Time will tell

Today, i start my blog with this quote.

If it is right, then nothing will stand in its way, if it is not, time will tell the problems

quite an odd little quote i pciked up. perhaps this year, i want to learn to be patient. to learn that things will go right if they are meant to be, and that there is never a rush for anything.

I think i really am feeling the age. after 2 years of JC life, i think i may have slowly burned myself out. but i would also think that the upcoming year is the one that can really make a difference, and more than anything, i want to push for something.

What do i foresee for the new year? i foresee myself doing bigger things, going out. DARING. i think its interesting to live with a year by year theme. my first year at TJ resonates CRAZY. i just let loose and make as many friends as possible, do everything i can, have as much fun as will allow. the second year became CONSOLIDATE, and i slowed down a little, focused a little more, and rekindled old passions, like drama, leading. i want my third year to be a little more mellow, a little more dedicated. i want to learn to FOCUS.

I'm sure i am on my way. the only question is, "on my way" to what? maybe time will tell. "oh you're 16 you're still young, got your whole life to decide" well, not in singapore. Shape up or ship out, as they say, and i cannot remain clueless forever.

I won't say that i have drifted these past 2 years, in fact quite the contrary, if anything i have tried to push for everything i can. Maybe i am trying to find my limit, then from there i can learn to ration my energy.

My new year resolution is to organise. organise myself to be most effective. Rationing energy to be able to be up to any task in a realistic way. organising my schedule to not clash things. and organise my priorities, to know what i want and how to get there. Yet, i want to dream big, and shoot for the stars. perhaps it is the ego driven side of me, but i do want to be more than i am now. to not let myself fall into stereotypes, or leave things to chance.

i've been lucky enough not to weild the double edged sword. but with that, i have compromised having a stronger weapon. there is no need to fear the double edged sword, if you weild it well. both hands on the hilt, and in absolute control. that's the position i want to be in.

What if this five minutes were your last? what would you do?
Me: i'd sit, smile and realise that i haven't wasted a single second of my life. 5 mins to think of family, friends, and furry animal creatures :)

Time, it tells, but will you listen?