Go Exploring

I'm kinda tired, and got Much swimming in my head, but i guess its important to keep an update of what i'm doing, will be doing, just because i should.

off the cuff, decided to head on down to school and meet ximin, though that didn't quite work out, but in the end managed to catch up a little with Junior Nad, Kelly and even Yanting, so that was good nonetheless. then had dinner with ZT, or rather, i had dinner as he watched me eat. he's changed, a good changed, more open and more relaxed than i remembered him. though i like the new ZT, more adventurous, and if possible i wouldn't mind getting him as a buddy to go try out new things (that does not sound gay at all)

but more importantly, he threw some thoughts into my face which i would not have done so alone, so i'm appreciative of that. too many things swimming, just swimming around in the head of mine. need to figure things out, but i've packed my schedule quite tight for the next few days. not much time to sit around and just reflect. some how i think i see it as 'moping' and i don't want to be moping. i'd do anything just to not slow down. but i think that's what i need to do. for the time being.

after everything, still she leaves me with contradictions and internal struggles. never failing to make me think, assess and figure out who i am and how to deal with things. hmm... thanks.

tomorrow have got an interview and test with NTU for Sociology, fingers crossed! if these are the only replies i'm getting, then i've got to try extra hard (though i must admit, so far i haven't really done much... or anything for that matter) but yeah. 2 years army, go exploring.