Do i make you proud?

its the time of handing overs and stepping down. not for me this year, cuz i have had my term, and finished it last year. but this year i hear all the stories and watch all the videos, and see another batch step down, and pass on the torch to the new batch.

its kinda sad to go back to school and not recognise everyone anymore. haha, that sounds really silly, but it was one of the things that made TJ feel like home. walking around and knowing almost everyone, when i went back for Megahouse, i find myself going "who are they?" very often, haha, that's what happens when you graduate.

more important though, is that this year would probably be the last batch that i still know a considerable number of people. the whole 32nd SC, including Lovely-Junior-Nad, and Chi-ko-pek Sendy, and Super-Boss-Esti, just to name a few. soon when i go and visit, i'll actually feel wierd going into the SC room, to a room where i no longer know the inhabitants of, that's definitely a new feeling!

Then of course there's the wonderful batch of TA4's this year, ximin, zenia, bala, yanting, kelly, pei yi, too many to list lah. but they are gonna graduate too, which is kinda cool, but i bet scary as hell for many of them as well.

point is, there's the wave of nostalgia, saying that slowly TJ is no longer going to be the place i knew it as for the whole of 4 years, the best times, the best. the people from my batch have moved on, and the juniors are about to graduate, if TJ was all about the people, then if the people leave, does the school lose her flavour?

(aside: to the TA3's this year, i.e. Melissa, Jolene, and that whole batch, WAHAHA still got 2 years to go! haha, maybe ya'll will give me some reason to come back and visit, heh)

I guess, as i see people move on, i realise that so do we. spent time this week fussing over the Ubin trip, which is tomorrow! a little worried that the turnup won't be good, but still hopeful that it will be fun! even as we all go our seperate directions, i want to hold on to the friendships we have. sure we can be the kind that has a party every year, or every other year, gathering and updating each other on our lives, but i just feel that it isn't enough. being such a big part of each other's lives for 4 whole years, i'd hope that we'd continue to go out and do things as friends do, not keep living in the past of our former glory.

haha, its a little hopeful, and a lot of luck comes into play. but that's why we need to make the effort now to create opportunities to keep the friendship going. haha, i'm a little exasperated, hoping that others would feel the same.

we hold on to what we can, and hope that we don't let the good things slip through our fingers.

sadness, a tired emo post. haha, but i KNOW that tmr will be filled with awesome from dawn till dusk :)