doing something while not doing anything

i really ought to count my blessings. even when i'm not doing anything in particular, it is doing something in itself.

i had a decent weekend. would have felt that i wasted alot of time this weekend, didn't have the usual barrage of things to do like most weekends (or maybe it just feels that way because there was no rehearsal for R&Gad today...) but i don't feel like this weekend was that wasted. was a good balance, not as hectic as most weekends, but not too slack, such that it becomes time wasting.

Saturday was kinda busy. There was a photoshoot for R&Gad, so had to be in RJ by 9 (was late >.<) and did all the make up and the costuming, took quite a nice photo, though i felt the drawn on facial hair was a little creepy for my taste >.< wrapped it up all nice and good, ready to go for Guitar Concert in the afternoon!

Aside: got into a little bit of trouble with Dad regarding the Play, he's worried that if i take leave to do the play, i'll be burning my yearly leave, which means it would be difficult to have a family trip at the end of the year. part of me think that there's still enough leave to do a 'not-so-far trip' like indon or m'sia, but the other part of me agrees with Dad. i can't say that i'm super into our production at the moment, it isn't really coming together, i don't know about the hamleteers but the tradgedians aren't progressing very well... so many changes, an we are but 1+ months away from the production... part of me really wants to back out, but out of guilt, i'll push on for the moment... maybe i should talk to Isaac (on of the directors)... but feel quite bad about it....

Anyhoo, joined kenny, marcus and ragurf for lunch opposite. nostalgia! should have bought biscuits so we won't fall asleep in class! haha. but yeah, talking cock, sharing stories, Varun joined us later in school. Our Hypothesis: Leopard coy people are retarded. Proof:

Mohawk: leopard would 'cluck' the word mohawk, like a 'mohak,mohak,mohak' sounding thing
Ninja: emphasis on the JA. so like.. ninJA! ninJA!
Leopard: emphasis on the 'lea' so like LEHpord! LEHpord!

imagine varun voicing all of this
Conclusion: Leopard is retarded. reTARded. reTARded!
(heh heh, sorry to any Leopard coy that see this, except Varun)

The guitar concert wasn't too bad. no more Magic maybe... the emcee was reTARded. couldn't speak properly... hmm. the music wasn't too bad, and for the guys hearing Kevin and Marcus Loh for the first time, i think they were pretty much enchanted by him. and if we were audience members hearing ourselves behave, i'd think that we were some assholes. that's cuz every portion of the performance we kept shouting 'GO EUGENE!' whether he was there or not :D ended with Dessert opposite, and went home to get some good rest!

Lazy Sunday morning, just the way i like it! weekends are prolly the only time i get to sleep properly.

rehearsal was cancelled, so followed MumDad to the Bookfair at suntec, got a new rubik's thingamajig! i think its called skewb? oops, just checked, its called a Square1, very fun, haven't figured it out yet... but i will!

then went to the club... where i just got time to play with the Square1 and just take a nap. a nice long rest before dinner with Gene, Kerry and Chuin.

this is where i say that i'm glad that even when i'm not doing anything its good. i just got time to rest and recuperate, something i know i wouldn't have done at home. partially because i wouldn't have switched the aircon on, but the other thing is that the com would distract me. so instead, i stayed outside, got some rest, and went to meet up with friends for Dinner.

I've got the admit, our council wasn't the best of organising teams, but as friends, these people are awesome. i love having all sorts of discussions with these people, cuz there's so many varying opinions. dinner was super filling, afterall it was a steamboat, barbeque thing. ate till i'm gonna explode, and have to do my no carb diet again. but well worth the company :)

hello kerry! i know you are reading this. maybe a more introspective post will come soon :) hello eugene, didn't know you read my blog too XD

okay, goodnight! how do i sleep with such a full stomach >.<

PAD week 1 -close-

and so concludes my first week at PAD. all i can say is.... i'm tired. its not fun there, well, not completely true, i guess i talk a lot more to the guys there, and bond with my batch of ATTs well, but just task-wise? its kinda sucks hairy balls.

had an early day today, but i think i didn't make use of it. oh well, sometimes its good to take it a little slower, and catch up on some rest. so that is exactly what i shall do after this post. i shall catch my well deserved 40 winks, and wake to the barrage of activities tomorrow.

i can feel us drifting, which is kinda sad. but oh well, at least i meet up with some of the guys tomorrow! and catch up on life. holding on tight! but must admit there's a quaint comfort in the new bunch of guys i've met. even though i'm a fervent believer of the chinese saying "jiu4 de bu4 qu4, xin1 de bu4 lai2" or "out with the old, and in with the new" i believe somethings cannot be let go off, like family, and in many ways, the TJ people have become part of my family :) so yeah, gotta keep the ties that bind strong :)

Live Long and Prosper

The past 2 days i have spent at PAD have been... terrible. all that education and the work we do has nothing to show for it. we are just extra hands part of the team of SKW at PAD. spent all the time, either sitting in uncomfortable positions waiting for things to happen, or doing some menial task that shows the lack of thought by our superiors. Sigh... what a sad place to be. and we even constantly fall out late due to the "speed" of the crew over there... i can't imagine doing this for 2 years.

But i have made sure i compensated by having utterly fulfilling evenings! the first was Dinner yesterday night at Bedok 85, sure the trip down was troublesome as heck, but it was well worth the hearty meal of Bak Chor Mee, Oyster Omellette, Sting ray and Ah Balling (Tang Yuan). laughing and going crazy with the SOA guys, these people are good stuffs, and we definitely had a 'Good Stuff'. haha.

Then today, the main thing driving me toward the end of the day was the thought of FINALLY going to catch Star Trek with Mom, Uncle and Aunt! yes, yes we caught a really late movie, all the way at 9.30. it ended only just, about 12pm? But very VERY good movie. not for everyone, and i think the Trekkies enjoy it just a little more than those unfamiliar, because the way some of these characters have been reborn were fresh and exciting, but with just enough flavour for the old, without it being silly or over-the-top.

Spock was good and all, Kirk was.... kirk, haha, Sulu is Harold, i'm sorry, but everyone just can't get over that >.< and Scottie was hilarious. I read a few articles about what some Trekkies think of the new movie, and i have to agree, i might be a born again trekkie! sure i didn't watch that much when i was little, i still remember flickers of The Next Gen, Voyager, never watched the original Enteprise i believe, but i loved Captain Picard, and had enjoyed parts of Janeway's Voyager, so maybe if i have the time i'll go back and check them out! To Venture again, where many men have gone before!

i realise i have kept tomorrow night free despite a possible ending early at camp! hopefully can arrange something with mom, and with dad's recent trend of ending before 9, maybe we can really make it a "family day" of sorts!

This reminds me of BMT >.< the week is crap, but i treasure the time out i have so much more :) i can't wait for the weekend!

Lesson Chapter: Insurance before Income

This is a funny title, but didn't know how to capture the idea properly. Last Day at SOA! at least for now, tmr, we'll be attached to PAD, which i suspect is prolly just going there to while away our time before we get our actual postings... sigh, can't help but feel it'll be a waste of time.. oh well, will try to make the best of it. at least its still stay out! haha.

Some of the fellows went to have dinner, darn, wish i could have joined them, but not that much loss, because i went to the Pines to have dinner with Godma! Usually i'm quite afraid of meeting Aunty Elsie, because she's quite the strong-willed person, and can impose her ideas on me quite easily, but most of the time, its because she likes to remind me how fat i am, and that i need to do something about it, haha. But i think i'm growing up too, in the sense that she doesn't speak down to me so much any more, i'm able to hold my own, and show her that i can be my own person, and have my own opinions. hurm, its quite good to become a young adult.

I finally begin the understand some of the terminology and the considerations i should think about before going into insurance. i just took up a Life Insurance, but that is just general protection for my family, any other savings plans or insurance, i should wait until i've got an income before i look for a suitable plan. i kinda feel bad for not approaching Godma earlier, could have spared the confusion and the trouble, but i guess this is how i "live and learn" and as long as i don't fall into this trap again, this was a worthy lesson!

this week i'll be going out for dinner alot. tonight i did, tmr is with the SOA guys at Bedok 85, and i believe i might do something on Fri too. Hopefully can finally watch Star Trek with Mum, Uncle and Aunt this Thurs! woo~ can't wait!

oh and if all goes well, might be meeting Sam on Sunday too! haven't sat around and chat with her for so long! All the best for your remaining tests!

speaking of Tests, I still don't know if i can pass my IPPT. i don't have much time left. and i was only JUST able to do my FIRST PULL UP! but still seems like a long way to go before i can pass... and not to mention SBJ, haven't trained that at all... i'm not losing anymore weight, which is troublesome... am considering doing a special diet for a month with the same exercise, and see if i can do anything about the weight. Must... get.... started... argh.

the hot hot heat just got a little bearable with some rain today, still quite hot though, hopefully it dissapates soon. i can't wait till everyone feels bright and active again :D

I'm thinking, that since its so hard to do my own exercise on weekends, maybe i should make arrangements with Varun to go play games and such on weekends, so that it doesn't feel like exercise! though i think it'll get harder to do that now that rehearsals for R&Gad are stepping up, poof! there goes my saturday mornings... no more grandpa breakfast on Sat morn... :'(

okay, that's it for me now! will report back my first day at PAD tmr!

LONG HOT DAYS

the weekend was LONG, HOT, but in some ways fulfilling, and thought-filled. today was just a LONG HOT DAY. Running in the morning was SUPPOSED to perk me up, but it didn't, and i just felt more tired and sleepy the entire day. STUPID AMMO PROJECT has gotten me totally blase, and i just don't care about it anymore. if not for the obligation to Yong Chyun who i feel has worked teh hardest on this project, i wouldn't have bothered as much. right now i just want to get it out of the way. no one really cares about it anyway, its a stupid project, it doesn't really mean anything to us.

  Sunday was spent, morning at Ah Gong's Cremation (ah gong is

 not my Grandpa, he's Heng Hwee/Woon and Chewy's Grandpa) its been rough on Aunt, she's had a lot to deal with this weekend. Then home to get some project done, before heading out to RJ for Sunday rehearsal for R&Gad. things are becoming a little routine, but routine is good too, it means i'm constantly active.

  I want to find someone to talk to. like just unload a little of my day to day worries. haven't been speaking ot mum and dad that much... even though i am typing this in MomDad's room. haven't been at home that much.

  Today MY Wang and Milks were supposed to come and cook. was hyped up about it last week, but today felt so dead, that had no mood to do anythign of the sort. oh and i wasted money at subway. I thought the promotion for the $5.90 meal was still on... apparently not. oh well, live and learn mom would (and did) say. I had a sudden craving for Veggie Patty, i haven't tried it before, but i have heard rave reviews from Raghav, so wanted to try it while it was still at a reasonable price. I must say that it really tastes DAMN GOOD, but a pity its so expensive...

Still a full week to go. meeting godma for dinner tmr, the pines... dinner is fine lah.
why is it so hot >.<>

The name Machu Pichu is funny!

Just got home from a full day out! okay not totally true, i came back in the afternoon to sleep. but was out in the morning and night!

I haven't touched a Basketball in TOO LONG. haha, yeah can still shoot a little, but not under pressure, cannot calm myself to shoot properly in a game. How do i know this? today i went down to Singapore Poly to play some BBall with the SOA guys. Joel, Seah, Chris and Zhi Kai, all 5 of us played a little while on our own, but most of the time it was playing with other people in the court at SP.

Basketball is Helluva fun, though i wish i were better and had more ball sense >.<>.< didn't really work, but oh well... wouldn't have been the first time.

woke up with enough time to get this done:


needless to say, you can prolly guess who this is for, haha. all the years that i've been going for Band concert, i've always have had the same theme for my presents, maybe at first it started as some silly teasing thing, but now i'm glad to have my Piggy :)

i went for band concert with Zenia and some of the TA4/06 people (yes yes, its kinda weird...) Basically Zenia's batch of friends, had dinner at thai express, and talked and laughed, maybe because i already know them, but it seemed a lot less awkward that i had imagined in my head, haha. it was nice just hanging out with Zenia tho, i realise that i didn't really do that much with her when i was still in TJ, i'm glad that i can make up for it now!

also, i got to see Piggy in action :D for the 4th year running? haha, i dont know why i keep having the impression that i've only attended 3 concerts >.< maybe because i count by presents... let's see... piglow... pig mask... mud pig... did i give piglet cup at a concert? i can't rmb... still i felt the love today. i really am glad i've been a part of piggy's life all these years. from the very first day at Movie Mania (HAHA) till today :D

shall put up our picture when she uploads it!

also, i learnt 1 thing today (or rather, i thought about and had a mini-epiphany) its that, with XM, i want to go and find common things to do with her. its a little tough to always talk about r/s and the lot, so we should create our own happy experiences! i know she wants to get out of the house and do things! so maybe i could be an activity buddy too! but cannot distract her from A levels of course!

to the 2 great gals i've spent time with today, stay happy :) Love you :)

A Wake

Whew! tired boy >.< had 3 km run today, had an alright SOA day, and then night was Choir Concert at VCH!

I think the runs are helping, but i still don't see the pounds melting away >.<>.< maybe its muscle that are degenerating!!! horror.

Choir Concert wasn't too bad. Lacking a little in energy, but maybe that's from a Drama standpoint... can't be helped >.< but if not, the music was good, and saw SAM! and got to know her Chris a little, nice guy, a bit funny, in more ways than one, haha.

on the way home, we stopped by GkingGking's Dad's wake (Mom's Brother's Father-in-Law) He passed away this morning, but had been sick for a while, so Aunt had the time to deal with it while he was still around, which is good i guess, helps with the letting go. Funerals are never easy, but it does make me think about many many many things. my death, parents, grandparents. about mortality, about where we go after, about how the kids react to it, to the whole concept of Family, and Tradition. haha, lots and lots of things.

to Uncle/other gonggong, Rest in Peace. you're family and relatives will miss you :)

Angels and Demons

oop >.< got into trouble with mom... i have this bad habit of just going out without really informing my parents... like the house is some hotel.. haha where have i heard those words before?

anyway, went with KJ and Rag to watch Angels and Demons! and man, is it a damn good looking show! well maybe Dan Brown wrote it expecting it to be made to film, but he did so quite intelligently. I miss Italy much, especially after seeing all the sights on screen. Italy is just so filled with culture and history, and stories, i kinda wish i could go back and explore on my own once more!

maybe i'll tell you more about my Trip to Italy another time (unless its in my archives... will check after this) but it was damn good memorable one! :)

i better behave myself, if not i may not be allowed to go for Star Trek tomorrow! D: or worse, the rest of the events/performances this week! D: D:

Squirelly Wrath

home early on a Tuesday! damn these weeks have been good! not to mention that yesterday was my last test! so no more stupid SOA tests for me! (unless i happen to fail my last one... but shall cross that bridge should i come to it)

Yesterday was doubly wonderful for a second reason! Yesterday was a Drama Reunion with the 0405 and 0506 batch of Drama! that means, Louisa, Terence, Gwen, Endi and not forgetting JINFU! joined Amanda, Cheryl and I at Shokudo's for Dinner!

I must say, that it really is hard to come across such a wonderful batch of people. even Louisa said that she hasn't really been in contact with her senior batch, needless to say, our 0506 doesn't really have much to do with the 0607 batch either. But there was such chemistry, in the care shown and the warmness of the year of 2005, i'm glad i was part of it all :)

At first was a little wary, because i haven't seen them for so long! was so worried there was nothing to talk about, but the ice was quickly broken, thanks to the antics of THIS character:


Yes! its the Amazing JINFU! with his hilarious A4 size squirrels and his "this is the second verse" singing, he brought bawls of laughter to the whole table, and some awkwardness to the photo taking, but all in good lighthearted fun! he's changed alot yet not very much since the JC days, i guess that's how we'll all be, much change, but very much the same :)

He very much reminds me of Joey from Friends! he's this aspiring actor who is willing to do all sorts of funny crazy things to get into it, and is completely animated about his job. AND at the same time he is so blur! and clueless about certain things ( i think he still doesn't get what is so funny about his pictures XD) But a heart of gold lies there, let's catch up more often Jinfu! preferably before you go off to China!

So the night was spent laughing away, talking about all sorts of things, reminiscing with Endi, giving and taking funny looks from aManda, and finding out where everyone has been. definitely not enough for us, and with so many people missing, we must have another one soon! i hear the holidays for Uni are coming up, maybe we can arrange for something then!

So to the batch of TJC Drama Club 2005, thank you for then, for now, and hopefully we'll keep seeing each other in the future! :D
(p.s. i love how Louisa has edited the Photos! for more of the photos, check out Louisa's Album here and Cheryl's Album here.)

Mommy's Boy

Mom's home! okay fine, she was back on friday, but we only spent quality time together this morning when we went out for indian breakfast!

Mom came back from portugal, and got me this nice Anchor thing from a ship outfitters shop, very nice little dangly, but i don't really know what to do with it >.< maybe make it into a pendan-ish thing to wear around? would remind me to keep myself anchored no matter what i do, hur :)

so rehearsal as usual on a sunday afternoon. i can't believe how warm it was! when its warm, people go crazy, my jokes become unfunny (they're funny!... sometimes...) and everyone just feels so lethargic and unenthused. so today, it happened, but no great feeling from it, oh well.

But MAN do i have a full week coming up! Woo~!

Moday: Drama Gathering
Tuesday: Watching Angels and Demons with KJ and Co.
Wed: Watching Star Trek with MY MOM! :D really! and with GkuGku and GingGing too!
Thurs: nothing... for now, heh
Fri: Reflections!

and the usual Weekend committments. next weekend evenings will be filled with watching performances and supporting performers! i've got some special plans lined up again :D

can't wait :D sorry poor ol' wallet, looks like we have to work out something in the finance sector >.<

The Old and The New Skool

I think i made mom and dad feel kinda bad today, thinking about it, it was as good as declaring that they embarass me. but really they don't! i'm proud to have such supportive parents :D

If you're wondering what all this is about, its cuz today was College Day! finally a year where i don't have to stand in a blazer and usher guests into the Audi, finally, its the other way round! woo~ haha.

MomDad went to collect a certificate of appreciation for being outstanding contributors to the Parents Support Group (PSG) i listened as i sat at the audi, and realised that much more people know my parents that i had expected. Concerned parents that share with MomDad at PSG meetings, teachers that have had the opportunity of working with MomDad, or at least buying her homemade salsa! haha, and of course the students that have seen MomDad at events like Chinese New Year Carnival, and Mardi Gras! so yes, MomDad does deserve the token of appreciation, they really have been appreciated :D

It was good to just be back in school again, and this time with more people from my batch. i hope to come back with them more often, they made the place what it is to me, and it would only make sense to come visit the place together. anyway, also got to see more teachers today (obviously! College Day!) and meet the little juniors running around doing the SKW - jobs we once did.

And it was nice to be treated like royalty (in the school sense) though maybe i felt i was a little undeserving, the rest of them sure earned their keeps, and i want to congratulate them all! Esp Gladia - WOW, so many awards to collect that she didn't even have time to sit down between awards >.<

Felt kinda bad that we had to leave, would have been best if i could stay, and get to know the juniors and talk with the rest of them, but i had an NTU Tea Party to attend!

Its quite weird going this year, when it seems like almost everyone else is enrolling this year and almost definitely will become my seniors, but at least i was lucky enough to meet some guys who had an early application too! so will at least know SOME people in the 2011 batch!

I think i met Hu Li Lin! haha, Primary School classmate, i think only Lincoln knows the significance of this! wahahah. still, it was good finding out about all the things offered at NTU soci, it's made me quite pumped towards accepting the place, with so many interesting opportunities, i don't think i'll have much problem getting into it, but the hardworking part still needs to be cultivated of course!

The old and the new, how coincidental that both fell on the same day! not to mention people-wise too!

A warm portabello, hearty and filling

What a wonderful day i've had! did almost everything i wanted to do today, just excellent :)

This morning reported to Pasir Labah, for some demonstration thing, it wasn't too bad, just sat around, watched the demonstrations (things blew up!) and talked with people, AND IT ALL ENDED BY LUNCH! how cool was that! so the morning of fun ammo stuff, and the rest of the day to myself! Woo~

So i decided i would head on down to school and surprise those dear and close to me :) the juniors :) and head down i did! sure, took me a little time for me to pull myself down to school, but it was well worth it!

the security uncle was a little 'sian' with me, but nothing could spoil the day. i first caught up with Mr Lim, always a goo person to start a convo with, then headed down to my old haunt of the SC room, and dumped my bag (haha, nothing's changed!) from that point, it was just a matter of walking around school looking for people i know, and just checking up on them.

Got to see a whole bunch of my favourite people, not to mention Nadia, Zenia and Ximin! haha, spoke the most to Zenia, adorable girl :) wish i had more chance to catch up with Nad and XM, but work/responsibility calls, i'm sure we'll have more time soon! will book ya'll early, haha.

Met Raghav later in the day, roaming around school with him for a bit, before going off opposite (its been so long!) to play some Magic! yessiree, good stuff, very happy with my new decks XD Dragon StickBeat, Zombie Milling, and Jund Devour, beautiful! not to mention the deck i built with/for Matt, the exalted soldier deck! it works perfectly, hitting each turn for about 3-4 damage, and later on big guys come in at 6 or 7+++. excellent stuff! or rather exalted-lent stuff!

Saw ZT for a while, didn't catch up much, but talked with Mr Fun! haha, haven't seen the likes of him for quite a while, he's got that very friendly aura, makes him want to tell you things. so brought him up to speed with our lives, and just talked generally about stuff.

Speaking of Teachers! got to see Ms. Nor again! woo~ haha, caught her while she was going back, and no matter what is said about her, somehow when i speak to her, it just feels good, not so pretentious with people she's familiar with i guess. haha. i've always liked how Ms. Nor explains things to me, i get it, sarcasm and all, but afraid that the juniors don't get exposed to this side as much. but she's still an awesome teacher and SCTA, boy am i glad that i'm not working with her! but its awesome to talk to her outside of business (council-work that is)

And me, being me, feel so comfortable in TJ, i can do almost anything without shame. Just randomly spoke to this girl, Yuxin, who happens to be in SC, HC and band! Delta House Cap, and band, and XM's junior to boot! haha, so made a new friend, and another link to check out what's happening in SC!

Should visit school more often, its mighty fun. But as the people change and the familiarities erode away, i'll have less to come back for, the people change, my batch mates move on, its hard to retain the ties that once bonded us.

was just sharing with Mr Fun, that within the next 3-4 months, people are going to go all over the place. some will be starting thier new school life at Uni, locally, and some will be flying all over the place attending Universities all over the world. What will hold us together then?

For now, its time to make the best of what time we've still got free, and catch up and forge experiences we'll carry with us for long. Although we may not have tomorrow, we'll always have the past to look at and hold in our hearts :)

I want to go back and visit more often, maybe a Yazid type character, fo while there are still familiar faces, maybe the occasional Magic Game with HsiLow, haha. But if there are any activities where it won't seem like i'm TOO extra, then invite me down. I need to find reasons to visit my second home :D

TJ, the Mushroom

I'm no superman

and it ends. sigh.... Scrubs, well done :)

What a difference a week made

I've passed my BTT evaluation! woo, easier than i thought, but mainly coz i did the practice just before, so the questions were pretty much burned into my head >.<

anyway, on the trip back, i was just bopping along, in a good mood, and i thought about what a difference it was compared to the last time i came home from Bukit Batok Driving Center (BBDC). today just seemed good, maybe cuz i passed the evaluation, but maybe its more, maybe between last wed and today, there has been a whole string of great happenings i should be grateful for :)

Maybe its the Scrubs fix i've been getting! just need to wait for them to upload the last episode! then i will watch the finale at one shot! and yes, scrubs has been awesome, almost at the same level with Friends now, so that's saying something!

plus, the awesome weekend, with Drama peeps and the Brothers on sat, rehearsal and dinner with godma on sun, and the SOA guys on monday, what's not to be grateful for :)

haha, can feel my wallet crying away, but yeah, gotta learn to manage my money better, its all worth it if it is to spend more time with the people i care about! speaking of which, mom is coming back on friday! so i better prepare some belated mother's day gift! Think child THINK!

tmr's gonna be an awesome day too! disposal in the morning, so that might mean a half day for us! woo! have a few ideas what i'm going to do after, but will see tmr, and update you then :) see ya'll on the flipside!

Hey Ya

I've been watching a lot of scrubs recently :)



just a short recap on my weekend. had a good sunday with dinner with Aunty Elsie, and i guess i'm maturing :)

monday was a good outing with the SOA guys, speed lunch at kuishinbo and then awesome fun at arcade. too awesome, these guys are great. :)

"Everything i do is more fun when you are doing it with me"

oh well... Te neneneneh! :]

The Gooch

I just watched Scrubs episode "My Lawyer's in Love" and i just LOVE the way Ted and the ukulele girl work out. they're the cutest thing ever.

haha, and SHE IS SO CUTE! SO CUTE!

you guys should totally check her songs out, they are a little dark, but she sings them in such an adorable way.

haha, i think i've got a new celeb crush XD joining the ranks of Janet Hsieh.

Damn, now i want a Gooch of My own!

Mr. Moon

One day
The moon got tired of being
Up in the sky
He wandered
Down through the starlight
And landed on the oceanside

And he smiled while
He jumped in the water
And laughed about
As he danced in the sand
He put on
His swim trunks and snorkel
And guess what
Mr. Moon swam

Did I tell you
That moonbeams are heavy?
And therefore
Mr. Moon sank
He fell down
Through the seawalls of seaweed
And landed
At the bottom of a tank

And he sat there
With the starfish and jellyfish
And laughed about
The sharks and the whales
They drank lots
Of Miller Lights and Heinekens
And laughed about
All of their tales

Oh, Mr. Moon
The stars are shining for you in the night sky
Please come home
Oh, Mr. Moon
The sun is shining for you until it goes away
And then it's dark
And then it's dark
And then it's dark

Snikt!

i like it when my days are packed, it let's me have all sorts of experiences to write about, and i feel like i'm making good use of my time :)

Saturday came! and i had a nice long-overdue outing with the 05 TJC Drama Batch, okay so not everyone came down, but most of the important ones did! Saw Amanda and Ais again, plus Leandra, Cheryl, and Raf! (huh, all the guys in my year are not around >.<) haha. had lunch at Siam Kitchen, good food! but some things a bit too spicy lah (like their spicy green mango salad... its nice but upon eating, would cough from over spiciness...)

Sitting around, chatting, making fun of each other as we always do, it was like being in a simpler time, no malice or bitching, just lots of fun :) haha immature fun (leandra!) but the kind of fun i really enjoy :D

then off to esplanade roof to play Bridge (Amanda's Obsession) and a little camwhoring. yes yes, i had to partake in it too, afterall i've got Team Spirit! lots of kooky shots and funny poses, check it out at Cheryl's Album. So we spent like an hour plus maybe even 2 hours playing bridge? haha, just like the ol TJ days eh? just that for me, most of the bridge playing was done in the council room, haha. or with isaac and kenneth! extreme bridge playing! Mwaha

Then at about 5+, i headed down to Plaza Sing, to join Rag, Varun, Bala and Fidot, to catch the Wolverine movie, can't say it was too bad, gambit was gay, wolverine was cool, but deadpool has got a lot of potential! i hear he's getting his own movie soon, wikipedia!

Hugh Jackman is a good actor, though i still prefer him in more grander and suave roles, like in The Prestiege, or in his Broadway shows, he's so cool and suave, not at all the Wolverine type, haha, but that's just me. and i don't like how Emma Frost's ability works >.<>.< it looks kinda gross.... haha

After the Movie, most of the guys left, Varun and I got Subway Dinners and went to sit in some park and catch up. wanted to hear about varun's field camp! but, alas, leapord disappoints, and he didn't have much to say. but sit test was slightly better, haha he and i are both rope guys, roping all the way!

most of the guys are in army now, all of our gang (except silly TOURIST raghav :D) and so we've still got lots to share with each other. this is good. haha, better not mess this up! Anw, should think about doing some trekking thing soon, am really getting a little pudgy around the sides.. garh... lol, i kinda sound like a girl huh? complaining about my weight? well, its time to find more activities and exercise when i can, any good motivators/personal trainer wannabes that want to help this poor soul! haha, wouldn't mind starting a group to exercise together! doing it alone kinda sucks...

well, another full day after lunch today! rehearsal and dinner with Godma, yes yes, gotta clear the poopy! but still, will be a good day of activites :)

Muddle Puddle Bubble

I've learnt a lot these past 2 days, because i made one Huge Assed mistake yesterday, and now i'm sorta cleaning up the shit for it. at the same time, i don't feel that bad, because i feel like i'm learning. i'm transitting into the world of adulthood, and slowly learning of my responsibilities, haha, maybe you can say i'm breaking out of my sheltered life (a little bit lah)

So, what did i do? I stupidly signed up for an Insurance Plan, with AIA (My godma is an insurance agent there >.<), AND i paid for a deposit, without knowing what the hell the fine print was, hell, i didn't even know what the name of the plan was! so i bet even you reading this must be thinking, 'this guy is an idiot' i don't think you are too far off from the truth... >.<

Here's what went through my mind when i signed up. i thought that mom and dad would be proud of me, cuz i'm finally taking a more active role in my finances, and getting myself a savings plan! i guess its good to have more financial control, and sometimes it might take the breaking of a few eggs, but i should learn how to manage my money and plan for the future. But when i got back and told Dad, heh, his reaction was far from what i expected. He was shocked that i didn't tell him about it, and worse still, i did an exchange of money over something so big, without first informing him! so yeah, i guess he has the right to be dissapointed.

still, it was a very good experience for me to talk to Livia (the person trying to sell me the insurance plan) because she made me consider a lot of things i haven't thought about before. like savings, and the future, ideal salaries, supporting a family, having returns, growing my money, and etc. i guess mom and dad always handled it, and i never understood how it worked. well logically, i should have approached them first, but i don't always want to be under the shelter of mom and dad, i've got to figure out a few things on my own too!

Here's my first cracked egg. sure, this time its still salvagable, thanks to Godma and Dad, other times i may not be so lucky. but at the same time, i'm glad that i got into this 'safe trouble' as i did, because its things like this where i will learn the most from, and acquire a lesson i wouldn't have as effectively learnt if it was just another lecture by mom and dad.

As i clean up this shit, i'm quite a happy camper, i guess it was about time i saw GodMa again (she's gonna complain about my weight! damn damn)

i've got quite the packed weekend (again! haha) i can't wait to meet up with the Drama peeps on Sat, meet Godma and have got rehearsal on Sun, and Monday! Kuishin-Bo with the Guys from SOA, damn, they're a good bunch, i feel so elitist >.< but i'm not, i guess that JC people just have a different culture. Mac's today was good (unhealthy... bleh, but how often do i do it right?) the company, its nice to sit around and laugh laugh laugh, sharing 'Happy Times' as Sanji would put it, though not so annoying! haha.

long weekend here i come!

Wanted: Dead or Alive

I figured it out. took some talking and some thinking, but i realised that after all the 'growing up' i was supposed to do, i still end up as this needy little puppy, craving for the love and attention from others. sigh... good job Jon >.<

its so terribly ironic at the same time. i realise that there ARE people who want me around and want me to be with them, i.e. Mat (to play Magic), the Family (to spend more time at home), some of the friends that contact me more often. but ironically, i don't have the same 'passion' to do things for them... i'm quite the terrible friend.

Its a magical feeling, to know that you 'want' someone as much as they 'want' you. to know that they aren't just 'happy' with your presence, but they really wish you WERE there, or are really grateful that you ARE there. i sometimes get the feeling that i invest emotionally in others, but my investment does not reap me the ideal returns, but in hope of a higher returns rate, i invest more, hoping to bail out the relationship, before it sinks.

i can't help but feel that no one's interested in my life. no one asks, "hey! how have you been?" spontaneously, or looks for opportunities to hang out. yeah, i guess proximity makes a difference, but doesn't the relationship count for something? there's no random message to perk me up, or the unexpected surprise. its just me, waiting, hoping, wishing, wanting, waiting somemore.

okay, i gotta admit, its a girl thing too. yes yes, guys are awesome, but i guess when things are going well, you kinda under-appreciate it. but nonetheless, i still maintain my efforts in keeping contact! the guys keep it all together for me, or i MIGHT spiral into depression (yah right, like i ever could, haha)

Have you ever been by yourself? shouting into the Grand Canyon, and the only companion is the echo of your own voice. "How are you?" "Fine thanks for asking!" "..." *mumbles: what a boring conversationalist.

i'm not wanted :'(

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i won't be so depressing in my next post. i promise!

The Party players, and their Bonds

Me is tired. haha, i somehow blog when i'm tired. bad habit of mine, makes me not want to blog anymore >.<

I actually believe i'm still on a high from Friday. like there's the remnants of Ubin still under my skin, and that always gives me a little joy in my everyday work. and a bit of poop to clear up this week. API due, 2 tests in 3 days, and i've got my schedule packed for the days up till friday. but surprisingly, i think the weekend is still kinda free >.< haha. SURPRISE.

Today after school, went down to Chinatown (i've always wanted to say that!) to do some measurements for our Costumes for R&Gad. it was fine, no great shakes. i realise that its hard to converse when 2 girls who know each other are around, it makes whatever i say seem very intrusive, at least that's how i feel, haha.

I think about what Kenneth said during Ubin. We all started on the 2nd half of our day, and i think Hui Min had a problem with her bike cable or something. Eugene was helping to fix, so the rest of us were waiting at the foot of the hill, and we were talking. Me, "Eugene's helping Hui Min fix her bicycle chain? haha, just like Eugene, always 'The Healer' " so we categorised our guys into stereotypical party members

Eugene : The Healer
Raghav : The Aggro
Jonathan : The Tank
Kenneth : THE CHEAT CODE

haha, you can go figure out what the others mean, but for me, i was quite intrigued when Kenneth said i was the Tank. (not the physical way mind you >.<) The Tank has high HP, and takes a lot of damage for the team, enough so that they can move in for the kill. haha, sounds a little sad, and a little unlike me, in the sense that i usually wouldn't so easily sacrifice myself, cuz i'm kinda selfish >.< but then the more i thought about it, it seemed to make sense.

As a Tank, your objective is to help the rest of the team by letting yourself take the hits. And for the Ubin Trip, i did take some crap from some people, and had to brave the 'sian-ness' of people, so that the event would still go on, and so those who did turn up would have a good time. or on a daily basis with friends, i try to interact with everyone, and TRY to let them feel included, but at that time, by not focusing on a core group, i don't get as close to them, and i lose out on the friendships with more depth.

haha, i was extremely lucky with the TA people though. with the guys being in the same class, i had a good 2 years to spend with the gang of guys, and that's why we are as close as we are, but before, and even now, i realise that making close friends is not easy for me, because i want to try to be friends with everyone.



I watched the 2nd Naruto Shippuden Movie, Bonds, over the weekend. i want to be like Naruto, haha cliche yes. I'm just as loud, rowdy, annoying, but i hope to be as inspiring. there was a scene where he took a stab from his friend to prevent her from killing herself, he said something along the lines of, "i have always been alone, and i never want to see anyone feel that kind of pain ever again, so i will take on all your pain for you" and i completely understand what he means.

so till the time where i learn to grow up, and live more for others, i will keep trying hard, and be there for the people who matter much to me :)

Memories that Last forever

The bunch of Awesome i spent with yesterday :) am still a little tired from being out the whole day, but i know if i don't post now, i'll forget to later! then i will be forever too lazy to post it! heh.

i knew that my worries and troubles were unfounded! just had to be with everyone yesterday to reassure me :) Jane, Hui Min, Bernice, Eugene, Kenneth, Raghav and I all had an awesome day in Ubin, let's recap!

So the 5 of us (Jane, HM, Ber, Rag, me) headed to Ubin first, and we decided to go check out Chek Jawa. at least for me, i don't remember ever being to Chek Jawa, the last memory i have of Ubin was PLTC in Sec 2 (and i got to see many of my old sites!) and Chek Jawa was definitely not one of our stops! so we went up the observation tower, and saw the mud flats at low tide. i think as we grow older, things don't seem as mystical as they would have been when we were young, so Chek Jawa wasn't as 'Magical' as i thought it would be, but still, it became more about trekking with the people than the actual flora and fauna :)

then as we head back, we try to get to Mammon beach, but its seems that the bridges are down, so we made a few rounds and went down some dead ends while exploring Ubin.

so by this time, its kinda late already, haha, time flies really fast when you're having fun! and since Ken and Gene were on thier way, we went back to the Village center to go grab some lunch, and wait for Gene and Ken.

had a hearty lunch, and met the Duo, got thier bikes and continued on our way!

Bernice is a very dangerous person to lead the pack! she just spontaneously decides to make a turn and explore an area, but that usually results in some cool places we would otherwise not have discovered! like the little food farm with all sorts of edible plants, just that they aren't is season, so they aren't fruiting, oh well... maybe we can find a way to go back when they are! haha.

My thighs are still trembling/burning somewhat from going uphill so much all over Ubin, so MANY times we just gave up and just ended up pushing, but pain leh! there was a point, i got off my bike to push, and couldn't move! there were like these bulbous things in my thighs, it was just a cramp, but couldn't move >.< haha. so basically just went round Ubin exploring and taking pictures :) and unlike a run, we actually have the breath to talk and chat about stuff like doing these kind of events more often! or just bringing each other up to speed about what's going on in our life.

okay! there's one photo i MUST explain!

FB caption - "Welcome to Fat Prison, only skinny people can escape to the beach"

so we cycled to this portion of Ubin where the whole beach is fenced up (stupid Illegal immigrants spoiling our natural Ubin!) and there is this large gate blocking us. so me and kenneth go exploring the side to see if there's anyway AROUND the fence. and then suddenly we see Bernice on the other side playing at the BEACH!

apparently there's a space at the hinge of the gate where SKINNY people can squeeze through, and Eugene, Kenneth and Jane, join Bernice on the beach. then me, raghave and Hui min try to squeeze through (Unsucessfully of course) and we are stuck behind the gates of FAT PRISON. D:

haha, sadness. i even got scratches from the Constantina wire trying to climb the gate >.<

It was a brilliant day, just cycling around, having fun, laughing playing. sure, i wished that more of our friends were there to join in the fun, but it was thourouhgly satisfying with everyone already there :)


"I want the rest of my life to feel just like my HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL"
haha, that was exactly what was playing on my Music player as i typed it out. but yes! i hope that THE REST OF MY LIFE, we can keep these close friends, and we can always meet up and do fun stuff like this! even when we have children, even when our Children HAVE children! if possible, hur.


So if we have any more activities! try and join us kay!