My comfort food : Han's Rum Balls

Sure, it isn't my ONLY comfort food, but its the first one i've ever thought of as a comfort food :) okay. i wouldn't have said it was a bad day. because honestly, it wasn't so bad, but just felt a little low a while ago, and had a Han's Rum Ball to pick me up a little. so there ya go, my first acknowledged comfort food!

i don't like a lot though. just 1 is good, the taste of familiarity and richness, ah simple pleasures :) My mom use to get it often when i was a kid, i think she liked it too! and slowly, the taste started to grow on me, and maybe my brother, and i don't think any other place does it as smoothly or as rich as Han's.

So today has been an embarrassingly hot day, embarrassing because i sweat from the start till the end of the day! the sweat just couldn't stop! the humid, hot weather is really bothering >.<

then came home and rushed down to SMU to see the R&GAD (Rosencrantz and Guilderstern Are Dead!) people, where we were working on our characters as tradgedians. i must say, from a 3rd person's perspective, it seems like what we're doing is awesome fun, because we explore different characters and create whole people and motivations, literally from thin air. but from the perspective of myself doing all this, as amazing as it is, it isn't quite working out for me. sure, its only been 2 rehearsals so far and only 1 as an official member of the cast, but maybe because of that, i don't really feel part of the team yet. its like everyone knows each other, and its kinda hard to penetrate that clique, haha, sounds like my life story eh? always the odd one out, Mr Rhinocerous.

Mr. Rhino : awkward and clumsy, in terms of social interactions. heavy weighted steps of trying hard to do whatever he is doing. always wanting to please others. timid, polite, reserved and hesitant. tough, but not in a violent way. no one seems to understand Mr Rhino.

haha, so maybe the character didn't come out from 'thin air' per se, just a short reflection of some of the thoughts swimming in my head. i'm still giving it a shot, trying hard to bond and connect, but like all things, it takes time, and strife. must work hard to do this well, and to get to click with the others.

its not easy lah. i'm good at meeting people, but not good at establishing meaningful, long term relationships, it takes a lot of awkwardness and luck for me to blend well with people. haha, i bet you didn't know that.

ah well, till the day that i'm accepted, gotta settle with a little loneliness XP, but don't worry, i'll live :) after all, there's always Han's Rum Balls :)