blogs and such

Are good things boring? As I looked over some of my previous entries, perhaps I found of them quite bland. It is not like I am going to retract tem, but I just guess that sometimes things that are lacking in conflict and tension just becomes boring. Haha, but that does not mean I am looking for trouble, I jus guess that it is not so exciting reading a boring blog.

Hopefully I find a way of making my entries more vibrant, but I am still glad that I have this source of output to say my good and bad experiences. When starting out on my blog, I started with many heavily emotional and resentment within the words. Now that it is mostly out, I don’t have that burden floating over my head anymore. It started with ranting. Some hurt others, but that I try to clear out. That was my blog, a spouting shell, or a complaining space.

Now I post light and quite insignificant blog posts, and I wonder if I should post about my day or wait until I have surges of emotion or particularly disturbing/interesting things to talk about.

I guess that this entry is all about blogs. Mine and others. And I guess most forms of teenage expression.

Looking at MSN, its quite obvious that most of us put lovey-dovey things as our nick, if not we pose questions of life and challenge our opinions of life and living. I guess that I do that too, sometimes. Then I see some blog posts being very complicated and philosophical. I don’t think there is anything wrong with that, but I wonder how much to we really understand of what we are saying.

My Mom constantly tells me that I cant substantiate most of my arguments as I do not read enough and am ignorant of the world. I like to rebut and say that I am quite aware of the world, but truthfully, I really have no clue how others are living. I can hear it from friends and family, but I can only sympathise. Mr Tan is the other person that intrigues me. I would really like to see how he posts on his blog. He is aware of the world, he is a GP teacher, and has a good mastery of the English language, how does he post? Is it as rantful and ignorant as our blogs? Or is more than that?

I saw posts on blogs like Kerry’s and the old posts of mariam. Even some of Lester’s posts. I know they have good eloquence and they are good in expressing themselves in the written form. Yet there is still that limit of their own life. Yes a blog is personal recount, but it doesn’t mean that he or she has to victimise themselves.

Sighh.. even as I type this, I am quite aware that this is my expression of what I believe is mature. Based on my personal maturity capability, I try to objectify, but it still is an opinion.

Perhaps I might still post everyday (if possible) and see what I can add to my everyday life. It might end up as the soppy crap that is boring, but some of it might be good. Haha, I understand what varun means when he says that this is not light reading. I tend to go on and on, but there are some that still read my blog. I wanna say thanks. Even if you hate me and you just want to see what you can exploit of me, or if you are one of those that care for me and want to know how my life is like, and learning from my experiences, I just want you to know that I appreciate you reading this.

To end, Amanda told me this, “see this: ‘If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?’ […] i must keep telling the people i love that i love them”, to those that love me, I love you.