bleh, haven't run in so long, almost died today. damn. don't like running, but know i have to do it.
NS is just generally slow, doesn't matter whether you're in Tekong or in SOA, as long as its NS, the days feel retardedly long. when you look at the clock, you go "wow, its 2 o' clock, should be ending the day in a few more hours!" then a little while later, after you pore through the many lecture notes, you take a second glance and scream inside "WHAT its only 2.30! How! Why? DAMN" and you continue facebooking to pass the time (people on facebook know EXACTLY what i'm talking about :D)
On the flipside, 3SGT Chris did say today "Its a nice place to be. When you know you've done your studying, you have an office and a stable income, you don't have a worry in the world" and its kinda true. for now, now that my applications have been sent, and i don't really worry greatly about my Ammo Tests, i can just be happy, arrange meet ups, and look for interests i've always wanted to try. Was just telling Wendy that now's the time! the perfect opportunity to go pursue our interests, cuz we're "in transit" neither in Uni, nor looking for a job, we're just waiting, and this time can be well spent to find ourselves!
i'm adjusting quite well to the people in SOA. I just hope i'm not an elitist, and can only relate, click, and get along with people that are more educated, would be quite sad if that's the case... but that's why empathy is such a difficult skill to aquire, and hopefully if i go into the world more often, i can figure out how to understand more people. this leads up to sunday's social work, going with rag to serve food to the elderly, haven't done something like this in a while, if all goes well, maybe next time can get more people to do something and return to society!
so... even though things are slow, i'm having a good time cruising along, and lapping up every minute i have to myself :) "its a good time to be"
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Opportunities
finally submitted all the Uni applications! good to finally get that out of the way, now i don't have to worry so much about Dad breathing down my neck. but yeah, i know he does it out of concern, its good to know that he actively takes part in making my life, and future better. Thanks Dad :)
So, that means now i can go do some other things apart from staring at computer screen wondering what to write for the application essays (and end up FB-ing or just surfing) but i do realise there are quite a lot of opportunities rearing thier head for me to go grab it.
1) Driving Lessons
really must go get that done, i want to be able to drive soon! actually its the silly 6 mth probabtion thing that i want to get rid off, and what better time to watch it pass than when i'm in army (everyday's a wait -_-)
2) Community service
"I don't need community service! i'm doing all the service right here in NS! 'CIP hours: 2 years' why would i spend my weekends doing that!" -Varun (who just booked back in... poor fellow... HAHAHAHA XD) but i would agree if i were in a stay in vocation or in tekong, but now that i have time, i would like to do some comm work. Raghav's intro-ing me to help serve food to the elderly next sunday, maybe i'll pick up on that offer! sounds quite good, and a good place to start
3) D&D
this is completely random, but it sounds damn good coming from the guys, and its an opportunity to meet up, while playing some mad awesome game! let's hope things work out next weekend!
4) Performing
So recently caught up with Sally, primary school friend, and she's doing a million other projects, one of which she terms "random musical thing" which sounds really interesting, and since i haven't been in that field for so long, maybe this might be a good chance to dip my hands in! but must get through the auditions, so we'll see! haha.
5) reconnecting with the past
Benedict, Company mate, now with me at SOA and ex-GEPper too, so he happens to know like EVERYONE i've known in my years before TJ, so i'm taking the chance to start adding people on FB, and talking to them, catch up, and see what's changed (and what stays the same) even this guy named Jevon Yeoh, who was like my P1,P2 classmate, just random, but cool to see if he still remembers! haha.
so yes, lots of things coming up, will have to manage my time well, and make sure i get all the neccessary done, and not get into trouble anywhere! Sleep is very important to get all these things done, so now i'm going to bathe, and sleep :D toodles!
So, that means now i can go do some other things apart from staring at computer screen wondering what to write for the application essays (and end up FB-ing or just surfing) but i do realise there are quite a lot of opportunities rearing thier head for me to go grab it.
1) Driving Lessons
really must go get that done, i want to be able to drive soon! actually its the silly 6 mth probabtion thing that i want to get rid off, and what better time to watch it pass than when i'm in army (everyday's a wait -_-)
2) Community service
"I don't need community service! i'm doing all the service right here in NS! 'CIP hours: 2 years' why would i spend my weekends doing that!" -Varun (who just booked back in... poor fellow... HAHAHAHA XD) but i would agree if i were in a stay in vocation or in tekong, but now that i have time, i would like to do some comm work. Raghav's intro-ing me to help serve food to the elderly next sunday, maybe i'll pick up on that offer! sounds quite good, and a good place to start
3) D&D
this is completely random, but it sounds damn good coming from the guys, and its an opportunity to meet up, while playing some mad awesome game! let's hope things work out next weekend!
4) Performing
So recently caught up with Sally, primary school friend, and she's doing a million other projects, one of which she terms "random musical thing" which sounds really interesting, and since i haven't been in that field for so long, maybe this might be a good chance to dip my hands in! but must get through the auditions, so we'll see! haha.
5) reconnecting with the past
Benedict, Company mate, now with me at SOA and ex-GEPper too, so he happens to know like EVERYONE i've known in my years before TJ, so i'm taking the chance to start adding people on FB, and talking to them, catch up, and see what's changed (and what stays the same) even this guy named Jevon Yeoh, who was like my P1,P2 classmate, just random, but cool to see if he still remembers! haha.
so yes, lots of things coming up, will have to manage my time well, and make sure i get all the neccessary done, and not get into trouble anywhere! Sleep is very important to get all these things done, so now i'm going to bathe, and sleep :D toodles!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Comm Chest
I'd like to do something for the needy. help out like we used to at the YMCA. all friends who would like to join me to find something to give back to society, tag my board! let's go find something to do!
No Phone Today
I realise that i'm alot more introspective when i'm without my phone. yes, i still talk to people around me, but i find that i'm more able to be alone with my thoughts, maybe because i'm not thinking about the next message to send out to people...
i must admit, i'm not really good at asking myself the hard questions. i can almost feel myself avoiding it, but because i'm in conversation with me, "we" both know that the issue is there, i just don't want to face it. I do enjoy talking to him though, its a little like narration sometimes, like telling me what to do, and what has happened. Reflection, like in a mirror, just in thought. 'Don't think so much' that's what my platoon mates tell me... sorry, but no thanks, that's what makes ME, reflection and thinking back, hoping to find ways to improve, or at least assess what has been done, that's the only way to move forward.
Ben is quite a mushroom to hang out with (Funghi- FUN GUY! XD) its surprising what a small island this is, and i guess this is the opportunity to finally link up and connect with old friends, like Sally :D but stupid i-love-my-pole kia liang STILL has NOT replied my message, you better be in delta wing or something!
So, with no phone today, i've been pretty much disconnected from my usual sms chat buddies, but its good to have some time to my own thoughts, maybe this is what kgukgu (refer below) is talking about. Must still learn how to face the tough questions tho.
i must admit, i'm not really good at asking myself the hard questions. i can almost feel myself avoiding it, but because i'm in conversation with me, "we" both know that the issue is there, i just don't want to face it. I do enjoy talking to him though, its a little like narration sometimes, like telling me what to do, and what has happened. Reflection, like in a mirror, just in thought. 'Don't think so much' that's what my platoon mates tell me... sorry, but no thanks, that's what makes ME, reflection and thinking back, hoping to find ways to improve, or at least assess what has been done, that's the only way to move forward.
Ben is quite a mushroom to hang out with (Funghi- FUN GUY! XD) its surprising what a small island this is, and i guess this is the opportunity to finally link up and connect with old friends, like Sally :D but stupid i-love-my-pole kia liang STILL has NOT replied my message, you better be in delta wing or something!
So, with no phone today, i've been pretty much disconnected from my usual sms chat buddies, but its good to have some time to my own thoughts, maybe this is what kgukgu (refer below) is talking about. Must still learn how to face the tough questions tho.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
i heart my bed
i'm so greatful for having my bed to sleep on. i wish i could give it a big hug, 'thank you for always supporting me' haha.
but have been neglecting Mr. Bed till very late every night. trying to catch up, but most of the time, just wasting time frying my brains on the com. so tonight i'll try to sleep early, maybe 10, depending on whether i do my SMU applications tonight. the essays are just SO TEDIOUS. but yeah, might be a good idea if i write the topics and try to get it done during free time tomorrow.
am concurrently applying for my driving basic theory test. okay, to be honest, i have no clue how to go about getting a driving license... so if anyone knows, do enlighten!
actually coming home from SOA these few days, i've had terrible headaches, dunno if its because i'm not drinking enough water, or maybe just not having enough sleep. fine, fine, looks like Mr. Bed's alluring call is much louder than SMU application. will hopefully get that done tmr. stupid essay. tucking in soon :) goodnight
but have been neglecting Mr. Bed till very late every night. trying to catch up, but most of the time, just wasting time frying my brains on the com. so tonight i'll try to sleep early, maybe 10, depending on whether i do my SMU applications tonight. the essays are just SO TEDIOUS. but yeah, might be a good idea if i write the topics and try to get it done during free time tomorrow.
am concurrently applying for my driving basic theory test. okay, to be honest, i have no clue how to go about getting a driving license... so if anyone knows, do enlighten!
actually coming home from SOA these few days, i've had terrible headaches, dunno if its because i'm not drinking enough water, or maybe just not having enough sleep. fine, fine, looks like Mr. Bed's alluring call is much louder than SMU application. will hopefully get that done tmr. stupid essay. tucking in soon :) goodnight
Monday, March 23, 2009
Going back to School
Yes, i've been posted to School of Ammunition, but like everything in the SAF, can't say anything about it. not that i want to anyway :)
hopefully will be updating a tad more often now that there's more free time on my hands. But what am i going to do with this free time? well, part of it will have to be studying for SOA i guess, it really is like going back to school, but there's a coupla things i would list to want to do with my new found freedom (sorta)
1) take driving lessons
sounds like a good idea getting my license out of the way, i just wanna have that license so that if ever the need may arise, i can be of service to the family too. that's why my dad took up driving, and i think its a very good reason to! also, designated driver is the perfect way to have a friendly excuse for not drinking (yes, i do not drink outside of my home)
2) take a dance class
this is still prolly a fantasy. but i've always wanted to take up dance, just to see if i can follow, and see if i'm sexy enough to pull it off! lol.
3) meet more friends for dinner dates
yes yes i know i do it every book out, but that's the thing, to keep my friends close, we need to make the effort to meet. Hopefully i'm not overdoing it in the initial stages of being seperated, but now's as good a time as any. its gonna be hard to keep it up for many years to come, if i'm not enthusiastic about it now!
but kgukgu (rough sound translation, for my mother's younger brother, basically uncle) did mention. "I noticed you have been living very full weekends, but now that you have got some (more) time on your hands, maybe its time you spend some time chasing your passions, alone"
he has a point, i have been doing ALOT of things with other people, mainly cuz i'm trying to squeeze on tightly to my friends, but perhaps its also because i haven't really spent time alone connecting with myself. i struggled with the dual life of tekong life and civvy life, but now it seems like i may have lost touch with some of my "self-conversation" skills. if there's one thing i'd like to learn, its to have better communication with myself, figure out where i'm going in life, my passions, and what am i going to go after.
sigh, its all about "what drives you" - isn't that some slogan from some ad campaign? or sounds like something from an Open house... - but to find what makes me tick. living in the moment is good, but i need to step out of the zone and take a look at things in the bigger picture, but with that i need to find where am i going to take myself. Big Scary questions which maybe i don't want to answer, maybe i'm scared of finding out. in anycase, need to find a way to look for that.
so. with everyone starting thier vocations all over the place, all the best (shoutout to kenneth, delta wing OCS, heh heh heh, god bless your soul :D) and do stay in touch :)
hopefully will be updating a tad more often now that there's more free time on my hands. But what am i going to do with this free time? well, part of it will have to be studying for SOA i guess, it really is like going back to school, but there's a coupla things i would list to want to do with my new found freedom (sorta)
1) take driving lessons
sounds like a good idea getting my license out of the way, i just wanna have that license so that if ever the need may arise, i can be of service to the family too. that's why my dad took up driving, and i think its a very good reason to! also, designated driver is the perfect way to have a friendly excuse for not drinking (yes, i do not drink outside of my home)
2) take a dance class
this is still prolly a fantasy. but i've always wanted to take up dance, just to see if i can follow, and see if i'm sexy enough to pull it off! lol.
3) meet more friends for dinner dates
yes yes i know i do it every book out, but that's the thing, to keep my friends close, we need to make the effort to meet. Hopefully i'm not overdoing it in the initial stages of being seperated, but now's as good a time as any. its gonna be hard to keep it up for many years to come, if i'm not enthusiastic about it now!
but kgukgu (rough sound translation, for my mother's younger brother, basically uncle) did mention. "I noticed you have been living very full weekends, but now that you have got some (more) time on your hands, maybe its time you spend some time chasing your passions, alone"
he has a point, i have been doing ALOT of things with other people, mainly cuz i'm trying to squeeze on tightly to my friends, but perhaps its also because i haven't really spent time alone connecting with myself. i struggled with the dual life of tekong life and civvy life, but now it seems like i may have lost touch with some of my "self-conversation" skills. if there's one thing i'd like to learn, its to have better communication with myself, figure out where i'm going in life, my passions, and what am i going to go after.
sigh, its all about "what drives you" - isn't that some slogan from some ad campaign? or sounds like something from an Open house... - but to find what makes me tick. living in the moment is good, but i need to step out of the zone and take a look at things in the bigger picture, but with that i need to find where am i going to take myself. Big Scary questions which maybe i don't want to answer, maybe i'm scared of finding out. in anycase, need to find a way to look for that.
so. with everyone starting thier vocations all over the place, all the best (shoutout to kenneth, delta wing OCS, heh heh heh, god bless your soul :D) and do stay in touch :)
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Why i don't sleep
When i sleep it signals to me the end of the day. but i don't want the days to end! when a day ends, it means that the next one begins. if i sleep at 1 and wake up the same time, it really seems like i have more than 24 hours in a day!
but its kinda stupid if you think about it. yeah i know. but its a happy kind of denial doncha think? the only thing is that i'm losing on sleep. (hoping my body gets use to it, and i can function on less sleep)
anyway, since i'm here, if any one is interested (or still visits here XP) i've been posted to Rifle Range Road, as an Ammo Tech (i think that is Ammunitions Technician) don't know what that does, but will tell you next week (if i bother to blog) might be a 9 to 5 which might mean i can go home! then maybe i will blog more often :)
anyway, i've POP-ed (since my last post was "7 days to enlistment"). Finally out of the stupid island of Tekong, and have gotten that out of the way. people might be familiar with my Emo Sundays and my frustrations with working with some of the people there. let's hope it won't stay this way for the next 2 years.
also, i'm starting my application to Uni's most likely will stay here, there isn't any particular course i'm interested in doing overseas. but undesirable results might hold me back from getting the desired course. we shall see where this hand will take me. or i might have to mulligan >.<
if anyone still frequents this place, do give a shout out, and i'll try to reply XP i want to keep in touch :) i miss having friends surrounding me everyday. i miss school (kinda, haha)
maybe if i get to go back each night, i might have to make a exercise plan, but i want to meet people too. maybe i'll exercise with people! we'll see, we'll see...
I like bread :)
i'm tired but i don't want to sleep. (but now i'm gonna go bathe, and i shall sleep)
today was awesome. beach time with kenny, raggy and gavin (no nickname, unless you want gavvy, but that just sounds like... gross) then KJ came over and we just hung out. my place is good to hang out. but i gotta start letting other people plan! haha
i miss... life.
RACIST!
but its kinda stupid if you think about it. yeah i know. but its a happy kind of denial doncha think? the only thing is that i'm losing on sleep. (hoping my body gets use to it, and i can function on less sleep)
anyway, since i'm here, if any one is interested (or still visits here XP) i've been posted to Rifle Range Road, as an Ammo Tech (i think that is Ammunitions Technician) don't know what that does, but will tell you next week (if i bother to blog) might be a 9 to 5 which might mean i can go home! then maybe i will blog more often :)
anyway, i've POP-ed (since my last post was "7 days to enlistment"). Finally out of the stupid island of Tekong, and have gotten that out of the way. people might be familiar with my Emo Sundays and my frustrations with working with some of the people there. let's hope it won't stay this way for the next 2 years.
also, i'm starting my application to Uni's most likely will stay here, there isn't any particular course i'm interested in doing overseas. but undesirable results might hold me back from getting the desired course. we shall see where this hand will take me. or i might have to mulligan >.<
if anyone still frequents this place, do give a shout out, and i'll try to reply XP i want to keep in touch :) i miss having friends surrounding me everyday. i miss school (kinda, haha)
maybe if i get to go back each night, i might have to make a exercise plan, but i want to meet people too. maybe i'll exercise with people! we'll see, we'll see...
I like bread :)
i'm tired but i don't want to sleep. (but now i'm gonna go bathe, and i shall sleep)
today was awesome. beach time with kenny, raggy and gavin (no nickname, unless you want gavvy, but that just sounds like... gross) then KJ came over and we just hung out. my place is good to hang out. but i gotta start letting other people plan! haha
i miss... life.
RACIST!
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