A warm portabello, hearty and filling

What a wonderful day i've had! did almost everything i wanted to do today, just excellent :)

This morning reported to Pasir Labah, for some demonstration thing, it wasn't too bad, just sat around, watched the demonstrations (things blew up!) and talked with people, AND IT ALL ENDED BY LUNCH! how cool was that! so the morning of fun ammo stuff, and the rest of the day to myself! Woo~

So i decided i would head on down to school and surprise those dear and close to me :) the juniors :) and head down i did! sure, took me a little time for me to pull myself down to school, but it was well worth it!

the security uncle was a little 'sian' with me, but nothing could spoil the day. i first caught up with Mr Lim, always a goo person to start a convo with, then headed down to my old haunt of the SC room, and dumped my bag (haha, nothing's changed!) from that point, it was just a matter of walking around school looking for people i know, and just checking up on them.

Got to see a whole bunch of my favourite people, not to mention Nadia, Zenia and Ximin! haha, spoke the most to Zenia, adorable girl :) wish i had more chance to catch up with Nad and XM, but work/responsibility calls, i'm sure we'll have more time soon! will book ya'll early, haha.

Met Raghav later in the day, roaming around school with him for a bit, before going off opposite (its been so long!) to play some Magic! yessiree, good stuff, very happy with my new decks XD Dragon StickBeat, Zombie Milling, and Jund Devour, beautiful! not to mention the deck i built with/for Matt, the exalted soldier deck! it works perfectly, hitting each turn for about 3-4 damage, and later on big guys come in at 6 or 7+++. excellent stuff! or rather exalted-lent stuff!

Saw ZT for a while, didn't catch up much, but talked with Mr Fun! haha, haven't seen the likes of him for quite a while, he's got that very friendly aura, makes him want to tell you things. so brought him up to speed with our lives, and just talked generally about stuff.

Speaking of Teachers! got to see Ms. Nor again! woo~ haha, caught her while she was going back, and no matter what is said about her, somehow when i speak to her, it just feels good, not so pretentious with people she's familiar with i guess. haha. i've always liked how Ms. Nor explains things to me, i get it, sarcasm and all, but afraid that the juniors don't get exposed to this side as much. but she's still an awesome teacher and SCTA, boy am i glad that i'm not working with her! but its awesome to talk to her outside of business (council-work that is)

And me, being me, feel so comfortable in TJ, i can do almost anything without shame. Just randomly spoke to this girl, Yuxin, who happens to be in SC, HC and band! Delta House Cap, and band, and XM's junior to boot! haha, so made a new friend, and another link to check out what's happening in SC!

Should visit school more often, its mighty fun. But as the people change and the familiarities erode away, i'll have less to come back for, the people change, my batch mates move on, its hard to retain the ties that once bonded us.

was just sharing with Mr Fun, that within the next 3-4 months, people are going to go all over the place. some will be starting thier new school life at Uni, locally, and some will be flying all over the place attending Universities all over the world. What will hold us together then?

For now, its time to make the best of what time we've still got free, and catch up and forge experiences we'll carry with us for long. Although we may not have tomorrow, we'll always have the past to look at and hold in our hearts :)

I want to go back and visit more often, maybe a Yazid type character, fo while there are still familiar faces, maybe the occasional Magic Game with HsiLow, haha. But if there are any activities where it won't seem like i'm TOO extra, then invite me down. I need to find reasons to visit my second home :D

TJ, the Mushroom

I'm no superman

and it ends. sigh.... Scrubs, well done :)

What a difference a week made

I've passed my BTT evaluation! woo, easier than i thought, but mainly coz i did the practice just before, so the questions were pretty much burned into my head >.<

anyway, on the trip back, i was just bopping along, in a good mood, and i thought about what a difference it was compared to the last time i came home from Bukit Batok Driving Center (BBDC). today just seemed good, maybe cuz i passed the evaluation, but maybe its more, maybe between last wed and today, there has been a whole string of great happenings i should be grateful for :)

Maybe its the Scrubs fix i've been getting! just need to wait for them to upload the last episode! then i will watch the finale at one shot! and yes, scrubs has been awesome, almost at the same level with Friends now, so that's saying something!

plus, the awesome weekend, with Drama peeps and the Brothers on sat, rehearsal and dinner with godma on sun, and the SOA guys on monday, what's not to be grateful for :)

haha, can feel my wallet crying away, but yeah, gotta learn to manage my money better, its all worth it if it is to spend more time with the people i care about! speaking of which, mom is coming back on friday! so i better prepare some belated mother's day gift! Think child THINK!

tmr's gonna be an awesome day too! disposal in the morning, so that might mean a half day for us! woo! have a few ideas what i'm going to do after, but will see tmr, and update you then :) see ya'll on the flipside!

Hey Ya

I've been watching a lot of scrubs recently :)



just a short recap on my weekend. had a good sunday with dinner with Aunty Elsie, and i guess i'm maturing :)

monday was a good outing with the SOA guys, speed lunch at kuishinbo and then awesome fun at arcade. too awesome, these guys are great. :)

"Everything i do is more fun when you are doing it with me"

oh well... Te neneneneh! :]

The Gooch

I just watched Scrubs episode "My Lawyer's in Love" and i just LOVE the way Ted and the ukulele girl work out. they're the cutest thing ever.

haha, and SHE IS SO CUTE! SO CUTE!

you guys should totally check her songs out, they are a little dark, but she sings them in such an adorable way.

haha, i think i've got a new celeb crush XD joining the ranks of Janet Hsieh.

Damn, now i want a Gooch of My own!

Mr. Moon

One day
The moon got tired of being
Up in the sky
He wandered
Down through the starlight
And landed on the oceanside

And he smiled while
He jumped in the water
And laughed about
As he danced in the sand
He put on
His swim trunks and snorkel
And guess what
Mr. Moon swam

Did I tell you
That moonbeams are heavy?
And therefore
Mr. Moon sank
He fell down
Through the seawalls of seaweed
And landed
At the bottom of a tank

And he sat there
With the starfish and jellyfish
And laughed about
The sharks and the whales
They drank lots
Of Miller Lights and Heinekens
And laughed about
All of their tales

Oh, Mr. Moon
The stars are shining for you in the night sky
Please come home
Oh, Mr. Moon
The sun is shining for you until it goes away
And then it's dark
And then it's dark
And then it's dark

Snikt!

i like it when my days are packed, it let's me have all sorts of experiences to write about, and i feel like i'm making good use of my time :)

Saturday came! and i had a nice long-overdue outing with the 05 TJC Drama Batch, okay so not everyone came down, but most of the important ones did! Saw Amanda and Ais again, plus Leandra, Cheryl, and Raf! (huh, all the guys in my year are not around >.<) haha. had lunch at Siam Kitchen, good food! but some things a bit too spicy lah (like their spicy green mango salad... its nice but upon eating, would cough from over spiciness...)

Sitting around, chatting, making fun of each other as we always do, it was like being in a simpler time, no malice or bitching, just lots of fun :) haha immature fun (leandra!) but the kind of fun i really enjoy :D

then off to esplanade roof to play Bridge (Amanda's Obsession) and a little camwhoring. yes yes, i had to partake in it too, afterall i've got Team Spirit! lots of kooky shots and funny poses, check it out at Cheryl's Album. So we spent like an hour plus maybe even 2 hours playing bridge? haha, just like the ol TJ days eh? just that for me, most of the bridge playing was done in the council room, haha. or with isaac and kenneth! extreme bridge playing! Mwaha

Then at about 5+, i headed down to Plaza Sing, to join Rag, Varun, Bala and Fidot, to catch the Wolverine movie, can't say it was too bad, gambit was gay, wolverine was cool, but deadpool has got a lot of potential! i hear he's getting his own movie soon, wikipedia!

Hugh Jackman is a good actor, though i still prefer him in more grander and suave roles, like in The Prestiege, or in his Broadway shows, he's so cool and suave, not at all the Wolverine type, haha, but that's just me. and i don't like how Emma Frost's ability works >.<>.< it looks kinda gross.... haha

After the Movie, most of the guys left, Varun and I got Subway Dinners and went to sit in some park and catch up. wanted to hear about varun's field camp! but, alas, leapord disappoints, and he didn't have much to say. but sit test was slightly better, haha he and i are both rope guys, roping all the way!

most of the guys are in army now, all of our gang (except silly TOURIST raghav :D) and so we've still got lots to share with each other. this is good. haha, better not mess this up! Anw, should think about doing some trekking thing soon, am really getting a little pudgy around the sides.. garh... lol, i kinda sound like a girl huh? complaining about my weight? well, its time to find more activities and exercise when i can, any good motivators/personal trainer wannabes that want to help this poor soul! haha, wouldn't mind starting a group to exercise together! doing it alone kinda sucks...

well, another full day after lunch today! rehearsal and dinner with Godma, yes yes, gotta clear the poopy! but still, will be a good day of activites :)

Muddle Puddle Bubble

I've learnt a lot these past 2 days, because i made one Huge Assed mistake yesterday, and now i'm sorta cleaning up the shit for it. at the same time, i don't feel that bad, because i feel like i'm learning. i'm transitting into the world of adulthood, and slowly learning of my responsibilities, haha, maybe you can say i'm breaking out of my sheltered life (a little bit lah)

So, what did i do? I stupidly signed up for an Insurance Plan, with AIA (My godma is an insurance agent there >.<), AND i paid for a deposit, without knowing what the hell the fine print was, hell, i didn't even know what the name of the plan was! so i bet even you reading this must be thinking, 'this guy is an idiot' i don't think you are too far off from the truth... >.<

Here's what went through my mind when i signed up. i thought that mom and dad would be proud of me, cuz i'm finally taking a more active role in my finances, and getting myself a savings plan! i guess its good to have more financial control, and sometimes it might take the breaking of a few eggs, but i should learn how to manage my money and plan for the future. But when i got back and told Dad, heh, his reaction was far from what i expected. He was shocked that i didn't tell him about it, and worse still, i did an exchange of money over something so big, without first informing him! so yeah, i guess he has the right to be dissapointed.

still, it was a very good experience for me to talk to Livia (the person trying to sell me the insurance plan) because she made me consider a lot of things i haven't thought about before. like savings, and the future, ideal salaries, supporting a family, having returns, growing my money, and etc. i guess mom and dad always handled it, and i never understood how it worked. well logically, i should have approached them first, but i don't always want to be under the shelter of mom and dad, i've got to figure out a few things on my own too!

Here's my first cracked egg. sure, this time its still salvagable, thanks to Godma and Dad, other times i may not be so lucky. but at the same time, i'm glad that i got into this 'safe trouble' as i did, because its things like this where i will learn the most from, and acquire a lesson i wouldn't have as effectively learnt if it was just another lecture by mom and dad.

As i clean up this shit, i'm quite a happy camper, i guess it was about time i saw GodMa again (she's gonna complain about my weight! damn damn)

i've got quite the packed weekend (again! haha) i can't wait to meet up with the Drama peeps on Sat, meet Godma and have got rehearsal on Sun, and Monday! Kuishin-Bo with the Guys from SOA, damn, they're a good bunch, i feel so elitist >.< but i'm not, i guess that JC people just have a different culture. Mac's today was good (unhealthy... bleh, but how often do i do it right?) the company, its nice to sit around and laugh laugh laugh, sharing 'Happy Times' as Sanji would put it, though not so annoying! haha.

long weekend here i come!

Wanted: Dead or Alive

I figured it out. took some talking and some thinking, but i realised that after all the 'growing up' i was supposed to do, i still end up as this needy little puppy, craving for the love and attention from others. sigh... good job Jon >.<

its so terribly ironic at the same time. i realise that there ARE people who want me around and want me to be with them, i.e. Mat (to play Magic), the Family (to spend more time at home), some of the friends that contact me more often. but ironically, i don't have the same 'passion' to do things for them... i'm quite the terrible friend.

Its a magical feeling, to know that you 'want' someone as much as they 'want' you. to know that they aren't just 'happy' with your presence, but they really wish you WERE there, or are really grateful that you ARE there. i sometimes get the feeling that i invest emotionally in others, but my investment does not reap me the ideal returns, but in hope of a higher returns rate, i invest more, hoping to bail out the relationship, before it sinks.

i can't help but feel that no one's interested in my life. no one asks, "hey! how have you been?" spontaneously, or looks for opportunities to hang out. yeah, i guess proximity makes a difference, but doesn't the relationship count for something? there's no random message to perk me up, or the unexpected surprise. its just me, waiting, hoping, wishing, wanting, waiting somemore.

okay, i gotta admit, its a girl thing too. yes yes, guys are awesome, but i guess when things are going well, you kinda under-appreciate it. but nonetheless, i still maintain my efforts in keeping contact! the guys keep it all together for me, or i MIGHT spiral into depression (yah right, like i ever could, haha)

Have you ever been by yourself? shouting into the Grand Canyon, and the only companion is the echo of your own voice. "How are you?" "Fine thanks for asking!" "..." *mumbles: what a boring conversationalist.

i'm not wanted :'(

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i won't be so depressing in my next post. i promise!

The Party players, and their Bonds

Me is tired. haha, i somehow blog when i'm tired. bad habit of mine, makes me not want to blog anymore >.<

I actually believe i'm still on a high from Friday. like there's the remnants of Ubin still under my skin, and that always gives me a little joy in my everyday work. and a bit of poop to clear up this week. API due, 2 tests in 3 days, and i've got my schedule packed for the days up till friday. but surprisingly, i think the weekend is still kinda free >.< haha. SURPRISE.

Today after school, went down to Chinatown (i've always wanted to say that!) to do some measurements for our Costumes for R&Gad. it was fine, no great shakes. i realise that its hard to converse when 2 girls who know each other are around, it makes whatever i say seem very intrusive, at least that's how i feel, haha.

I think about what Kenneth said during Ubin. We all started on the 2nd half of our day, and i think Hui Min had a problem with her bike cable or something. Eugene was helping to fix, so the rest of us were waiting at the foot of the hill, and we were talking. Me, "Eugene's helping Hui Min fix her bicycle chain? haha, just like Eugene, always 'The Healer' " so we categorised our guys into stereotypical party members

Eugene : The Healer
Raghav : The Aggro
Jonathan : The Tank
Kenneth : THE CHEAT CODE

haha, you can go figure out what the others mean, but for me, i was quite intrigued when Kenneth said i was the Tank. (not the physical way mind you >.<) The Tank has high HP, and takes a lot of damage for the team, enough so that they can move in for the kill. haha, sounds a little sad, and a little unlike me, in the sense that i usually wouldn't so easily sacrifice myself, cuz i'm kinda selfish >.< but then the more i thought about it, it seemed to make sense.

As a Tank, your objective is to help the rest of the team by letting yourself take the hits. And for the Ubin Trip, i did take some crap from some people, and had to brave the 'sian-ness' of people, so that the event would still go on, and so those who did turn up would have a good time. or on a daily basis with friends, i try to interact with everyone, and TRY to let them feel included, but at that time, by not focusing on a core group, i don't get as close to them, and i lose out on the friendships with more depth.

haha, i was extremely lucky with the TA people though. with the guys being in the same class, i had a good 2 years to spend with the gang of guys, and that's why we are as close as we are, but before, and even now, i realise that making close friends is not easy for me, because i want to try to be friends with everyone.



I watched the 2nd Naruto Shippuden Movie, Bonds, over the weekend. i want to be like Naruto, haha cliche yes. I'm just as loud, rowdy, annoying, but i hope to be as inspiring. there was a scene where he took a stab from his friend to prevent her from killing herself, he said something along the lines of, "i have always been alone, and i never want to see anyone feel that kind of pain ever again, so i will take on all your pain for you" and i completely understand what he means.

so till the time where i learn to grow up, and live more for others, i will keep trying hard, and be there for the people who matter much to me :)

Memories that Last forever

The bunch of Awesome i spent with yesterday :) am still a little tired from being out the whole day, but i know if i don't post now, i'll forget to later! then i will be forever too lazy to post it! heh.

i knew that my worries and troubles were unfounded! just had to be with everyone yesterday to reassure me :) Jane, Hui Min, Bernice, Eugene, Kenneth, Raghav and I all had an awesome day in Ubin, let's recap!

So the 5 of us (Jane, HM, Ber, Rag, me) headed to Ubin first, and we decided to go check out Chek Jawa. at least for me, i don't remember ever being to Chek Jawa, the last memory i have of Ubin was PLTC in Sec 2 (and i got to see many of my old sites!) and Chek Jawa was definitely not one of our stops! so we went up the observation tower, and saw the mud flats at low tide. i think as we grow older, things don't seem as mystical as they would have been when we were young, so Chek Jawa wasn't as 'Magical' as i thought it would be, but still, it became more about trekking with the people than the actual flora and fauna :)

then as we head back, we try to get to Mammon beach, but its seems that the bridges are down, so we made a few rounds and went down some dead ends while exploring Ubin.

so by this time, its kinda late already, haha, time flies really fast when you're having fun! and since Ken and Gene were on thier way, we went back to the Village center to go grab some lunch, and wait for Gene and Ken.

had a hearty lunch, and met the Duo, got thier bikes and continued on our way!

Bernice is a very dangerous person to lead the pack! she just spontaneously decides to make a turn and explore an area, but that usually results in some cool places we would otherwise not have discovered! like the little food farm with all sorts of edible plants, just that they aren't is season, so they aren't fruiting, oh well... maybe we can find a way to go back when they are! haha.

My thighs are still trembling/burning somewhat from going uphill so much all over Ubin, so MANY times we just gave up and just ended up pushing, but pain leh! there was a point, i got off my bike to push, and couldn't move! there were like these bulbous things in my thighs, it was just a cramp, but couldn't move >.< haha. so basically just went round Ubin exploring and taking pictures :) and unlike a run, we actually have the breath to talk and chat about stuff like doing these kind of events more often! or just bringing each other up to speed about what's going on in our life.

okay! there's one photo i MUST explain!

FB caption - "Welcome to Fat Prison, only skinny people can escape to the beach"

so we cycled to this portion of Ubin where the whole beach is fenced up (stupid Illegal immigrants spoiling our natural Ubin!) and there is this large gate blocking us. so me and kenneth go exploring the side to see if there's anyway AROUND the fence. and then suddenly we see Bernice on the other side playing at the BEACH!

apparently there's a space at the hinge of the gate where SKINNY people can squeeze through, and Eugene, Kenneth and Jane, join Bernice on the beach. then me, raghave and Hui min try to squeeze through (Unsucessfully of course) and we are stuck behind the gates of FAT PRISON. D:

haha, sadness. i even got scratches from the Constantina wire trying to climb the gate >.<

It was a brilliant day, just cycling around, having fun, laughing playing. sure, i wished that more of our friends were there to join in the fun, but it was thourouhgly satisfying with everyone already there :)


"I want the rest of my life to feel just like my HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL"
haha, that was exactly what was playing on my Music player as i typed it out. but yes! i hope that THE REST OF MY LIFE, we can keep these close friends, and we can always meet up and do fun stuff like this! even when we have children, even when our Children HAVE children! if possible, hur.


So if we have any more activities! try and join us kay!

Do i make you proud?

its the time of handing overs and stepping down. not for me this year, cuz i have had my term, and finished it last year. but this year i hear all the stories and watch all the videos, and see another batch step down, and pass on the torch to the new batch.

its kinda sad to go back to school and not recognise everyone anymore. haha, that sounds really silly, but it was one of the things that made TJ feel like home. walking around and knowing almost everyone, when i went back for Megahouse, i find myself going "who are they?" very often, haha, that's what happens when you graduate.

more important though, is that this year would probably be the last batch that i still know a considerable number of people. the whole 32nd SC, including Lovely-Junior-Nad, and Chi-ko-pek Sendy, and Super-Boss-Esti, just to name a few. soon when i go and visit, i'll actually feel wierd going into the SC room, to a room where i no longer know the inhabitants of, that's definitely a new feeling!

Then of course there's the wonderful batch of TA4's this year, ximin, zenia, bala, yanting, kelly, pei yi, too many to list lah. but they are gonna graduate too, which is kinda cool, but i bet scary as hell for many of them as well.

point is, there's the wave of nostalgia, saying that slowly TJ is no longer going to be the place i knew it as for the whole of 4 years, the best times, the best. the people from my batch have moved on, and the juniors are about to graduate, if TJ was all about the people, then if the people leave, does the school lose her flavour?

(aside: to the TA3's this year, i.e. Melissa, Jolene, and that whole batch, WAHAHA still got 2 years to go! haha, maybe ya'll will give me some reason to come back and visit, heh)

I guess, as i see people move on, i realise that so do we. spent time this week fussing over the Ubin trip, which is tomorrow! a little worried that the turnup won't be good, but still hopeful that it will be fun! even as we all go our seperate directions, i want to hold on to the friendships we have. sure we can be the kind that has a party every year, or every other year, gathering and updating each other on our lives, but i just feel that it isn't enough. being such a big part of each other's lives for 4 whole years, i'd hope that we'd continue to go out and do things as friends do, not keep living in the past of our former glory.

haha, its a little hopeful, and a lot of luck comes into play. but that's why we need to make the effort now to create opportunities to keep the friendship going. haha, i'm a little exasperated, hoping that others would feel the same.

we hold on to what we can, and hope that we don't let the good things slip through our fingers.

sadness, a tired emo post. haha, but i KNOW that tmr will be filled with awesome from dawn till dusk :)

If you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen!

Man has it been HOT! the weather is wonky as hell, from extreme HOT to downpours. crazyness, really makes one sleepy >.< i wanna go sleep soon! haha.

still today, after SOA, was awesome shizz! Mingyuan, aka My Wang :D, came over cuz he wanted to COOK! so we got all the relevant stuff from NTUC at Tiong Bahru, and headed down to my place to whip up some dinner!

Haha, for a first time chef of Fried Bee Hoon, i've got to say that he did quite well. the bee hoon may have been a little dry, but at least its healthier than drenching the noodles in oil >.< so all in all the bee hoon was really tasty, and i can't wait to see what else he's gonna cook in the near future!

i realise that cooking is quite a significant thing in my family. ever since i could remember, cooking was the best thing to do to celebrate things like Mothers' Day or Fathers' Day (mainly also because i kept forgetting to buy Mom and Dad presents, hehe) but there's something special about seeing the look of satisfaction and pride on Mom and Dad's faces, after they have had a hearty meal produced by yours truly. It has also been a great opportunity for Mat to do something for Mom and Dad, since now i'm too lazy to cook, haha.

I enjoy cooking (i enjoy eating more!) and for me its a performance to whizz around the kitchen and whip up a storm. but i must confess that the main reason i don't step into the kitchen so often is because i CAN'T TAKE THE HEAT. not the metaphorical pressure, but the literal "heat" from the kitchen. every time i cook, i find myself sweltering, having to keep taking breaks to cool down. that's not good, not hygenic! yeah, so i don't cook so much anymore.

Still, i'll find more opportunities to get my hands dirty and show off my culinary skills a little more! there's always baking! like Mom's famous MUD CAKE, which she just made! Mmmmm.... mud cake..... *drool*

haha, maybe you should make special orders! then i'll have the motivation to bake a little, or make a little, and serve for all to share :D

oh, and i was telling My wang, 2 of my favourite/most memorable cooking experience in the recent years, Vinegar Pig's Trotters, and B&J Baked Rice :D good times, good times :)

Only Eat, Talk & Idle

And guess what! it was BORING AS HELL! Did absolutely nothing of use at the place. okay fine, that's a little exaggerating, there was about a total of 1 useful hour. then a big part would be catching up with so many section mates, Jeremy (from VS!), and of course, theoneandonly Eugene! then the rest of it was just sitting around talking cock and wasting time :)

Life at OETI is not tough, but precisely because of that, i'm glad i'm not there. a rough guide to what today was like:

8.30 - Staff Tang (CK TANG!), "have you had breakfast? okay, what time do you want to come back?" Us: "Erm... 9?" Tang:"Okay, come back at 9.30"

9.45 - Staff Tang does SA and Turret lecture then says "What time you want to go for lunch?" Us: "11.30?" Tang:"okay" at 11.10 he leaves the room and says to I/C, "let them off at 11.30 for lunch, come back at 1pm. Bye"

Lunch for 1.5 hours

1pm - skips lectures, go check out the Turrets and HA weapons (i earned $5 for licking some random grease thing on a gun barrel :D)

2.30 - Staff Tang: "your break is supposed to be at 3pm, you can go ahead first"

4.00 - Staff Tang returns. covers some stuff on SA, and dismissed by 4+

So yes, OETI is damn slack. with so many Tea breaks, and the unhealthy food staring you down, i'm glad i'm not at OETI, or all the work during BMT would have gone to waste.

Still, today was nice to catch up with everyone! i can imagine without all the computers to make us seclude ourselves, actually we can bond alot with the people around by talking cock, since there's nothing else to do! But i'm glad to be at SOA. life's good there, and i can get some stuff done i couldn't at OETI :D (yes, i'm talking about Facebook, hur)

Oh yes! Those who have been invited, or those who are interested, for this Friday's Cycling Trip to Ubin, can check out the details here! Finally got down to doing all the stuff needed, can feel the whole event coming together! whee~ can't wait till friday!

Growing into this skin

I'm getting more comfortable with what i'm doing. came back from rehearsal today (my back aches from having to be hunched so much, thinking.... like some plowbeast, lots to carry on my back, so hunched forward) but the people are nice, and breaking the ice, though can see that the directors (particularly Cheng) are getting a little more stressed, but i'm sure given time they will gain control of the reins again.

I realise i'm the kind of actor that either likes to Direct the movement of everyone (but that's the Directors job, so actually i'm saying i rather be Director :D) or be completely directed, which means that i'd like to be told exactly how to do what i need to do. yeah, actually that mean's i'm not so creative like, rather just be an empty canvas for the director to paint on. i'm funny like that >.<

haha, had quite a few awkward scenes with Claire (or is it Clare? through the wonders of Facebook, i have discovered that its 'Claire'!) but i think she did good, me... hahaha... still quite awkward lah. anyway, will be professional about it, and its just business, heh.

Well, put that aside for now, still getting use to acting again, it really feels like its been really long >.<>.<>.<) Its on the 1st May which is next friday... at night! so no clash with the whole cycling trip!

Speaking of which! i've really got to get down and call everyone to confirm if they're going! man, i've been putting it off for so long! damn you Varun! why pangseh me :( haha, silly noob is currently at field camp! Mwaha but i'm sure he's enjoying it! can't wait to hear his 'war stories'.

okay okay, i've REALLY got to go and call everyone. aite, will update soon :) tomorrow's the trip to OETI, even if its boring as hell, you'll hear about it!

Try a little HAPPINESS

HAPPINESS! dad went to open up the mail, and lo and behold i got a letter from NTU, but it came in one of those card sizes envelopes, so didn't hope for much. looks like another one of those brochures...

BUT IT WASN'T!

"Dear Mr Heng,

Congratulations! you have been accepted into

Sociology (First Year)"

(haha, something like that, the letter is with Dad >.<)

OMGOMGOMGOMG! damndamndamn! haha! to me that's just AMAZING :D i thought that i'd be stuck without an advance placement, and have to work my ass off to get a better portfolio to apply in the next years, but now i've got my Sociology spot at NTU :D :D

its also a huge sigh of relief, cuz now i know that i've got a University waiting for me, and not only that, but its MY FIRST CHOICE of course! wahh.... i'm happy :)

okay, now, to be realistic, i must admit that this is just the beginning. not that i don't appreciate my spot, but it also means that this is the starting platform for me to go and apply for more universities, and possibly even scholarship. since the first wave of uni applications were most urgent, i focused on that, but now that i've got some breather, i should start looking at overseas Uni's and look at things i can do beyond this first opportunity. This is an exciting time! i've got sort of a safety net (though i think its too luxurious to consider it that >.<) and i can explore a little more, with slightly less worry about getting a spot in a Uni :D

yes yes, today was good (obviously!) though i've got a little headache, from 6 hours of MagicTG, i love the game, but it really takes alot out of a fella! but yeah, Matt, Rags, Mr Hsi, Mr Low and I, attended the pre-release at Suntec, and thanks to the tutalage of Mr Low, the deck i drafted was awesome enough to get 2 wins! and hence a sweet 2 booster prize! whole bunch of awesome cards! so now i DEFINITELY have to make a dragan deck! with so many awesome shizz like broodmother, broodmate, Karrthus! and much more awesome in there, haha, deck building! but not yet, still gotta recover from today :)

wow. i feel like calling as many as i can and sharing with them the news! but it seems kinda wierd, haha can disguise it with details about Ubin Trip! woo~ another thing to be excited about :D

okay, i'm gonna set this to auto play, cuz when i got the letter, this was the first song that came to mind, just so jumpy with excitement!

edit: stopped it from autoplaying, you know how annoying it is, when everytime you go to a page, songs autoplay, so with the next post i stopped it, but the video shall still be there!

Fulifillment is kinda tough

Man, i'm so tired! i think running in the morning makes me that way. never mind, will just have to go catch some sleep soon, right after i blog, and check some stuff online haha!

just came home from spending some time with Jane, Sze Sian, Wendy, Hui Min, Zhi Hao and Eugene. initially went for the MegaHouse Function, but it was kinda lame, so decided to go off and have dinner and chat instead.

The Weather is freaking hot! i remember as we were talking, we kept complaining about the heat. garh... maybe that's what's making me sleepy too.

I'm a little tired of starting conversations with "hey? how've you been?" its getting a little old. and i'm just saying it to everyone >.< well, goes to show how little i know about my friends, i need to BEG them to tell me, sigh...

I guess i miss Dialogue. not many people around me are still curious about what's happening in my life. even tonight as we chatted, when i left, i couldn't help but feel a little hollow, cuz it was just those superficial talk. I want to have a heart to heart with people. that's REALLY TALKING. but i guess that kind of relationship has to be built up, and i guess now its a little tough to do so. but i must persevere on nonetheless!

Monday going OETI with eugene! and tmr i'm going for Alara Reborn Pre-Release! yes yes, filled weekend, but is it fulfilling? i'll have to figure that out...

Movies Again!

woo hoo! feels good to get out of the house again! haha. its just so funny, i feel so tired everytime i get back home, that i don't feel like doing anything, and also cuz of that, usually no inspiration to blog about anything. I'm more of an events person, i need things to be happening and going on for me to write about, heh :)

So tonight i went to catch 17 Again! yes yes, many might say that its a silly movie to want to watch, but i don't mind :D anyway, had an awesome time watching it with Nadia (Junior! <3)>.<

So, 17 Again. It wasn't bad, but i guess i was a little too over eager to see it, so had higher expectations, which i felt weren't really met. Matthew Perry was a little disappointing for me... i hoped it would be his quirky, interesting Cha-nan-dler Bong type character, but i guess its not easy for him, hard for him to break out of that character. i heard there was a movie where he was a teacher that taught in a neighbourhood school, need to go and find that one. i think i watched it on a plane trip, and i thought he was quite moving in that one! Zac Efron! now that is an actor to watch! sure, now he's doing all the school/young teenie movies, but he's got potential to be a good actor! it will prolly take some time for him to reel in from all that High School Musical, but if he pulls through, i wouldn't mind being a fan of his acting ;D

so now this is how it stands, No. 1 favourite actor : Tom Hanks
Movies:
BIG
You've Got Mail
Cast Away
Forrest Gump
etc. No. 2: Ewan Mcgregor
Movies:
Moulin Rouge
Big Fish
Star Wars Episode I,II,III ( i only liked I tho, II wasn't too bad for him)
The Island

Honourary Mention: Zac Efron
Movies:
High School Musical (1,2 and 3)
Hairspray
17 Again

hehe, i'm quite the movie and TV junkie, even though i really don't watch that much! really! i can't bear to spend on movies >.<

oh well, gotta get that home theater fixed! then can enjoy all sorts of movies at home again! got The Colour Purple due to be watched, and Aunty Jane's Juno! i want to watch! sigh, but for now, i've got to settle the other plans in my life! haha, busy, but exciting!

Untargeted

to recollect on everything i have done today... i've done nothing. We started off with a test, but the rest of the day was an utter waste of time. i even went on facebook, stared at it for the whole of 5 minutes, and just gave up. i think i became sick of facebook! (don't worry, i'll be back using it again tomorrow! haha)

still, its times like this where i can feel my life slipping away through my fingers. so i spent some time thinking about Ubin, and a little time sketching up Mr Rhino, but most of it was just sitting there waiting for something to happen. sadness.

i've gotten into such a momentum of doing things, that when i'm just idling by, i can feel it. like REALLY feel it. hear the tick tick ticking away of the seconds. time just passes so slowly >.< i much rather be out there doing something. that's why i must try my very best not to get a desk job in an office. i would spend so much time at the desk, my bum would probably melt and conjoin with the seat. i feel the pounds packing on already.

GkuGku (mom's brother) has asked me again about "what is your goal? do you have a target" and though i admit that i'm more active, i'm still not sure if i have a direction.

another thing i found i want to do! i want to enrol in Jap classes! if i can learn a decent amount of Jap, i can go to Japan after i ORD, and can get around without having to rely on a translator or travel guides! oh man! that sounds good! if only i can buckle down and really go and do it. maybe will ask GkingGking about it (aunt, mom's sister-in-law) (just in case you were wondering why they have such wierd names, i think its Teochew, but that's what we call them at home XP)

I realise i easily feel tired at home. that's why i must get out of the house! i hope i can find someone to go watch 17 Again with me tmr! just want to get out, and i REALLY want to watch 17 Again! MATTHEW PERRY, ZAC EFRON FTW!!!

me no likes runny noses

i'm feeling uber sick now. wanted to post about The Principle, but will have to leave that till another time. now i've got to cope with a messed up head, not enough oxygen going to brain. i think i owe like... 3 posts already? haha. i'm very a very bad blogger >.<

anyway, off to do a little studying before tmr's ammo test. if you do drop by, give a little tag, just to know that you're tuning in to "Jonathan's Blog: Is he still posting?"
:D

My comfort food : Han's Rum Balls

Sure, it isn't my ONLY comfort food, but its the first one i've ever thought of as a comfort food :) okay. i wouldn't have said it was a bad day. because honestly, it wasn't so bad, but just felt a little low a while ago, and had a Han's Rum Ball to pick me up a little. so there ya go, my first acknowledged comfort food!

i don't like a lot though. just 1 is good, the taste of familiarity and richness, ah simple pleasures :) My mom use to get it often when i was a kid, i think she liked it too! and slowly, the taste started to grow on me, and maybe my brother, and i don't think any other place does it as smoothly or as rich as Han's.

So today has been an embarrassingly hot day, embarrassing because i sweat from the start till the end of the day! the sweat just couldn't stop! the humid, hot weather is really bothering >.<

then came home and rushed down to SMU to see the R&GAD (Rosencrantz and Guilderstern Are Dead!) people, where we were working on our characters as tradgedians. i must say, from a 3rd person's perspective, it seems like what we're doing is awesome fun, because we explore different characters and create whole people and motivations, literally from thin air. but from the perspective of myself doing all this, as amazing as it is, it isn't quite working out for me. sure, its only been 2 rehearsals so far and only 1 as an official member of the cast, but maybe because of that, i don't really feel part of the team yet. its like everyone knows each other, and its kinda hard to penetrate that clique, haha, sounds like my life story eh? always the odd one out, Mr Rhinocerous.

Mr. Rhino : awkward and clumsy, in terms of social interactions. heavy weighted steps of trying hard to do whatever he is doing. always wanting to please others. timid, polite, reserved and hesitant. tough, but not in a violent way. no one seems to understand Mr Rhino.

haha, so maybe the character didn't come out from 'thin air' per se, just a short reflection of some of the thoughts swimming in my head. i'm still giving it a shot, trying hard to bond and connect, but like all things, it takes time, and strife. must work hard to do this well, and to get to click with the others.

its not easy lah. i'm good at meeting people, but not good at establishing meaningful, long term relationships, it takes a lot of awkwardness and luck for me to blend well with people. haha, i bet you didn't know that.

ah well, till the day that i'm accepted, gotta settle with a little loneliness XP, but don't worry, i'll live :) after all, there's always Han's Rum Balls :)

Hungry, for the Video!

Just pored through 3 CDs, with lots of pictures, but mainly of Hungry, 06 LA night, best experience of my life ever. will try and post a few pictures soon, but not yet. wanna find the video too! Ms Cheah better find it!

Damn, it was a bloody amazing time. just can do it justice, need to postpone this post till another day. so keep your eye out!

Showing Interest in Others

Hello ya'll, maybe this is the time where my postings start to slow, cuz i realise that finding things to post about EVERYDAY is kinda tough, and i want my posts to have a point, not just random ramblings.

but first! if you know us and what to get a good laugh at what our TA1 was like, i suggest you check out "Which TA oneeey'ohfive boy are you?" its freaking funny, but only if you know who we are!

anyway, had a good day today. Morning was at Temple, was grandparents anniversary (death or wedding, i'm not sure...) but in any case, its good to pay respects to the elders, reminds me that family is very important. Its also an opportunity for Dad's side of the family to meet up. We always see Mom's side, being under one roof and all, but for Dad, i'm glad there's this constant effort to stay close, even though we stay all over the place :)

Then headed down to school, where i got to see what the TA open house is like, from the perspective of a graduate! (But mainly i was there to play MagicTG with Mr Hsi and Mr Low) Maybe its the good performance of my cohort of TA (my COHORT, not necessarily me >.<) but it seemed like there were a lot more people here for open house compared to the last few years. the hype of novelty kinda faded, now there's finally some stats to back up the effectiveness of TA.

more importantly, Mr Hsi and Mr Low are FREAKING AWESOME players! haha, or i'm noob. but in anycase, they do have more income to invest in the game, which sad to say i can't, POOR little army boy :'( but still, can pick up quite a few pointers from them, and find ways to fine tune my deck to match up to them! haha, maybe this challenge will reignite my interest in deckbuilding! Johnny i am, rearing its head at the thought of a challenge! haha

met wendy and kenny for a while but not very long, would be seeing them for dinner.

Met up with Prerna, who just came back from India for NUS medicine interview, Varun, Kenneth and Wendy for dinner at Fish and Co. @ Parkway. Dinner was good, company fine, and it was nice to see and catch up with Prerna again! nice simple dinner to talk about randomities.

to be honest, i've felt lately that my spending time with people has kinda changed. it isn't what it used to be. hmmm there's like something lacking, like a certain expectation that is not met, but i can't quite put my finger on it. it just feels like there isn't that openness that there once were. i think its just me, there's a need to shift my mindset.

i think i may know what it is. it feels a little like no one is interested in what i have to say. haha, a little like low self-esteem, which doesn't usually come out of me (i hide it well XP) but recently, theres been this sentiment that no one is really interested in me (that sounds like such a selfish statement >.<) Maybe also because now that i've facebooked so much, i've asked so many people "hey! how are you? what's been going on in your life?" its just my way of nudging them to ask, "you've been different lately, anything you wanna share?"

ah well, i've got to entertain myself for a little while, used to have someone to give these little quirks to and work it out, but i guess i'm not so lucky anymore, haha.

Anyway, i'm really excited about planning the Ubin trip! really looking forward to getting it done! me and varun were going on and on about it just now before we split, and there sounds like so much potential for it to be damn fun! but the obstacles are starting to surface already, hope can iron the kinks out and make the trip go without a hitch :D

will keep you updated on my life now and then! i told ya'll! tell me what to post about and i will! i need topics, people!

Walling too much

Just came home from dinner with Jane, Wendy, Sarah, Zhi Hao, and not forgetting Naddie! dinner was good, at Al Majilis, darn, kinda wish i got the ginger tea to settle my stomach, ginger tea is good! ( i like it more for the effects than the taste, but i think it has kinda grown onto me)

stupid as this may sound, but its good to have female contact again. sure i wasn't totally engaged in tonights conversations, but its still good seeing these girls, and talking about something different for a change.

it has made me more determined than ever to plan that Ubin trip, me and varun keep talking about! so people who frequent here, i'll keep ya'll updated soon!

2 things i realise about my chatting/messaging habits. 1) i use ALOT of emoticons, i think i use it to fill up when i don't know how to express how i feel, afterall, body language communicates ideas so much more easily! but if its not emoticons than its "haha" just feels natural, but i need to cut down alot more... 2) when i start messaging i don't know how to stop XP go check out my face book page

"Jonathan wrote on _____'s Wall
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haha, that's what it's like as an Ammo Tech, too much time, so i end up using FB, not that its a bad thing :)

okay i'm tired, figure out what else to say tmr, till then, goodnight!

Best friends, ChanMon

"PIPE PIPE PIPE DOWN! What's the matter with you people? this woman was trying to do a nice thing for you, and look at her... She's a MESS! Her hair's not brushed, she's got dark circle on her eyes, chocolate on her face and she still looks st-st-stunning!" - Chandler Bing (Cha-nan-dler Bong)

I still love Monica and Chandler. yes i am jealous. :']

Go Exploring

I'm kinda tired, and got Much swimming in my head, but i guess its important to keep an update of what i'm doing, will be doing, just because i should.

off the cuff, decided to head on down to school and meet ximin, though that didn't quite work out, but in the end managed to catch up a little with Junior Nad, Kelly and even Yanting, so that was good nonetheless. then had dinner with ZT, or rather, i had dinner as he watched me eat. he's changed, a good changed, more open and more relaxed than i remembered him. though i like the new ZT, more adventurous, and if possible i wouldn't mind getting him as a buddy to go try out new things (that does not sound gay at all)

but more importantly, he threw some thoughts into my face which i would not have done so alone, so i'm appreciative of that. too many things swimming, just swimming around in the head of mine. need to figure things out, but i've packed my schedule quite tight for the next few days. not much time to sit around and just reflect. some how i think i see it as 'moping' and i don't want to be moping. i'd do anything just to not slow down. but i think that's what i need to do. for the time being.

after everything, still she leaves me with contradictions and internal struggles. never failing to make me think, assess and figure out who i am and how to deal with things. hmm... thanks.

tomorrow have got an interview and test with NTU for Sociology, fingers crossed! if these are the only replies i'm getting, then i've got to try extra hard (though i must admit, so far i haven't really done much... or anything for that matter) but yeah. 2 years army, go exploring.

the constant ache

had an enjoyable sunday afternoon. went down to RJ to audition for a part in a play. the audition was a mess, haha, but it's not that heartbr-ache-ing if i don't get the part. its not like i have that much at st-ache there, its just a one off thing, if i get it that'd be great, but if not its okay :)

but what was definitiely more enjoyable were the little excercises, like action/reaction or roleplay. really has reaw-ache-ened my interest in drama, that's what i missed, letting lose and forgetting the world for a while. we did an exercise where we kinda had to improv a shakespearan scene, me and partner did Romeo and Juliet, she was a little... stressed, so it didn't turn out so good, but the rest were good nonetheless.

then met raghav down at raffles city, didn't have anywhere in particular in mind, just wanted to br-ache the monotony of doing nothing on weekends (more for him than for me though) my weekends will have the play rehearsals if all goes well. haha, i hope i m-ache it!

spent the whole day going around as red as a lobster, and painful painful patches all over the body, ahh well, that's the price paid for enjoying yourself to the max, you must pay the price if you want to have your c-ache and eat it too!

but overall its been a good day. not too stressful, a decent pace.

+++

i realise it is not an overwhelming feeling of unhappiness, but in everything i do, every where i go, the little pangs hit, like a terrible ache. life goes on, but the aches shall be there for a while.

Buffy

i couldn't let it end so selfishly.

so now i think about Buffy, may peace be with her.

"You would love with that big heart of yours, love even though it hurt, even though your body was wracked with pain, even as your spine jutted out awkwardly… They would all be covered by a rich, soft coat of love."

Buffy, thank you. Thank you for the lessons your taught, and the gleam in your eye, quiet and reserved, you reminded me of someone not very far from yourself. Do watch over her, she shares a pain not very unlike yours.

pumping a dry tap

Saturday, good day with the brothers at Sentosa, quite hesitant about going at first, a little sick of Sentosa too, but glad that i went down and had a good time with Marcus, Varun, Eugene, Firdaus and not forgetting Kenneth. these are the good times, the crazy times, that i remember because of the painful sunburns i have on my back now. haha. still awesome day. tired, but good :)

then on the way back home, the thought creeps back, and i don't know what to do with it.

i wish i could just let it out, like just force it all out in one final unhappiness. i tried. seriously, i REALLY TRIED. but i got nothing. i find myself in this state where i can't really express what i want to. like feeling the nose itch, but unable to sneeze.

It's slowly sinking in. i'm slowly realising what i've done. it had to be done. i didn't want to do it. but i did.

i really wish i knew what to say. I'm so scared, beyond scared. Frightened by my reaction. i can't get it out right. something like this should not be lingering, it cannot linger.

i saw the 2 and i read them again and again. i went to find everything i ever recieved and all the pictures, looking again and again. thinking over the countless things said and done. i searched my mail for the letters, the wonderful, amazing letters, speaking across the oceans. i remember the calls, the long, the short, the crying, the silence.

there's so much, there's just SO MUCH. i don't get why the hell i can't let it out. its a sedation, a numbing, that just dilutes the feelings, and prolongs it too.

there's a lot of history at work.

i'm going off to try and pump the tap. what else can i do?

Trickling

I hate how the phone ringing sounds like teardrops trickling, when you don't pick up the phone.

The 15 year old

Just came back from dinner with Aisyah, Amorn and Amanda. (only when typing this out do i realise their name all starts with A! LOL the A Team, haha) Haven't seen them in a long time, and aisyah and amanda look lovely, while amorn looks... actually a little like he jumped out of a manga... haha must be the hair...

Anyway, they were the same batch of students as me, so all of us came into TJ in 2005, but they've gotten the head start in life, while i went through 2 more years in TA, so in actual fact, they aren't really 'seniors' but more like peers, but older.

yet, in their presence, i will always be the little kid (yes yes, make your BIG/SMALL jokes now XP) and i even feel it in my behaviour when i'm with them! i let loose a little more, i am willing to be a bit more charming, more ego, more silly, and just more of a kid, then i would be with my other friends, and needless to say, the juniors.

maybe its just me taking my role as the little TA kid of the group again. aManda termed it "hegemony" (makes me think of Sharuum, helps that s/he's my current wallpaper) and it means to have a dominance of one social group over another. what I THINK it means, is to basically suscribe to what the dominating social system in the group, and for me that is to be the less mature kiddy guy, despite having had my own share of growing up done.

still, i enjoy playing the munchkin of the group, showing maturity only when i have to, if not its fun indulging as the little one :D

Hopefully the 05-06 Drama Gathering turns out well! i can't wait to see some of the ole drama people again! Leandra, Serena, Raf (amanda! hahaha), and i realise we don't have much guys in drama... much less GUY guys... Why Shouvik! why did you go away :'( still, can't wait! :D

Emergency! change of plans!

I've never been the type to put up pictures on my blog, just always though that words were enough to say it all, but now, like all changes, i'm gonna do a lot more photo posts than i usually do :D after all a picture says a thousand words! and here's the first thousand to kick it off!

I like breaking convention, doing things completely unexpected, at the best of times. sometimes i end up with wierd looks, but i've gotten use to it now :) after all, sometimes, having no shame is a good thing!

just look at this picture! funny as hell from an instructional diagram standpoint, but if someone were to actually do it, man would he get heat from everyone >.< i want to figure this out. i want to figure out how people think, and how they easily assume things, simple and complex, and i want to break that convention. Don't want to do the same old thing that everyone else has done, be just like the Joker, doing the unimaginable.

of course there's the very practical motivation of just wanting to be noticed, and hoping for attention, but who wouldn't want attention some of the time? its a human acceptance thing, we want to be validated for our actions, so that's fine with me :)

it was awesome with kenneth around, another kindred soul unafraid to break the usual trend, and have the BALLS to do what others would turn and say "siao!", "crazy!", "LAME". haha, cannot forget TA2, studying for exams, or the infocenter "portrait" so many countless RANDOM things we did in our TA life, that's why he's definitely one of the friends i want to hang on to, so that the spontaneity will last, hopefully even till we are 40+ and having our mid life-crises, and need to find something crazy and random to do!

its hard finding someone so open and willing to put himself in a situation that is new and different. people like that are hard to come by, if you're one, then please do tell me, lets go do something random together!

and to end it all off, here's EMERGENCY! BREAK GLASS!

Liar Game

I think my curiosity in psychology was also sparked off by Akiyama-san, ingenious character from the fictitious world of Liar Game. Some of you might have heard of it before, but most of you prolly haven't. Anyway, Liar Game is a Manga and was made into a live action show (much better than the manga in my opinion, except for the ending...) and it really looks into the behavior of greed and selfishness exhibited by people. Sure, its a manga, and some of the qualities are highly exaggerated, but its very reflective on the society we live in, things to think about when you go about in your daily life

liar game

plus, it doesn't hurt that the main character is really cute :D

people just fascinate me, at least that's the only real thing that i can say right now. i can't remember what else i wanted to blog in this post, cuz i was too busy watching Liar Game, haha, maybe some other time my blog will be more... wholesome :D

SCC&TASCO&D&D&SW&S

SC Camp & TASC Outing & Dungeons & Dragons & Social Work & SLEEP

super tired now, and yet i choose to blog before i get some rest, haha, at least i'm posting right?

Dungeons and Dragons was awe-freaking-some (courtesy of Eugene :D) going crazy over the lame choices we made (HAM!) and the enemies we fought (WOLVES!) and all the stupid NPC's we met (INDIAN BLACKSMITH! f*** your mother!) it was damn fun! haha, even to complete newbie's such as Marcus, Matthew and I, picking it up was real simple, especially since after teh basic groundwork, most of the things were adapted on the spot, that makes this a really flexible game, able to adapt to our constraints (i foresee time will be one of them!) and our personalities. Its one of those things that would take hours to describe, but once you're in it, you never look back :D

Then with an hour of sleep, headed down to rag's place, thanks for the lovely Thosai's! i love freshly cooked, homemade thosai's. i think i finally understand why indians (and italians) say that their mom makes the best *insert group* food. Aunty Jane's Thosai was slightly different from Raghav's family's, very subtle, but definitely there, and i can imagine growing up on such food, you wouldn't think anyone else's is better.

Then from there, we collected the food at Little India, and proceeded on to the... the... okay so i forgot the name, but it was an old folks place nonetheless, and helped served food, just like cookhouse aunty/uncles! haha, feels interesting to be on the other side of the serving counter for once. still considering whether i should continue, cuz i still want to explore some other things, but social work definitely should be in my plans for the future.

Note to self: i want to post about the old folks home, entitled "waiting" or somewhere along these lines, when i remember/ got the time, will elaborate.

at this point of my post i realise i forgot to post about SC campfire and TASC Outing, it was good, as all TASC outings are :D, but maybe with the TASC there, they felt too awkward turtle, so i didn't really know whether to go around chatting up the seniors and 32nd, did a little, but felt bad and went back to the TASC often, haha, we are in an awkward position lah, neither here nor there, "the first, the last, the only" heh. still, nice to see them all again!

then off to Cafe Cartel for Half Priced Cheesecakes, on Half washed plates. yes yes, gross-ness. still the company was good, and we click with each other after going through so much, so we a good bunch of friends, with lots of bets and challenges to redeem years later :)

what a wonderfully fruitful and fulfilling weekend, "eh, eugene, i can't do this every weekend... we getting old ah?" "haha, yah" every once in a while can chiong like this, but will surely burn out, but its good to do so when we can :D these are the things that we'll remember!

Night Drive

Bukit Batok Driving Center, the beginning of possibly quite the scary responsibility, all part of my initiation into manhood. I went to enroll for driving lessons today.

I guess most people don't give a second thought about driving, it's one of those skills that everyone else seems to have, so you should learn how to drive too. so that's how i approached it, up till the point my mom had a minor freakout with me applying for driving lessons now.

I love my mom to bits, but its kinda freaky when she suddenly unloads her maternal worry all at once, haha. but its important to know what you're getting yourself into when you put yourself behind the wheel to a "high potential lethal machine" - quote mom. but it's true, accidents happen all the time, and you hear all about them in the papers, but yet we don't really consider, what if that were you?

when you drive you are not only responsible for yourself, but the safety of everyone in, and outside, the vehicle. not only must you get from A to B, but you need to pay attention to the road, other drivers, where you're going, and still focus such that you're not distracted by the other passengers.

I'm too used to having so many drivers in the family, i almost assume its second nature to drive. like a rite of passage, my dad learnt to drive to drive his family around, my mom learnt to drive to get in and out of Wolskell Road, and now i want to drive to feel like a contributing member to my family, driving is more than a skill to me.

haha, you can prolly tell that this responsibility is kinda starting to weigh on me, but i guess that's the kind of mentality i should adopt if i'm going to be a responsible driver. Time to grow up a bit, mature more, and understand that there are times in life you gotta let loose and have fun, but there are times like these where you have to buckle down and take control of the wheel.

i'm going to have fun driving, but cannot forget the importance of taking this seriously :)

Nut shot

its one of those things that you can't help but share! I'm glad to be alive where you know you're male even in computer games.
ouch, i hope you don't get your own nut shot :D

Shall wii play?

I love fridays! half hour earlier from SOA, and no need to worry about waking early to get to school tomorrow! YES! hahaha

and hence i can play the wii guilt-free! no impending doom felt from tests, and no applications to Uni to rush! HOWEVER, did get a message from Mom, about a call from SMU about arrangement for my Info Systems Technology interview. just saying it is a mouthful "Info-Systems Technology". It 'sounded' interesting when browsing through the possible courses, i can't even remember which choice it was >.< soo... will have to do a little reading up on that i guess! but hopefully its not too soon, will have to call the guy tmr.

Still! i got my chance to play the wii just now! Super Smash Bro.'s Brawl is just the best! such simple button combinations, but yet such a rewarding game, especially when played with others. and though heng woon has no clue what she's doing, at least we had a bit of fun unlocking CAPTAIN FALCON, and SONIC! captain falcon is freaking awesome, he may be vulnerable when building special attacks, but his attacks knock the stuffing out of every guy on the field! Remember kids, FALCON PUNCH! the solution to teenage pregnancy :)

But anyway, for now, i'm gonna enjoy my friday! make a few arrangements for weekend plans, and get an early night (sorta, haha)

this weekend!
Sat: morning breakfast with family hopefully!
afternoon might be rest at home, or maybe meet fidot, depending on who's free
night, council campfire, followed by TASC outing, followed by some of the guys coming over to my place (supposed to be lester's house, but, long story)

SLEEPOVER Whee!

sunday: if i'm not too hammered, hopefully i'll be perky enough to attend the social work with raghav! haven't done this sorta thing in a while, a little initimidated, and a little excited :D
the rest of the day i guess i should study some of my Ammunition stuff, i still wanna do well i guess, cuz its important to do enough so that i'm in a more favourable position after finishing the course. wouldn't want to slave aways at sai kang!

To the weekend! here i come!

Nobody wants to hear you sing about tradgedy

how apt! my title for today is lyrics from Disloyal Order of the Water Buffaloes - Fall Out Boy, looks like my blog is all about FOB nowadays, i'm not a crazed fanboy, but you gotta admit, their music is awesome! (testimonials from Raghav and Eugene if you need :D)

i look at some of the old posts, and actually even the previous one (though prolly not so much) are a little emo. have the tendency to do that when i come to a dark, blue, gloomy blogskin, even if i did like the "Giant in the City" imagery! so there was the tendency to come to my blog and lament. BUT NO MORE! that's the whole idea with the revamp! i would like to come and post anything here, but since its more like a journal of my life, i'd like to fill it with happy memories, things that i want to look back and laugh at when i'm older :)

Studying at SOA bores me, but i must say that life is being quite good to me with this posting. sure, studying sucks, but i get to use facebook all day XP and i'm sure that's annoying the hell out of some guys with stay in vocations and TEXTBOOKS to study, haha. and for girls, they wonder, why the hell is jon so free! posting on facebook all day, SHEESH! hahaha (actually i imagine wendy saying this, cuz she's all day on facebook watching me prance around on walls and quizzes, haha)

also, i think i'm quite blessed with the workload. no homework! just the way i like it. and i pay a reasonable amount of attention in class, such that even with minimal study last night (yes yes i was online FB-ing and surfing) i managed to be top 3 in class! (fine, so it was third, SHEESH) well, as long as it is good enough for me to get a "good job" after SOA, then i'm happy enough.

not to mention having lots of time to myself after class! just came back from a jog, bleh tired, but i guess after BMT, i'm kinda getting use to it. gotta get my stupid silver for IPPT (pass is 12 points and silver is 15, might as well just aim for silver! $100 too!) but i also know its good for me, if i want to improve on my Gorgeous figure :D

So good times ahead for me, at least i can foresee for this week + weekend, its gonna be awesome, D&D, Council Campfire, maybe i can slot in 1 more thing... maybe should do something with family!

i'm very bad at finding things to talk about. my blog usually dies when i run out of things to say, so if you're interested in hearing things about my life, tag! then i'll try to dedicate posts to it :) just like a radio show.

Jon Heng signing off! -Bzzt- -Bzzt- *no more reception*

Displeasurable certainty

It was a nice time not collecting our A level results, i mean, i wouldn't have to face the results be it good or bad, and can just enjoy being "in transition" where there is nothing bad weighing you down, that's a nice place to be, but i wouldn't want to stay there forever.

Once i got my results, they were less than ideal. they were just downright horrible, but as disappointing as it IS, at least, now that i know the facts, i can do something about it. With my poor results i still try to apply for Uni, see if i'm good enough. if i'm not, then knowing my results give me the opportunity to move forward, and either retake my A levels, or give in, and maybe take my degree elsewhere.

so, please don't "spare the rod, (and) spoil the child", i'd rather learn my lesson, and move on, if today turns out bad, at least i can hope for a brighter tomorrow :)

Retardant

bleh, haven't run in so long, almost died today. damn. don't like running, but know i have to do it.

NS is just generally slow, doesn't matter whether you're in Tekong or in SOA, as long as its NS, the days feel retardedly long. when you look at the clock, you go "wow, its 2 o' clock, should be ending the day in a few more hours!" then a little while later, after you pore through the many lecture notes, you take a second glance and scream inside "WHAT its only 2.30! How! Why? DAMN" and you continue facebooking to pass the time (people on facebook know EXACTLY what i'm talking about :D)

On the flipside, 3SGT Chris did say today "Its a nice place to be. When you know you've done your studying, you have an office and a stable income, you don't have a worry in the world" and its kinda true. for now, now that my applications have been sent, and i don't really worry greatly about my Ammo Tests, i can just be happy, arrange meet ups, and look for interests i've always wanted to try. Was just telling Wendy that now's the time! the perfect opportunity to go pursue our interests, cuz we're "in transit" neither in Uni, nor looking for a job, we're just waiting, and this time can be well spent to find ourselves!

i'm adjusting quite well to the people in SOA. I just hope i'm not an elitist, and can only relate, click, and get along with people that are more educated, would be quite sad if that's the case... but that's why empathy is such a difficult skill to aquire, and hopefully if i go into the world more often, i can figure out how to understand more people. this leads up to sunday's social work, going with rag to serve food to the elderly, haven't done something like this in a while, if all goes well, maybe next time can get more people to do something and return to society!

so... even though things are slow, i'm having a good time cruising along, and lapping up every minute i have to myself :) "its a good time to be"

Opportunities

finally submitted all the Uni applications! good to finally get that out of the way, now i don't have to worry so much about Dad breathing down my neck. but yeah, i know he does it out of concern, its good to know that he actively takes part in making my life, and future better. Thanks Dad :)

So, that means now i can go do some other things apart from staring at computer screen wondering what to write for the application essays (and end up FB-ing or just surfing) but i do realise there are quite a lot of opportunities rearing thier head for me to go grab it.

1) Driving Lessons
really must go get that done, i want to be able to drive soon! actually its the silly 6 mth probabtion thing that i want to get rid off, and what better time to watch it pass than when i'm in army (everyday's a wait -_-)

2) Community service
"I don't need community service! i'm doing all the service right here in NS! 'CIP hours: 2 years' why would i spend my weekends doing that!" -Varun (who just booked back in... poor fellow... HAHAHAHA XD) but i would agree if i were in a stay in vocation or in tekong, but now that i have time, i would like to do some comm work. Raghav's intro-ing me to help serve food to the elderly next sunday, maybe i'll pick up on that offer! sounds quite good, and a good place to start

3) D&D
this is completely random, but it sounds damn good coming from the guys, and its an opportunity to meet up, while playing some mad awesome game! let's hope things work out next weekend!

4) Performing
So recently caught up with Sally, primary school friend, and she's doing a million other projects, one of which she terms "random musical thing" which sounds really interesting, and since i haven't been in that field for so long, maybe this might be a good chance to dip my hands in! but must get through the auditions, so we'll see! haha.

5) reconnecting with the past
Benedict, Company mate, now with me at SOA and ex-GEPper too, so he happens to know like EVERYONE i've known in my years before TJ, so i'm taking the chance to start adding people on FB, and talking to them, catch up, and see what's changed (and what stays the same) even this guy named Jevon Yeoh, who was like my P1,P2 classmate, just random, but cool to see if he still remembers! haha.

so yes, lots of things coming up, will have to manage my time well, and make sure i get all the neccessary done, and not get into trouble anywhere! Sleep is very important to get all these things done, so now i'm going to bathe, and sleep :D toodles!

Comm Chest

I'd like to do something for the needy. help out like we used to at the YMCA. all friends who would like to join me to find something to give back to society, tag my board! let's go find something to do!

No Phone Today

I realise that i'm alot more introspective when i'm without my phone. yes, i still talk to people around me, but i find that i'm more able to be alone with my thoughts, maybe because i'm not thinking about the next message to send out to people...

i must admit, i'm not really good at asking myself the hard questions. i can almost feel myself avoiding it, but because i'm in conversation with me, "we" both know that the issue is there, i just don't want to face it. I do enjoy talking to him though, its a little like narration sometimes, like telling me what to do, and what has happened. Reflection, like in a mirror, just in thought. 'Don't think so much' that's what my platoon mates tell me... sorry, but no thanks, that's what makes ME, reflection and thinking back, hoping to find ways to improve, or at least assess what has been done, that's the only way to move forward.

Ben is quite a mushroom to hang out with (Funghi- FUN GUY! XD) its surprising what a small island this is, and i guess this is the opportunity to finally link up and connect with old friends, like Sally :D but stupid i-love-my-pole kia liang STILL has NOT replied my message, you better be in delta wing or something!

So, with no phone today, i've been pretty much disconnected from my usual sms chat buddies, but its good to have some time to my own thoughts, maybe this is what kgukgu (refer below) is talking about. Must still learn how to face the tough questions tho.

i heart my bed

i'm so greatful for having my bed to sleep on. i wish i could give it a big hug, 'thank you for always supporting me' haha.

but have been neglecting Mr. Bed till very late every night. trying to catch up, but most of the time, just wasting time frying my brains on the com. so tonight i'll try to sleep early, maybe 10, depending on whether i do my SMU applications tonight. the essays are just SO TEDIOUS. but yeah, might be a good idea if i write the topics and try to get it done during free time tomorrow.

am concurrently applying for my driving basic theory test. okay, to be honest, i have no clue how to go about getting a driving license... so if anyone knows, do enlighten!

actually coming home from SOA these few days, i've had terrible headaches, dunno if its because i'm not drinking enough water, or maybe just not having enough sleep. fine, fine, looks like Mr. Bed's alluring call is much louder than SMU application. will hopefully get that done tmr. stupid essay. tucking in soon :) goodnight

Going back to School

Yes, i've been posted to School of Ammunition, but like everything in the SAF, can't say anything about it. not that i want to anyway :)

hopefully will be updating a tad more often now that there's more free time on my hands. But what am i going to do with this free time? well, part of it will have to be studying for SOA i guess, it really is like going back to school, but there's a coupla things i would list to want to do with my new found freedom (sorta)

1) take driving lessons
sounds like a good idea getting my license out of the way, i just wanna have that license so that if ever the need may arise, i can be of service to the family too. that's why my dad took up driving, and i think its a very good reason to! also, designated driver is the perfect way to have a friendly excuse for not drinking (yes, i do not drink outside of my home)

2) take a dance class
this is still prolly a fantasy. but i've always wanted to take up dance, just to see if i can follow, and see if i'm sexy enough to pull it off! lol.

3) meet more friends for dinner dates
yes yes i know i do it every book out, but that's the thing, to keep my friends close, we need to make the effort to meet. Hopefully i'm not overdoing it in the initial stages of being seperated, but now's as good a time as any. its gonna be hard to keep it up for many years to come, if i'm not enthusiastic about it now!

but kgukgu (rough sound translation, for my mother's younger brother, basically uncle) did mention. "I noticed you have been living very full weekends, but now that you have got some (more) time on your hands, maybe its time you spend some time chasing your passions, alone"

he has a point, i have been doing ALOT of things with other people, mainly cuz i'm trying to squeeze on tightly to my friends, but perhaps its also because i haven't really spent time alone connecting with myself. i struggled with the dual life of tekong life and civvy life, but now it seems like i may have lost touch with some of my "self-conversation" skills. if there's one thing i'd like to learn, its to have better communication with myself, figure out where i'm going in life, my passions, and what am i going to go after.

sigh, its all about "what drives you" - isn't that some slogan from some ad campaign? or sounds like something from an Open house... - but to find what makes me tick. living in the moment is good, but i need to step out of the zone and take a look at things in the bigger picture, but with that i need to find where am i going to take myself. Big Scary questions which maybe i don't want to answer, maybe i'm scared of finding out. in anycase, need to find a way to look for that.

so. with everyone starting thier vocations all over the place, all the best (shoutout to kenneth, delta wing OCS, heh heh heh, god bless your soul :D) and do stay in touch :)

Why i don't sleep

When i sleep it signals to me the end of the day. but i don't want the days to end! when a day ends, it means that the next one begins. if i sleep at 1 and wake up the same time, it really seems like i have more than 24 hours in a day!

but its kinda stupid if you think about it. yeah i know. but its a happy kind of denial doncha think? the only thing is that i'm losing on sleep. (hoping my body gets use to it, and i can function on less sleep)

anyway, since i'm here, if any one is interested (or still visits here XP) i've been posted to Rifle Range Road, as an Ammo Tech (i think that is Ammunitions Technician) don't know what that does, but will tell you next week (if i bother to blog) might be a 9 to 5 which might mean i can go home! then maybe i will blog more often :)

anyway, i've POP-ed (since my last post was "7 days to enlistment"). Finally out of the stupid island of Tekong, and have gotten that out of the way. people might be familiar with my Emo Sundays and my frustrations with working with some of the people there. let's hope it won't stay this way for the next 2 years.

also, i'm starting my application to Uni's most likely will stay here, there isn't any particular course i'm interested in doing overseas. but undesirable results might hold me back from getting the desired course. we shall see where this hand will take me. or i might have to mulligan >.<

if anyone still frequents this place, do give a shout out, and i'll try to reply XP i want to keep in touch :) i miss having friends surrounding me everyday. i miss school (kinda, haha)

maybe if i get to go back each night, i might have to make a exercise plan, but i want to meet people too. maybe i'll exercise with people! we'll see, we'll see...

I like bread :)

i'm tired but i don't want to sleep. (but now i'm gonna go bathe, and i shall sleep)

today was awesome. beach time with kenny, raggy and gavin (no nickname, unless you want gavvy, but that just sounds like... gross) then KJ came over and we just hung out. my place is good to hang out. but i gotta start letting other people plan! haha

i miss... life.

RACIST!

7 days to enlistment!

Hi everybody!

its 7 days to enlistment, 7 whole days, actually potentially 7 awesome days because i have my birthday party this sat! and even though its a small group (of friends) i'm hoping that many people will stay over and we'll have a rocking party!

a little on an adrenaline high, cuz the past 1.5 weeks have been the most fun 1.5 weeks ever. maybe because i know i have to enlist so soon, so i'm cramming every last bit of enjoyment i can into them, so let's take a look at what we have done to date!

Tuesday, 18th Nov:
after the physics paper, Varun, Marcus and I went bowling, with Eugene and Raghav there too. Tampines Safra is a really nice place to bowl, and there's the pool tables, reminded me of that time with the angel-mortal thing. haha

then lunch at seoul garden with Mrs. Ang and the class. she's like this Mommy taking the whole "family" out for a meal, Mrs Ang's just great it will be sad to leave TJ :(

but it didn't end there! after that we (Rag, Var, Mar, Gene, Me) headed over to Kenneth's place to (play with fire/Barney) plant potatoes and onions! i wonder how they are doing, i know the onions are shooting, but the potatoes cannot see...

then Dinner at Pizza Hut@Siglap, with a trip to Video Ezy ment i finally got to watch Be Kind Rewind, as i got the DVD and watched it that night!

Wednesday, 19th Nov:
Hm, i know it was fun, but i can't remember what i did... haha so many things went on!

Oh... Wednesday.... it was THAT day. ECP, lala, getting wet, sticky messes anr unravelling them. yes yes.... what an interesting, beautiful, Jack/taugay kind of day.

Thursday, 20th Nov:
Raghav was due to come over in the evening on thursday, but in the end it was too late... the morning was nice and relaxed, but dinner was to celebrate 266, HengHwee's PSLE score! right! so instead shifted the raghav thing to monday next week. Dinner at Crystal Jade was nice! the ramen was too nutty for my taste, but the ribs were GOOOOOD, haha!

Friday, 21st Nov:
I loved that day. My parents took leave for November/Dec, cuz we were to go to China for a last long family trip in a long time (due to NS) but since it was cancelled, we decided to have a holiday in Singapore :)

the morning started with Indian Breakfast in Little India (the Thosais wer YUMMM) then decided that we were going to spend the afternoon/evening at East Coast Park and go cycling! so the whole jin-gang, my family, and gramps and grandma, all left for ECP. Grandpa, Dad, Mat, Heng Hwee and I went cycling at east coast park, going to all the jetties (and me thinking about wednesday) and just having fun exploring ECP. Mom and her mom went library, to join us later for Dinner near Tanah Merah ( is that Simpang Bedok? very chaotic >.<)

Saturday, 22nd Nov:
the second day of holiday-ing in Singapore, woke up to a lazy Saturday morning, a slow breakfast and then off to watch Madagascar 2. Actually i was more like a chaperone to Mat, HH and her friend, but the movie wasn't too bad, funny, and will.i.am's travelling song is a really nice track in that movie

Sunday, 23rd Nov:
enlistment draws near and this sad fact is starting to set in, hence we went to John Little's to get a few amenities for army and gking-gking ( i don't know how to type it, its dialect for mom's brother's wife) bought a BIG Elmo for Chewy, since he lost his previous one. after going back home, i finally touched the Wii for the first time in ages! and Rayman Raving Rabbids is an AWESOME game, but really tiring to play >.<

Monday, 24th Nov:
Raghav finally came over, but i think i was not as good a host as i should have been, sorry mate >.<, but you know why... haha. and i got an early Christmas present!!!! JACE VS. CHANDRA DUEL DECKS! WOOO! WOOOOO! only people who know my love for Magic will get why i'm going gaga over this, and really the decks are awesome to play, i can go round after round against my brother, its that awesome. Made a deliver. Somewhere Out There.

Tuesday, 25th Nov:
although his birthday was all the way back in Nov 5th, we finally get to celebrate the guy (who i think) puts the "brother" in "1e'brothers" "brothers united" and all the "brother-hoods" i've had in TJ. Glad to know you Marcus :) hope you had a good party :) (oh and thanks germaine for sending me home! haha) the party was wicked fun, both barbequeing (mmmm...banana marshmallow straweberry chocolate boat dessert.... *the Homer drool* Achhlaachlaachaaa...) and the game Gavin brought, Bloodthirst i think, wicked fun, bring on Sat!!!!

Finally today,
Wednesday, 26th Nov:
after thinking about doing something for SO LONG we finally settled for having lunch at Cafe Cartel, and then when our plans for Settlers Cafe became ruined by urban redevelopment, we played Risk at my place! haha marc was hilarious, but a gentlemen (though loud and whiny, but gentlemen nonetheleast), and the alliances were CRAZY, i'm glad you guys came over, even though its so far >.< haha (shoutout - Hui Min, Marc, Kenneth, Zhong Ting, Karyn and lunchbuddy Kerry!)

like i said, the past week + has been lived up to the max, and there's more to come! so excited! haha

For Good

Yes this blog is still here.

Hi everyone, tomorrow shall be the last day of school, and farewell concert. and saying goodbye to everyone, and starting the pure mugging stage, and... so many other things beginning and ending.

almost don't want to think about it. part of it has settled in, yet part me seems like i'm in denial, that i'll just happily see everyone again next week. i don't think it ends here though. i want to see these people again, and i will make sure i do, be it a charity event where we can go do stuff together, or a gathering, or something. anything.

i'm not one for putting everything down to my blog, but if i did there is so much to list. putting down a few to think about when i look back on this post

1) Orientation 05 Iniziatone
2) orientation 06 Voyage
3) TASC (hehehe! always makes me giggle)
4) Floorball
5) Mardi Gras
6) Temasek Idol
7) national day, staff day
8) oneeey'ohfive
9) Brothers (penguin, chicken rice, the A class)
10) Temasek Academy :)

i love everyone in TA, because everyone has contributed to my growth, no matter how large or small.

sounds so terminal, and i don't want it to be so. but the truth is i won't see some of these people again, but to all i want to send them this song "For Good" - "Wicked" Musical

The Magician

You are The Magician

Skill, wisdom, adaptation. Craft, cunning, depending on dignity.

Eleoquent and charismatic both verbally and in writing,
you are clever, witty, inventive and persuasive.

The Magician is the male power of creation, creation by willpower and desire. In that ancient sense, it is the ability to make things so just by speaking them aloud. Reflecting this is the fact that the Magician is represented by Mercury. He represents the gift of tongues, a smooth talker, a salesman. Also clever with the slight of hand and a medicine man - either a real doctor or someone trying to sell you snake oil.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

never thought of me this way... its quite fascinating really, and i am at the point in my education where i need to decide what i intend to create of myself. but first, off to start my weekend's work.

i've got ubuntu on my com now, all my windows stuff are gone (accidentally reformatted it >.<)