expectations

after a while, people get generalised. we are taken for granted by other people, both in actions and in attitude.

If you know someone for a while, then talk to them a few years later, they would tell you how much you have changed. however, if you know someone everyday, he would not notice the change unless someone points it out. this is due to one thing, expectations.

expectations of a person can change. expectations for a group may change, but how long will it take to change?

i can't really say how it is to be in SC, but i do say it is stressful. not just the work but hte people. We are a bunch of new, fresh, unsure bunch of kids. yet the expectations for us is higher than maybe even the 29th council. i say this not in terms of adults. in fact it is our personal expectatiations we are trying to live up to, that makes it so stressful.

no offence to YC, but we are just trying to make our TASC seem so perfect and great that everyone will look up to. It is not easy. and it sometimes is internally conflicting. for example. if we are not unified, we still need to "look" unified, as then we can show the students that we are. also, we are not supposed to segregate ourselves from the cohort, yet we are supposed to be unified, we cannot be a group if we worry about being a group that seperates us.

i'm just ranting as it seems like the TASC is not what i expected it to be. i was soo excited when i became a councillor, yet now i feel so weighed by it. do not misunderstand me. i enjoy the organising and conducting things. but it is just not enjoyable to do the things anymore. we are meant to do all these for the IP cohort as we hope that they as well as us will enjoy it.

i guess it becomes kinda sad when you dont enjoy what you are doing. and i am not enjoying what i am doing. work does come first, but that does not mean that it has to be boring. work is only as boring as you make it. if you force it into a strict and rigid conform, it will become boring for everyone, but if you spice it up, make it a challenge, a game, and adventure, it makes it worthwhile for everyone.

i really envy the 29th council. i do not just "really" envy them, i really reall really envy them. Pearl once told me, the councillors are a clique. they are just one really big clique. they do things together and hang out together. why? because it is fun! because they share good and bad times. they are not just a SC, they are friends. and that is something to be envied. when everyone you work with is a true friend, that is a blessing.

i guess i dont have much to say left. i just wanna treasure my friends. Drama, 29th, church, ex-ro, VS, etc. just having fun together, when we can.

smile a little, laugh a lot, and just go crazy! haha =P