC or find someway to escape, sigh... oh well, be a Tech! and get your sergeant anyway! :D
More important was the movie! from the beginning we knew we were gonna split up, Eugene, Gavin, joined by Lester and Marshall, caught Monsters Vs. Aliens. While me and Kai Jie happily went off to catch HANNAH MONTANA: THE MOVIE! okay i know you guys will pass judgement and call us gu niangs or whatever, but! a Disney movie is a Disney Movie, and as long as the magic is there, it doesn't matter what others say :)
Hannah Montana: The Movie
i just had to do a review and my take on how it was! Sure, Disney is a Machine, taking young kids, and churning them through a life so littered with sparkles and glamour that many get caught up in it, and lose their way after (Stupid Britney, and Lohan, messing themselves up >.<) Miley Cyrus may be no different, but there is hope for her yet, partly because faith makes a difference (yes Brit used her faith too) but the other quality is her Dad. Miley is not alone in this business, her Dad has many years of experience under his belt, and hopefully he can help in steering her in the right direction.
Back to the Movie, it was a feel-good, tweenie love-type movie, and they pull out all the usual things with love, and dual-life, and friendship, and family, but they did it with the same ol' Disney Magic, and there's one person who made all the difference, Miley Cyrus. I really really hope she makes the choice of going into acting, because she has charisma, and is one charming girl, if she rides the acting wave like Zac Efron, she can go on to do better things with Music in them, much like our Christian, Ewan McGregor, from the likes of Moulin Rouge. To go down the music path would be much tougher for her, and as Hilary Duff tried to, Duff fizzled out, hopefully Miley doesn't go the same way.
If anything, the movie did 3 things for me, showcased Miley's acting and charm, but for me, i was enchanted by the landscape of the Countryside, and i think i've got a new found appreciation or maybe even interest in Country, culture, but more importantly Music!
So for me i usually rate movies by how much i want the DVD (whether i do or not is another thing) I prolly won't go out of my way to get it ( I STILL WANT MY SIMPSONS: MOVIE DVD!) but if i do it'll be nice :) BUT! I really want to get the OST, soundtrack! to this movie, great stuff by both Miley and other country stars.
i think i was caught at the Rascal Flatts Cameo, with their Bless the Broken Road acoustic, that kinda make me look at Country in a new-found light. as the pretty boy in the movie put it, Country Music is always about something, it isn't just fluff, it always tells a story, i like that in my music :)
++Sun++
Speaking of country, i got an awesome new shirt today! from Marks&Spencers, this lovely denim-washed shirt that cost $89 >.< but it's REALLY NICE, and it has that country-flavour which i have a new found love for. hopefully i can continue to lose more weight and i'll look even better in it :)
Rehearsal was good, i'm getting more comfortable with the people each day, and now that the rehearsals are combined for full runs, i get to see the nice Hamleteers like Rosary (Zhao Han, haha) and the other fellows, and even Darren, who has come back from BMT recourse! so the people are fine. the play itself-though... it still got ALOT of work to do, so yeah shall just go along with it i guess, hopefully it turns out good. maybe i should say something to the directors...
But that pretty much sums up my past few days, i've got another filled week coming up, with POP-boys galore, PAY DAY! and rehearsal lined up on Wed, i know my later half of the week is gonna be packed, i'm worried for my wallet again >.<
now i leave you with, Bless the Broken Road
Intermission
Had my com down for the past few days so no blog posts from me recently. but don't worry, will be back soon :) but not yet, have to brace myself for rehearsal later, so not that much time. Maybe if there's time after rehearsal tonight i will recap what i've done in the past few days, not super active, but good enough :)
till the later post! toodles!
till the later post! toodles!
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Contemplating, thinking about thinking
The title is lyrics from Robbie Williams' song, Come Undone, i don't think that is the real meaning of contemplating, but i like the way it rolls of the tongue, and it was the first title i thought of when i thought about this post :)
i kinda promised kerry a more introspective post, much more like my older posts, but i realised i struggle to find something to go on a long thought train about, maybe it is due to my own shift in mindset, but i decided to figure out what has changed.
in the past, i use to have a strong thought, and i'd come here to rant it and talk it out with myself. I may not always have thought through the entire issue, but i'd come here and blurt it all out. however, my posts seemed few and far between, because it is not often that i indulge in thinking long drawn out issues, i'm the kind of guy who likes to live day to day, but of course the things that bother me, i come here to jot down.
Nowadays, i use my blog more like an events recap, of what i have done in the past days or weeks, and consolidating it, so that hopefully in many years to come, when i am bored or am feeling nostalgic, i can just come here, pore through the old articles, and relive the days of my youth. How quaint :)
but there are times where i still come and mull over thoughts. however, in the past few weeks/months, i realise that the things that are bothering me are pretty much the same. Though now reflecting a little on it, these issues might come off as a little superficial >.<
if you've spoken to me, i'm sure you know how concerned i am at preserving the friendships i've forged at TJ. Beleive it or not, i'm not very good at this, and hence the paranoia, and at times over-paranoia, at trying to keep people meeting and getting together. maintaining a friendship requires a little bit of luck, and a whole lot of working at it. if only others could see this and put in the extra effort too >.< afterall, we are slowly all moving in our different directions, what will hold us together then?
the other would be the new people we meet, the challenge is to properly interact with them, without neglecting the friends in the past, nor the people we are meeting currently. and at times i get so close to the SOA peeps, that i fear moving on and leaving the rest behind. haha, over-paranoia talking again!
other than that, maybe i can't post my old long posts due to my new lifestyle. doing so many things, and having such a great time creating experiences, i have subconsciously decided that i'm not going to mull over things that can't be helped. just take each day as it comes, and make the most out of it :)
so to the readers of this blog, thank you for reading, and following if you have, i'll try and find a balance between recap and thought-play in my future posts :D
i kinda promised kerry a more introspective post, much more like my older posts, but i realised i struggle to find something to go on a long thought train about, maybe it is due to my own shift in mindset, but i decided to figure out what has changed.
in the past, i use to have a strong thought, and i'd come here to rant it and talk it out with myself. I may not always have thought through the entire issue, but i'd come here and blurt it all out. however, my posts seemed few and far between, because it is not often that i indulge in thinking long drawn out issues, i'm the kind of guy who likes to live day to day, but of course the things that bother me, i come here to jot down.
Nowadays, i use my blog more like an events recap, of what i have done in the past days or weeks, and consolidating it, so that hopefully in many years to come, when i am bored or am feeling nostalgic, i can just come here, pore through the old articles, and relive the days of my youth. How quaint :)
but there are times where i still come and mull over thoughts. however, in the past few weeks/months, i realise that the things that are bothering me are pretty much the same. Though now reflecting a little on it, these issues might come off as a little superficial >.<
if you've spoken to me, i'm sure you know how concerned i am at preserving the friendships i've forged at TJ. Beleive it or not, i'm not very good at this, and hence the paranoia, and at times over-paranoia, at trying to keep people meeting and getting together. maintaining a friendship requires a little bit of luck, and a whole lot of working at it. if only others could see this and put in the extra effort too >.< afterall, we are slowly all moving in our different directions, what will hold us together then?
the other would be the new people we meet, the challenge is to properly interact with them, without neglecting the friends in the past, nor the people we are meeting currently. and at times i get so close to the SOA peeps, that i fear moving on and leaving the rest behind. haha, over-paranoia talking again!
other than that, maybe i can't post my old long posts due to my new lifestyle. doing so many things, and having such a great time creating experiences, i have subconsciously decided that i'm not going to mull over things that can't be helped. just take each day as it comes, and make the most out of it :)
so to the readers of this blog, thank you for reading, and following if you have, i'll try and find a balance between recap and thought-play in my future posts :D
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