holidays have started! and now is the time to be bored at home! Honestly, there isn't much to do. but then again there hasnt been that many days. very soon i will have to go back to school, which i am actually looking forward to (tuesday, collect grades) and then find some other way to use my time.
my holiday projects are those that need to either be in school or at least out. Maybe i need to lug myself out of the house more. I'm sure it will be good for me. Anyway, i don't have much to blog. a rare short post unlike my usual long ramblings. Long ramblings usually come when i have much on my mind, usually negative... Well that's good right? that means i am actually a very happy person! happy posts are boring. boring to type and boring to read. (happy posts are a bit pointless)
Haha, i find blogging quite impersonal anyway, you want to find out how i've been? give me a call! and then we can chat on the phone instead :)
That's all folks! see you all around!
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Sunday, October 15, 2006
a Grin from ear to ear
i had actually hoped for this entry to be on friday or at latest saturday, cuz it just goes to show how quickly my opinon can change. My previous post seemed to make me sound a little hollow, a little empty, just not in place, yet in the short span of 2 days i felt like it just turned around and i felt no reason to be empty at all...
Thursday was great, the highlight of the day being Ms Daisy Irani. She was everything i expected an more. "She made it seem so possible" to quote a certain someone. And true enough, she was such a real person. I stood out. It can't be helped, 1) i was the only guy there, 2) i'm not exactly a doormouse when it comes to volume and 3) not when it comes to size either. Even so, i manajed to get a compliment out of her, and she was even nice enough to share with the "class" the number to her casting manager. who knows i may just take her up on her offer :)
then i occupied myself the rest of teh day preparing for open house, getting some council stuff settled, but no great shakes.
Then Friday came, i think that was the climax of the weak. the most exhausting, but the most fun day i had in quite a while. Kicking off the day with inter-CG games. It was like a walk down memory lane... all the games i used to play as a kid, Pepsi-Cola (or as the old timers call it Green Spot), Blind Mice, hopskotch, just to name a few. But moreso, it was not just the games, but the people playing. all 6 guys participted one way or another. Bob completely dominated the board games, while the rest of the guys played in the outdoor games. Joining us were of course our ever lovely ladies, Bernice, Grace and Magdalene. So with such a crew, how could i not have fun! To top it off, it was great that our class won, it kinda gave me a good start to the day!
Then off i went to prepare for the emceeing for Open House. Possibly one of the most tiring emceeing i have ever done (4 full hours!!!) but possibly most rewarding. I can't say much, cuz i don't know how to say it, but it was great fun emceeing with wendy, partially because we were sesame street characters, partially because we are good friends. funny eh, the start of last year we oculd not stand each other, and now at the end of 2 years, i can count on her to emcee with me (even if it was also for her to skip her tennis meeting >.<)
Somehow, when i put it in words, it doesn't sound all so great, but like how an accumulation of little things pile up to a great mountain, the little bubbles of happiness just built up, and i felt good.
Im no longer feeling the hollowness of things, because i have filled them up with holiday projects and people in my life. I can only Grin from ear to ear, and go on with what i have set out to do. =D
Thursday was great, the highlight of the day being Ms Daisy Irani. She was everything i expected an more. "She made it seem so possible" to quote a certain someone. And true enough, she was such a real person. I stood out. It can't be helped, 1) i was the only guy there, 2) i'm not exactly a doormouse when it comes to volume and 3) not when it comes to size either. Even so, i manajed to get a compliment out of her, and she was even nice enough to share with the "class" the number to her casting manager. who knows i may just take her up on her offer :)
then i occupied myself the rest of teh day preparing for open house, getting some council stuff settled, but no great shakes.
Then Friday came, i think that was the climax of the weak. the most exhausting, but the most fun day i had in quite a while. Kicking off the day with inter-CG games. It was like a walk down memory lane... all the games i used to play as a kid, Pepsi-Cola (or as the old timers call it Green Spot), Blind Mice, hopskotch, just to name a few. But moreso, it was not just the games, but the people playing. all 6 guys participted one way or another. Bob completely dominated the board games, while the rest of the guys played in the outdoor games. Joining us were of course our ever lovely ladies, Bernice, Grace and Magdalene. So with such a crew, how could i not have fun! To top it off, it was great that our class won, it kinda gave me a good start to the day!
Then off i went to prepare for the emceeing for Open House. Possibly one of the most tiring emceeing i have ever done (4 full hours!!!) but possibly most rewarding. I can't say much, cuz i don't know how to say it, but it was great fun emceeing with wendy, partially because we were sesame street characters, partially because we are good friends. funny eh, the start of last year we oculd not stand each other, and now at the end of 2 years, i can count on her to emcee with me (even if it was also for her to skip her tennis meeting >.<)
Somehow, when i put it in words, it doesn't sound all so great, but like how an accumulation of little things pile up to a great mountain, the little bubbles of happiness just built up, and i felt good.
Im no longer feeling the hollowness of things, because i have filled them up with holiday projects and people in my life. I can only Grin from ear to ear, and go on with what i have set out to do. =D
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Now What?
Exams officially ended for me today... maybe because it was my miserable attitude towards history, or maybe because i'm just tuckered out from the exam period, but i just don't feel all "woohoo"-ish today. In fact, i felt kinda empty, like "now what?". I don't really have a very full schedule planned out ahead, even though i know i still have certain projects to do, SC and school alike. there's the italy trip, then Ex-ros chalet, maybe certain other things, but maybe because it is still some time away. Meanwhile... boredom sets in.
You know how sometimes there is this hype over what i am going to do after the exams. Well funnily enough, no one asked me what i was going to do. or if they did i gave them some half-baked answer. why? because i have no clue whatsoever what i am going to do. I even bet it is going to be like one of those holidays where i am going to spend a whole day wasting my life on youtube or watching TV till my brain rots.
I do want to find something to occupy myself with. But i really only go deep into something when i have a passion for it. maybe that is what really keeps me going. BlackLights was one that i put in a lot of hard work and effort into, mainly because i wanted it to be so much. LA project night was another. Therefore, i am currently looking for my "holiday project" and may have one up on my hands soon, so i will keep you updated in my ongoings for this "holiday project".
still between now end then, i don't really want to spend days wasting life away. Today was the first day of "holiday" in the after-exam sense, but apart from playing floorball before going home, i pretty much went home and watched TV until now.
I realise the importance of having some sort of direction in your life. We all have to work towards something right? even so, i wish i knew what that something was. Just need something to center myself around. As i type this i think of 2 people, the first has dreams of taking the hols to do some written work, hone style, the other is nick, who is organising the event at Attica for the Grad Night after party. He is supposedly a few weeks to his A levels, yet he needs to be do that event, because that is simply him. Is event organising my cup off tea? well only time will tell i guess.
I wonder if this feeling is that emptiness everyone keeps going on about. like there is some missing piece that was either never there, or lost. still im not gonna be all moody in trying to find it, life continues, eh?
tomorrow marks the day for post exam activities. a few talks in the morning and following which is the post exam activity, where i have joined some acting class of some sort. most interesting would be the facilitator of this activity, Daisy Irani. Haha, if given the opportunity i would like to pick her brain on the quality of television in singapore. Interesting...
speaking of which, i have this sudden interest in Chua Enlai. surprisingly, after watching heartland getaways, i went online to do some research on him. Its almost like he is what i want to be. Stage actor, TV celebrity, and he does a number of hosting jobs and emceeing. its his voice and his presence. there is just some quality that makes him very compelling to watch. Not over the top like certain characters, but with just enough boyishness in him to find energetic and lively.
This friday i (and wendy) will be emceeing for the performances under LT1 for the TJC open house. I keep telling myself that i want to emcee and i want to have confidence on stage. but unless it is some immensely rehearsed script, i seem to always get the jitters up on stage. I admire the stage presence, the confidence and the wit that some people have on stage. i can only but hope to reach that level. Its a common misconception that i am a good emcee/stage personality. the moment i go up on stage and you ask me to stick to the content and rally the crowd, i would stand there asking for a change of pants... oops, i just wet them... there's just the pressure that i have yet to be able to shake off. I can be perfectly full of myself in front of you, but the moment i am pressurised, or if there is an expectation of me, i really think i crumble under pressure.
maybe this acting class will help. ask how other people do it. some people have the natural talent, others require some time to hone it. But even so, i will take every opportunity i get to host. Hmmm this might be some direction afterall...
Okay so my schedule is not as empty as i had expected. quite a number of things for me to do actually. My focus just has to be kept. Instead of focusing on the things i should be doing, it keeps veering off to the forbidden thoughts of things i cannot control.
Que serah serah.
momma always sang that song for me,
and its become part of my vocabulary
You know how sometimes there is this hype over what i am going to do after the exams. Well funnily enough, no one asked me what i was going to do. or if they did i gave them some half-baked answer. why? because i have no clue whatsoever what i am going to do. I even bet it is going to be like one of those holidays where i am going to spend a whole day wasting my life on youtube or watching TV till my brain rots.
I do want to find something to occupy myself with. But i really only go deep into something when i have a passion for it. maybe that is what really keeps me going. BlackLights was one that i put in a lot of hard work and effort into, mainly because i wanted it to be so much. LA project night was another. Therefore, i am currently looking for my "holiday project" and may have one up on my hands soon, so i will keep you updated in my ongoings for this "holiday project".
still between now end then, i don't really want to spend days wasting life away. Today was the first day of "holiday" in the after-exam sense, but apart from playing floorball before going home, i pretty much went home and watched TV until now.
I realise the importance of having some sort of direction in your life. We all have to work towards something right? even so, i wish i knew what that something was. Just need something to center myself around. As i type this i think of 2 people, the first has dreams of taking the hols to do some written work, hone style, the other is nick, who is organising the event at Attica for the Grad Night after party. He is supposedly a few weeks to his A levels, yet he needs to be do that event, because that is simply him. Is event organising my cup off tea? well only time will tell i guess.
I wonder if this feeling is that emptiness everyone keeps going on about. like there is some missing piece that was either never there, or lost. still im not gonna be all moody in trying to find it, life continues, eh?
tomorrow marks the day for post exam activities. a few talks in the morning and following which is the post exam activity, where i have joined some acting class of some sort. most interesting would be the facilitator of this activity, Daisy Irani. Haha, if given the opportunity i would like to pick her brain on the quality of television in singapore. Interesting...
speaking of which, i have this sudden interest in Chua Enlai. surprisingly, after watching heartland getaways, i went online to do some research on him. Its almost like he is what i want to be. Stage actor, TV celebrity, and he does a number of hosting jobs and emceeing. its his voice and his presence. there is just some quality that makes him very compelling to watch. Not over the top like certain characters, but with just enough boyishness in him to find energetic and lively.
This friday i (and wendy) will be emceeing for the performances under LT1 for the TJC open house. I keep telling myself that i want to emcee and i want to have confidence on stage. but unless it is some immensely rehearsed script, i seem to always get the jitters up on stage. I admire the stage presence, the confidence and the wit that some people have on stage. i can only but hope to reach that level. Its a common misconception that i am a good emcee/stage personality. the moment i go up on stage and you ask me to stick to the content and rally the crowd, i would stand there asking for a change of pants... oops, i just wet them... there's just the pressure that i have yet to be able to shake off. I can be perfectly full of myself in front of you, but the moment i am pressurised, or if there is an expectation of me, i really think i crumble under pressure.
maybe this acting class will help. ask how other people do it. some people have the natural talent, others require some time to hone it. But even so, i will take every opportunity i get to host. Hmmm this might be some direction afterall...
Okay so my schedule is not as empty as i had expected. quite a number of things for me to do actually. My focus just has to be kept. Instead of focusing on the things i should be doing, it keeps veering off to the forbidden thoughts of things i cannot control.
Que serah serah.
momma always sang that song for me,
and its become part of my vocabulary
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