its the time of handing overs and stepping down. not for me this year, cuz i have had my term, and finished it last year. but this year i hear all the stories and watch all the videos, and see another batch step down, and pass on the torch to the new batch.
its kinda sad to go back to school and not recognise everyone anymore. haha, that sounds really silly, but it was one of the things that made TJ feel like home. walking around and knowing almost everyone, when i went back for Megahouse, i find myself going "who are they?" very often, haha, that's what happens when you graduate.
more important though, is that this year would probably be the last batch that i still know a considerable number of people. the whole 32nd SC, including Lovely-Junior-Nad, and Chi-ko-pek Sendy, and Super-Boss-Esti, just to name a few. soon when i go and visit, i'll actually feel wierd going into the SC room, to a room where i no longer know the inhabitants of, that's definitely a new feeling!
Then of course there's the wonderful batch of TA4's this year, ximin, zenia, bala, yanting, kelly, pei yi, too many to list lah. but they are gonna graduate too, which is kinda cool, but i bet scary as hell for many of them as well.
point is, there's the wave of nostalgia, saying that slowly TJ is no longer going to be the place i knew it as for the whole of 4 years, the best times, the best. the people from my batch have moved on, and the juniors are about to graduate, if TJ was all about the people, then if the people leave, does the school lose her flavour?
(aside: to the TA3's this year, i.e. Melissa, Jolene, and that whole batch, WAHAHA still got 2 years to go! haha, maybe ya'll will give me some reason to come back and visit, heh)
I guess, as i see people move on, i realise that so do we. spent time this week fussing over the Ubin trip, which is tomorrow! a little worried that the turnup won't be good, but still hopeful that it will be fun! even as we all go our seperate directions, i want to hold on to the friendships we have. sure we can be the kind that has a party every year, or every other year, gathering and updating each other on our lives, but i just feel that it isn't enough. being such a big part of each other's lives for 4 whole years, i'd hope that we'd continue to go out and do things as friends do, not keep living in the past of our former glory.
haha, its a little hopeful, and a lot of luck comes into play. but that's why we need to make the effort now to create opportunities to keep the friendship going. haha, i'm a little exasperated, hoping that others would feel the same.
we hold on to what we can, and hope that we don't let the good things slip through our fingers.
sadness, a tired emo post. haha, but i KNOW that tmr will be filled with awesome from dawn till dusk :)
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
If you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen!
Man has it been HOT! the weather is wonky as hell, from extreme HOT to downpours. crazyness, really makes one sleepy >.< i wanna go sleep soon! haha.
still today, after SOA, was awesome shizz! Mingyuan, aka My Wang :D, came over cuz he wanted to COOK! so we got all the relevant stuff from NTUC at Tiong Bahru, and headed down to my place to whip up some dinner!
Haha, for a first time chef of Fried Bee Hoon, i've got to say that he did quite well. the bee hoon may have been a little dry, but at least its healthier than drenching the noodles in oil >.< so all in all the bee hoon was really tasty, and i can't wait to see what else he's gonna cook in the near future!
i realise that cooking is quite a significant thing in my family. ever since i could remember, cooking was the best thing to do to celebrate things like Mothers' Day or Fathers' Day (mainly also because i kept forgetting to buy Mom and Dad presents, hehe) but there's something special about seeing the look of satisfaction and pride on Mom and Dad's faces, after they have had a hearty meal produced by yours truly. It has also been a great opportunity for Mat to do something for Mom and Dad, since now i'm too lazy to cook, haha.
I enjoy cooking (i enjoy eating more!) and for me its a performance to whizz around the kitchen and whip up a storm. but i must confess that the main reason i don't step into the kitchen so often is because i CAN'T TAKE THE HEAT. not the metaphorical pressure, but the literal "heat" from the kitchen. every time i cook, i find myself sweltering, having to keep taking breaks to cool down. that's not good, not hygenic! yeah, so i don't cook so much anymore.
Still, i'll find more opportunities to get my hands dirty and show off my culinary skills a little more! there's always baking! like Mom's famous MUD CAKE, which she just made! Mmmmm.... mud cake..... *drool*
haha, maybe you should make special orders! then i'll have the motivation to bake a little, or make a little, and serve for all to share :D
oh, and i was telling My wang, 2 of my favourite/most memorable cooking experience in the recent years, Vinegar Pig's Trotters, and B&J Baked Rice :D good times, good times :)
still today, after SOA, was awesome shizz! Mingyuan, aka My Wang :D, came over cuz he wanted to COOK! so we got all the relevant stuff from NTUC at Tiong Bahru, and headed down to my place to whip up some dinner!
Haha, for a first time chef of Fried Bee Hoon, i've got to say that he did quite well. the bee hoon may have been a little dry, but at least its healthier than drenching the noodles in oil >.< so all in all the bee hoon was really tasty, and i can't wait to see what else he's gonna cook in the near future!
i realise that cooking is quite a significant thing in my family. ever since i could remember, cooking was the best thing to do to celebrate things like Mothers' Day or Fathers' Day (mainly also because i kept forgetting to buy Mom and Dad presents, hehe) but there's something special about seeing the look of satisfaction and pride on Mom and Dad's faces, after they have had a hearty meal produced by yours truly. It has also been a great opportunity for Mat to do something for Mom and Dad, since now i'm too lazy to cook, haha.
I enjoy cooking (i enjoy eating more!) and for me its a performance to whizz around the kitchen and whip up a storm. but i must confess that the main reason i don't step into the kitchen so often is because i CAN'T TAKE THE HEAT. not the metaphorical pressure, but the literal "heat" from the kitchen. every time i cook, i find myself sweltering, having to keep taking breaks to cool down. that's not good, not hygenic! yeah, so i don't cook so much anymore.
Still, i'll find more opportunities to get my hands dirty and show off my culinary skills a little more! there's always baking! like Mom's famous MUD CAKE, which she just made! Mmmmm.... mud cake..... *drool*
haha, maybe you should make special orders! then i'll have the motivation to bake a little, or make a little, and serve for all to share :D
oh, and i was telling My wang, 2 of my favourite/most memorable cooking experience in the recent years, Vinegar Pig's Trotters, and B&J Baked Rice :D good times, good times :)
Monday, April 27, 2009
Only Eat, Talk & Idle
And guess what! it was BORING AS HELL! Did absolutely nothing of use at the place. okay fine, that's a little exaggerating, there was about a total of 1 useful hour. then a big part would be catching up with so many section mates, Jeremy (from VS!), and of course, theoneandonly Eugene! then the rest of it was just sitting around talking cock and wasting time :)
Life at OETI is not tough, but precisely because of that, i'm glad i'm not there. a rough guide to what today was like:
8.30 - Staff Tang (CK TANG!), "have you had breakfast? okay, what time do you want to come back?" Us: "Erm... 9?" Tang:"Okay, come back at 9.30"
9.45 - Staff Tang does SA and Turret lecture then says "What time you want to go for lunch?" Us: "11.30?" Tang:"okay" at 11.10 he leaves the room and says to I/C, "let them off at 11.30 for lunch, come back at 1pm. Bye"
Lunch for 1.5 hours
1pm - skips lectures, go check out the Turrets and HA weapons (i earned $5 for licking some random grease thing on a gun barrel :D)
2.30 - Staff Tang: "your break is supposed to be at 3pm, you can go ahead first"
4.00 - Staff Tang returns. covers some stuff on SA, and dismissed by 4+
So yes, OETI is damn slack. with so many Tea breaks, and the unhealthy food staring you down, i'm glad i'm not at OETI, or all the work during BMT would have gone to waste.
Still, today was nice to catch up with everyone! i can imagine without all the computers to make us seclude ourselves, actually we can bond alot with the people around by talking cock, since there's nothing else to do! But i'm glad to be at SOA. life's good there, and i can get some stuff done i couldn't at OETI :D (yes, i'm talking about Facebook, hur)
Oh yes! Those who have been invited, or those who are interested, for this Friday's Cycling Trip to Ubin, can check out the details here! Finally got down to doing all the stuff needed, can feel the whole event coming together! whee~ can't wait till friday!
Life at OETI is not tough, but precisely because of that, i'm glad i'm not there. a rough guide to what today was like:
8.30 - Staff Tang (CK TANG!), "have you had breakfast? okay, what time do you want to come back?" Us: "Erm... 9?" Tang:"Okay, come back at 9.30"
9.45 - Staff Tang does SA and Turret lecture then says "What time you want to go for lunch?" Us: "11.30?" Tang:"okay" at 11.10 he leaves the room and says to I/C, "let them off at 11.30 for lunch, come back at 1pm. Bye"
Lunch for 1.5 hours
1pm - skips lectures, go check out the Turrets and HA weapons (i earned $5 for licking some random grease thing on a gun barrel :D)
2.30 - Staff Tang: "your break is supposed to be at 3pm, you can go ahead first"
4.00 - Staff Tang returns. covers some stuff on SA, and dismissed by 4+
So yes, OETI is damn slack. with so many Tea breaks, and the unhealthy food staring you down, i'm glad i'm not at OETI, or all the work during BMT would have gone to waste.
Still, today was nice to catch up with everyone! i can imagine without all the computers to make us seclude ourselves, actually we can bond alot with the people around by talking cock, since there's nothing else to do! But i'm glad to be at SOA. life's good there, and i can get some stuff done i couldn't at OETI :D (yes, i'm talking about Facebook, hur)
Oh yes! Those who have been invited, or those who are interested, for this Friday's Cycling Trip to Ubin, can check out the details here! Finally got down to doing all the stuff needed, can feel the whole event coming together! whee~ can't wait till friday!
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Growing into this skin
I'm getting more comfortable with what i'm doing. came back from rehearsal today (my back aches from having to be hunched so much, thinking.... like some plowbeast, lots to carry on my back, so hunched forward) but the people are nice, and breaking the ice, though can see that the directors (particularly Cheng) are getting a little more stressed, but i'm sure given time they will gain control of the reins again.
I realise i'm the kind of actor that either likes to Direct the movement of everyone (but that's the Directors job, so actually i'm saying i rather be Director :D) or be completely directed, which means that i'd like to be told exactly how to do what i need to do. yeah, actually that mean's i'm not so creative like, rather just be an empty canvas for the director to paint on. i'm funny like that >.<
haha, had quite a few awkward scenes with Claire (or is it Clare? through the wonders of Facebook, i have discovered that its 'Claire'!) but i think she did good, me... hahaha... still quite awkward lah. anyway, will be professional about it, and its just business, heh.
Well, put that aside for now, still getting use to acting again, it really feels like its been really long >.<>.<>.<) Its on the 1st May which is next friday... at night! so no clash with the whole cycling trip!
Speaking of which! i've really got to get down and call everyone to confirm if they're going! man, i've been putting it off for so long! damn you Varun! why pangseh me :( haha, silly noob is currently at field camp! Mwaha but i'm sure he's enjoying it! can't wait to hear his 'war stories'.
okay okay, i've REALLY got to go and call everyone. aite, will update soon :) tomorrow's the trip to OETI, even if its boring as hell, you'll hear about it!
I realise i'm the kind of actor that either likes to Direct the movement of everyone (but that's the Directors job, so actually i'm saying i rather be Director :D) or be completely directed, which means that i'd like to be told exactly how to do what i need to do. yeah, actually that mean's i'm not so creative like, rather just be an empty canvas for the director to paint on. i'm funny like that >.<
haha, had quite a few awkward scenes with Claire (or is it Clare? through the wonders of Facebook, i have discovered that its 'Claire'!) but i think she did good, me... hahaha... still quite awkward lah. anyway, will be professional about it, and its just business, heh.
Well, put that aside for now, still getting use to acting again, it really feels like its been really long >.<>.<>.<) Its on the 1st May which is next friday... at night! so no clash with the whole cycling trip!
Speaking of which! i've really got to get down and call everyone to confirm if they're going! man, i've been putting it off for so long! damn you Varun! why pangseh me :( haha, silly noob is currently at field camp! Mwaha but i'm sure he's enjoying it! can't wait to hear his 'war stories'.
okay okay, i've REALLY got to go and call everyone. aite, will update soon :) tomorrow's the trip to OETI, even if its boring as hell, you'll hear about it!
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Try a little HAPPINESS
HAPPINESS! dad went to open up the mail, and lo and behold i got a letter from NTU, but it came in one of those card sizes envelopes, so didn't hope for much. looks like another one of those brochures...
BUT IT WASN'T!
"Dear Mr Heng,
Congratulations! you have been accepted into
Sociology (First Year)"
(haha, something like that, the letter is with Dad >.<)
OMGOMGOMGOMG! damndamndamn! haha! to me that's just AMAZING :D i thought that i'd be stuck without an advance placement, and have to work my ass off to get a better portfolio to apply in the next years, but now i've got my Sociology spot at NTU :D :D
its also a huge sigh of relief, cuz now i know that i've got a University waiting for me, and not only that, but its MY FIRST CHOICE of course! wahh.... i'm happy :)
okay, now, to be realistic, i must admit that this is just the beginning. not that i don't appreciate my spot, but it also means that this is the starting platform for me to go and apply for more universities, and possibly even scholarship. since the first wave of uni applications were most urgent, i focused on that, but now that i've got some breather, i should start looking at overseas Uni's and look at things i can do beyond this first opportunity. This is an exciting time! i've got sort of a safety net (though i think its too luxurious to consider it that >.<) and i can explore a little more, with slightly less worry about getting a spot in a Uni :D
yes yes, today was good (obviously!) though i've got a little headache, from 6 hours of MagicTG, i love the game, but it really takes alot out of a fella! but yeah, Matt, Rags, Mr Hsi, Mr Low and I, attended the pre-release at Suntec, and thanks to the tutalage of Mr Low, the deck i drafted was awesome enough to get 2 wins! and hence a sweet 2 booster prize! whole bunch of awesome cards! so now i DEFINITELY have to make a dragan deck! with so many awesome shizz like broodmother, broodmate, Karrthus! and much more awesome in there, haha, deck building! but not yet, still gotta recover from today :)
wow. i feel like calling as many as i can and sharing with them the news! but it seems kinda wierd, haha can disguise it with details about Ubin Trip! woo~ another thing to be excited about :D
okay, i'm gonna set this to auto play, cuz when i got the letter, this was the first song that came to mind, just so jumpy with excitement!
edit: stopped it from autoplaying, you know how annoying it is, when everytime you go to a page, songs autoplay, so with the next post i stopped it, but the video shall still be there!
BUT IT WASN'T!
"Dear Mr Heng,
Congratulations! you have been accepted into
Sociology (First Year)"
(haha, something like that, the letter is with Dad >.<)
OMGOMGOMGOMG! damndamndamn! haha! to me that's just AMAZING :D i thought that i'd be stuck without an advance placement, and have to work my ass off to get a better portfolio to apply in the next years, but now i've got my Sociology spot at NTU :D :D
its also a huge sigh of relief, cuz now i know that i've got a University waiting for me, and not only that, but its MY FIRST CHOICE of course! wahh.... i'm happy :)
okay, now, to be realistic, i must admit that this is just the beginning. not that i don't appreciate my spot, but it also means that this is the starting platform for me to go and apply for more universities, and possibly even scholarship. since the first wave of uni applications were most urgent, i focused on that, but now that i've got some breather, i should start looking at overseas Uni's and look at things i can do beyond this first opportunity. This is an exciting time! i've got sort of a safety net (though i think its too luxurious to consider it that >.<) and i can explore a little more, with slightly less worry about getting a spot in a Uni :D
yes yes, today was good (obviously!) though i've got a little headache, from 6 hours of MagicTG, i love the game, but it really takes alot out of a fella! but yeah, Matt, Rags, Mr Hsi, Mr Low and I, attended the pre-release at Suntec, and thanks to the tutalage of Mr Low, the deck i drafted was awesome enough to get 2 wins! and hence a sweet 2 booster prize! whole bunch of awesome cards! so now i DEFINITELY have to make a dragan deck! with so many awesome shizz like broodmother, broodmate, Karrthus! and much more awesome in there, haha, deck building! but not yet, still gotta recover from today :)
wow. i feel like calling as many as i can and sharing with them the news! but it seems kinda wierd, haha can disguise it with details about Ubin Trip! woo~ another thing to be excited about :D
okay, i'm gonna set this to auto play, cuz when i got the letter, this was the first song that came to mind, just so jumpy with excitement!
edit: stopped it from autoplaying, you know how annoying it is, when everytime you go to a page, songs autoplay, so with the next post i stopped it, but the video shall still be there!
Friday, April 24, 2009
Fulifillment is kinda tough
Man, i'm so tired! i think running in the morning makes me that way. never mind, will just have to go catch some sleep soon, right after i blog, and check some stuff online haha!
just came home from spending some time with Jane, Sze Sian, Wendy, Hui Min, Zhi Hao and Eugene. initially went for the MegaHouse Function, but it was kinda lame, so decided to go off and have dinner and chat instead.
The Weather is freaking hot! i remember as we were talking, we kept complaining about the heat. garh... maybe that's what's making me sleepy too.
I'm a little tired of starting conversations with "hey? how've you been?" its getting a little old. and i'm just saying it to everyone >.< well, goes to show how little i know about my friends, i need to BEG them to tell me, sigh...
I guess i miss Dialogue. not many people around me are still curious about what's happening in my life. even tonight as we chatted, when i left, i couldn't help but feel a little hollow, cuz it was just those superficial talk. I want to have a heart to heart with people. that's REALLY TALKING. but i guess that kind of relationship has to be built up, and i guess now its a little tough to do so. but i must persevere on nonetheless!
Monday going OETI with eugene! and tmr i'm going for Alara Reborn Pre-Release! yes yes, filled weekend, but is it fulfilling? i'll have to figure that out...
just came home from spending some time with Jane, Sze Sian, Wendy, Hui Min, Zhi Hao and Eugene. initially went for the MegaHouse Function, but it was kinda lame, so decided to go off and have dinner and chat instead.
The Weather is freaking hot! i remember as we were talking, we kept complaining about the heat. garh... maybe that's what's making me sleepy too.
I'm a little tired of starting conversations with "hey? how've you been?" its getting a little old. and i'm just saying it to everyone >.< well, goes to show how little i know about my friends, i need to BEG them to tell me, sigh...
I guess i miss Dialogue. not many people around me are still curious about what's happening in my life. even tonight as we chatted, when i left, i couldn't help but feel a little hollow, cuz it was just those superficial talk. I want to have a heart to heart with people. that's REALLY TALKING. but i guess that kind of relationship has to be built up, and i guess now its a little tough to do so. but i must persevere on nonetheless!
Monday going OETI with eugene! and tmr i'm going for Alara Reborn Pre-Release! yes yes, filled weekend, but is it fulfilling? i'll have to figure that out...
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Movies Again!
woo hoo! feels good to get out of the house again! haha. its just so funny, i feel so tired everytime i get back home, that i don't feel like doing anything, and also cuz of that, usually no inspiration to blog about anything. I'm more of an events person, i need things to be happening and going on for me to write about, heh :)
So tonight i went to catch 17 Again! yes yes, many might say that its a silly movie to want to watch, but i don't mind :D anyway, had an awesome time watching it with Nadia (Junior! <3)>.<
So, 17 Again. It wasn't bad, but i guess i was a little too over eager to see it, so had higher expectations, which i felt weren't really met. Matthew Perry was a little disappointing for me... i hoped it would be his quirky, interesting Cha-nan-dler Bong type character, but i guess its not easy for him, hard for him to break out of that character. i heard there was a movie where he was a teacher that taught in a neighbourhood school, need to go and find that one. i think i watched it on a plane trip, and i thought he was quite moving in that one! Zac Efron! now that is an actor to watch! sure, now he's doing all the school/young teenie movies, but he's got potential to be a good actor! it will prolly take some time for him to reel in from all that High School Musical, but if he pulls through, i wouldn't mind being a fan of his acting ;D
so now this is how it stands,
No. 1 favourite actor : Tom Hanks
Movies:
BIG
You've Got Mail
Cast Away
Forrest Gump
etc.
No. 2: Ewan Mcgregor
Movies:
Moulin Rouge
Big Fish
Star Wars Episode I,II,III ( i only liked I tho, II wasn't too bad for him)
The Island
Honourary Mention: Zac Efron
Movies:
High School Musical (1,2 and 3)
Hairspray
17 Again
hehe, i'm quite the movie and TV junkie, even though i really don't watch that much! really! i can't bear to spend on movies >.<
oh well, gotta get that home theater fixed! then can enjoy all sorts of movies at home again! got The Colour Purple due to be watched, and Aunty Jane's Juno! i want to watch! sigh, but for now, i've got to settle the other plans in my life! haha, busy, but exciting!
So tonight i went to catch 17 Again! yes yes, many might say that its a silly movie to want to watch, but i don't mind :D anyway, had an awesome time watching it with Nadia (Junior! <3)>.<
So, 17 Again. It wasn't bad, but i guess i was a little too over eager to see it, so had higher expectations, which i felt weren't really met. Matthew Perry was a little disappointing for me... i hoped it would be his quirky, interesting Cha-nan-dler Bong type character, but i guess its not easy for him, hard for him to break out of that character. i heard there was a movie where he was a teacher that taught in a neighbourhood school, need to go and find that one. i think i watched it on a plane trip, and i thought he was quite moving in that one! Zac Efron! now that is an actor to watch! sure, now he's doing all the school/young teenie movies, but he's got potential to be a good actor! it will prolly take some time for him to reel in from all that High School Musical, but if he pulls through, i wouldn't mind being a fan of his acting ;D
so now this is how it stands,
No. 1 favourite actor : Tom HanksMovies:
BIG
You've Got Mail
Cast Away
Forrest Gump
etc.
No. 2: Ewan McgregorMovies:
Moulin Rouge
Big Fish
Star Wars Episode I,II,III ( i only liked I tho, II wasn't too bad for him)
The Island
Honourary Mention: Zac Efron
Movies:
High School Musical (1,2 and 3)
Hairspray
17 Again
hehe, i'm quite the movie and TV junkie, even though i really don't watch that much! really! i can't bear to spend on movies >.<
oh well, gotta get that home theater fixed! then can enjoy all sorts of movies at home again! got The Colour Purple due to be watched, and Aunty Jane's Juno! i want to watch! sigh, but for now, i've got to settle the other plans in my life! haha, busy, but exciting!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Untargeted
to recollect on everything i have done today... i've done nothing. We started off with a test, but the rest of the day was an utter waste of time. i even went on facebook, stared at it for the whole of 5 minutes, and just gave up. i think i became sick of facebook! (don't worry, i'll be back using it again tomorrow! haha)
still, its times like this where i can feel my life slipping away through my fingers. so i spent some time thinking about Ubin, and a little time sketching up Mr Rhino, but most of it was just sitting there waiting for something to happen. sadness.
i've gotten into such a momentum of doing things, that when i'm just idling by, i can feel it. like REALLY feel it. hear the tick tick ticking away of the seconds. time just passes so slowly >.< i much rather be out there doing something. that's why i must try my very best not to get a desk job in an office. i would spend so much time at the desk, my bum would probably melt and conjoin with the seat. i feel the pounds packing on already.
GkuGku (mom's brother) has asked me again about "what is your goal? do you have a target" and though i admit that i'm more active, i'm still not sure if i have a direction.
another thing i found i want to do! i want to enrol in Jap classes! if i can learn a decent amount of Jap, i can go to Japan after i ORD, and can get around without having to rely on a translator or travel guides! oh man! that sounds good! if only i can buckle down and really go and do it. maybe will ask GkingGking about it (aunt, mom's sister-in-law) (just in case you were wondering why they have such wierd names, i think its Teochew, but that's what we call them at home XP)
I realise i easily feel tired at home. that's why i must get out of the house! i hope i can find someone to go watch 17 Again with me tmr! just want to get out, and i REALLY want to watch 17 Again! MATTHEW PERRY, ZAC EFRON FTW!!!
still, its times like this where i can feel my life slipping away through my fingers. so i spent some time thinking about Ubin, and a little time sketching up Mr Rhino, but most of it was just sitting there waiting for something to happen. sadness.
i've gotten into such a momentum of doing things, that when i'm just idling by, i can feel it. like REALLY feel it. hear the tick tick ticking away of the seconds. time just passes so slowly >.< i much rather be out there doing something. that's why i must try my very best not to get a desk job in an office. i would spend so much time at the desk, my bum would probably melt and conjoin with the seat. i feel the pounds packing on already.
GkuGku (mom's brother) has asked me again about "what is your goal? do you have a target" and though i admit that i'm more active, i'm still not sure if i have a direction.
another thing i found i want to do! i want to enrol in Jap classes! if i can learn a decent amount of Jap, i can go to Japan after i ORD, and can get around without having to rely on a translator or travel guides! oh man! that sounds good! if only i can buckle down and really go and do it. maybe will ask GkingGking about it (aunt, mom's sister-in-law) (just in case you were wondering why they have such wierd names, i think its Teochew, but that's what we call them at home XP)
I realise i easily feel tired at home. that's why i must get out of the house! i hope i can find someone to go watch 17 Again with me tmr! just want to get out, and i REALLY want to watch 17 Again! MATTHEW PERRY, ZAC EFRON FTW!!!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
me no likes runny noses
i'm feeling uber sick now. wanted to post about The Principle, but will have to leave that till another time. now i've got to cope with a messed up head, not enough oxygen going to brain. i think i owe like... 3 posts already? haha. i'm very a very bad blogger >.<
anyway, off to do a little studying before tmr's ammo test. if you do drop by, give a little tag, just to know that you're tuning in to "Jonathan's Blog: Is he still posting?"
:D
anyway, off to do a little studying before tmr's ammo test. if you do drop by, give a little tag, just to know that you're tuning in to "Jonathan's Blog: Is he still posting?"
:D
Monday, April 20, 2009
My comfort food : Han's Rum Balls
Sure, it isn't my ONLY comfort food, but its the first one i've ever thought of as a comfort food :) okay. i wouldn't have said it was a bad day. because honestly, it wasn't so bad, but just felt a little low a while ago, and had a Han's Rum Ball to pick me up a little. so there ya go, my first acknowledged comfort food!
i don't like a lot though. just 1 is good, the taste of familiarity and richness, ah simple pleasures :) My mom use to get it often when i was a kid, i think she liked it too! and slowly, the taste started to grow on me, and maybe my brother, and i don't think any other place does it as smoothly or as rich as Han's.
So today has been an embarrassingly hot day, embarrassing because i sweat from the start till the end of the day! the sweat just couldn't stop! the humid, hot weather is really bothering >.<
then came home and rushed down to SMU to see the R&GAD (Rosencrantz and Guilderstern Are Dead!) people, where we were working on our characters as tradgedians. i must say, from a 3rd person's perspective, it seems like what we're doing is awesome fun, because we explore different characters and create whole people and motivations, literally from thin air. but from the perspective of myself doing all this, as amazing as it is, it isn't quite working out for me. sure, its only been 2 rehearsals so far and only 1 as an official member of the cast, but maybe because of that, i don't really feel part of the team yet. its like everyone knows each other, and its kinda hard to penetrate that clique, haha, sounds like my life story eh? always the odd one out, Mr Rhinocerous.
Mr. Rhino : awkward and clumsy, in terms of social interactions. heavy weighted steps of trying hard to do whatever he is doing. always wanting to please others. timid, polite, reserved and hesitant. tough, but not in a violent way. no one seems to understand Mr Rhino.
haha, so maybe the character didn't come out from 'thin air' per se, just a short reflection of some of the thoughts swimming in my head. i'm still giving it a shot, trying hard to bond and connect, but like all things, it takes time, and strife. must work hard to do this well, and to get to click with the others.
its not easy lah. i'm good at meeting people, but not good at establishing meaningful, long term relationships, it takes a lot of awkwardness and luck for me to blend well with people. haha, i bet you didn't know that.
ah well, till the day that i'm accepted, gotta settle with a little loneliness XP, but don't worry, i'll live :) after all, there's always Han's Rum Balls :)
i don't like a lot though. just 1 is good, the taste of familiarity and richness, ah simple pleasures :) My mom use to get it often when i was a kid, i think she liked it too! and slowly, the taste started to grow on me, and maybe my brother, and i don't think any other place does it as smoothly or as rich as Han's.
So today has been an embarrassingly hot day, embarrassing because i sweat from the start till the end of the day! the sweat just couldn't stop! the humid, hot weather is really bothering >.<
then came home and rushed down to SMU to see the R&GAD (Rosencrantz and Guilderstern Are Dead!) people, where we were working on our characters as tradgedians. i must say, from a 3rd person's perspective, it seems like what we're doing is awesome fun, because we explore different characters and create whole people and motivations, literally from thin air. but from the perspective of myself doing all this, as amazing as it is, it isn't quite working out for me. sure, its only been 2 rehearsals so far and only 1 as an official member of the cast, but maybe because of that, i don't really feel part of the team yet. its like everyone knows each other, and its kinda hard to penetrate that clique, haha, sounds like my life story eh? always the odd one out, Mr Rhinocerous.
Mr. Rhino : awkward and clumsy, in terms of social interactions. heavy weighted steps of trying hard to do whatever he is doing. always wanting to please others. timid, polite, reserved and hesitant. tough, but not in a violent way. no one seems to understand Mr Rhino.
haha, so maybe the character didn't come out from 'thin air' per se, just a short reflection of some of the thoughts swimming in my head. i'm still giving it a shot, trying hard to bond and connect, but like all things, it takes time, and strife. must work hard to do this well, and to get to click with the others.
its not easy lah. i'm good at meeting people, but not good at establishing meaningful, long term relationships, it takes a lot of awkwardness and luck for me to blend well with people. haha, i bet you didn't know that.
ah well, till the day that i'm accepted, gotta settle with a little loneliness XP, but don't worry, i'll live :) after all, there's always Han's Rum Balls :)
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Hungry, for the Video!
Just pored through 3 CDs, with lots of pictures, but mainly of Hungry, 06 LA night, best experience of my life ever. will try and post a few pictures soon, but not yet. wanna find the video too! Ms Cheah better find it!
Damn, it was a bloody amazing time. just can do it justice, need to postpone this post till another day. so keep your eye out!
Damn, it was a bloody amazing time. just can do it justice, need to postpone this post till another day. so keep your eye out!
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Showing Interest in Others
Hello ya'll, maybe this is the time where my postings start to slow, cuz i realise that finding things to post about EVERYDAY is kinda tough, and i want my posts to have a point, not just random ramblings.
but first! if you know us and what to get a good laugh at what our TA1 was like, i suggest you check out "Which TA oneeey'ohfive boy are you?" its freaking funny, but only if you know who we are!
anyway, had a good day today. Morning was at Temple, was grandparents anniversary (death or wedding, i'm not sure...) but in any case, its good to pay respects to the elders, reminds me that family is very important. Its also an opportunity for Dad's side of the family to meet up. We always see Mom's side, being under one roof and all, but for Dad, i'm glad there's this constant effort to stay close, even though we stay all over the place :)
Then headed down to school, where i got to see what the TA open house is like, from the perspective of a graduate! (But mainly i was there to play MagicTG with Mr Hsi and Mr Low) Maybe its the good performance of my cohort of TA (my COHORT, not necessarily me >.<) but it seemed like there were a lot more people here for open house compared to the last few years. the hype of novelty kinda faded, now there's finally some stats to back up the effectiveness of TA.
more importantly, Mr Hsi and Mr Low are FREAKING AWESOME players! haha, or i'm noob. but in anycase, they do have more income to invest in the game, which sad to say i can't, POOR little army boy :'( but still, can pick up quite a few pointers from them, and find ways to fine tune my deck to match up to them! haha, maybe this challenge will reignite my interest in deckbuilding! Johnny i am, rearing its head at the thought of a challenge! haha
met wendy and kenny for a while but not very long, would be seeing them for dinner.
Met up with Prerna, who just came back from India for NUS medicine interview, Varun, Kenneth and Wendy for dinner at Fish and Co. @ Parkway. Dinner was good, company fine, and it was nice to see and catch up with Prerna again! nice simple dinner to talk about randomities.
to be honest, i've felt lately that my spending time with people has kinda changed. it isn't what it used to be. hmmm there's like something lacking, like a certain expectation that is not met, but i can't quite put my finger on it. it just feels like there isn't that openness that there once were. i think its just me, there's a need to shift my mindset.
i think i may know what it is. it feels a little like no one is interested in what i have to say. haha, a little like low self-esteem, which doesn't usually come out of me (i hide it well XP) but recently, theres been this sentiment that no one is really interested in me (that sounds like such a selfish statement >.<) Maybe also because now that i've facebooked so much, i've asked so many people "hey! how are you? what's been going on in your life?" its just my way of nudging them to ask, "you've been different lately, anything you wanna share?"
ah well, i've got to entertain myself for a little while, used to have someone to give these little quirks to and work it out, but i guess i'm not so lucky anymore, haha.
Anyway, i'm really excited about planning the Ubin trip! really looking forward to getting it done! me and varun were going on and on about it just now before we split, and there sounds like so much potential for it to be damn fun! but the obstacles are starting to surface already, hope can iron the kinks out and make the trip go without a hitch :D
will keep you updated on my life now and then! i told ya'll! tell me what to post about and i will! i need topics, people!
but first! if you know us and what to get a good laugh at what our TA1 was like, i suggest you check out "Which TA oneeey'ohfive boy are you?" its freaking funny, but only if you know who we are!
anyway, had a good day today. Morning was at Temple, was grandparents anniversary (death or wedding, i'm not sure...) but in any case, its good to pay respects to the elders, reminds me that family is very important. Its also an opportunity for Dad's side of the family to meet up. We always see Mom's side, being under one roof and all, but for Dad, i'm glad there's this constant effort to stay close, even though we stay all over the place :)
Then headed down to school, where i got to see what the TA open house is like, from the perspective of a graduate! (But mainly i was there to play MagicTG with Mr Hsi and Mr Low) Maybe its the good performance of my cohort of TA (my COHORT, not necessarily me >.<) but it seemed like there were a lot more people here for open house compared to the last few years. the hype of novelty kinda faded, now there's finally some stats to back up the effectiveness of TA.
more importantly, Mr Hsi and Mr Low are FREAKING AWESOME players! haha, or i'm noob. but in anycase, they do have more income to invest in the game, which sad to say i can't, POOR little army boy :'( but still, can pick up quite a few pointers from them, and find ways to fine tune my deck to match up to them! haha, maybe this challenge will reignite my interest in deckbuilding! Johnny i am, rearing its head at the thought of a challenge! haha
met wendy and kenny for a while but not very long, would be seeing them for dinner.
Met up with Prerna, who just came back from India for NUS medicine interview, Varun, Kenneth and Wendy for dinner at Fish and Co. @ Parkway. Dinner was good, company fine, and it was nice to see and catch up with Prerna again! nice simple dinner to talk about randomities.
to be honest, i've felt lately that my spending time with people has kinda changed. it isn't what it used to be. hmmm there's like something lacking, like a certain expectation that is not met, but i can't quite put my finger on it. it just feels like there isn't that openness that there once were. i think its just me, there's a need to shift my mindset.
i think i may know what it is. it feels a little like no one is interested in what i have to say. haha, a little like low self-esteem, which doesn't usually come out of me (i hide it well XP) but recently, theres been this sentiment that no one is really interested in me (that sounds like such a selfish statement >.<) Maybe also because now that i've facebooked so much, i've asked so many people "hey! how are you? what's been going on in your life?" its just my way of nudging them to ask, "you've been different lately, anything you wanna share?"
ah well, i've got to entertain myself for a little while, used to have someone to give these little quirks to and work it out, but i guess i'm not so lucky anymore, haha.
Anyway, i'm really excited about planning the Ubin trip! really looking forward to getting it done! me and varun were going on and on about it just now before we split, and there sounds like so much potential for it to be damn fun! but the obstacles are starting to surface already, hope can iron the kinks out and make the trip go without a hitch :D
will keep you updated on my life now and then! i told ya'll! tell me what to post about and i will! i need topics, people!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Walling too much
Just came home from dinner with Jane, Wendy, Sarah, Zhi Hao, and not forgetting Naddie! dinner was good, at Al Majilis, darn, kinda wish i got the ginger tea to settle my stomach, ginger tea is good! ( i like it more for the effects than the taste, but i think it has kinda grown onto me)
stupid as this may sound, but its good to have female contact again. sure i wasn't totally engaged in tonights conversations, but its still good seeing these girls, and talking about something different for a change.
it has made me more determined than ever to plan that Ubin trip, me and varun keep talking about! so people who frequent here, i'll keep ya'll updated soon!
2 things i realise about my chatting/messaging habits. 1) i use ALOT of emoticons, i think i use it to fill up when i don't know how to express how i feel, afterall, body language communicates ideas so much more easily! but if its not emoticons than its "haha" just feels natural, but i need to cut down alot more... 2) when i start messaging i don't know how to stop XP go check out my face book page
"Jonathan wrote on _____'s Wall
Jonathan wrote on _______'s Wall
20 similar stories"
haha, that's what it's like as an Ammo Tech, too much time, so i end up using FB, not that its a bad thing :)
okay i'm tired, figure out what else to say tmr, till then, goodnight!
stupid as this may sound, but its good to have female contact again. sure i wasn't totally engaged in tonights conversations, but its still good seeing these girls, and talking about something different for a change.
it has made me more determined than ever to plan that Ubin trip, me and varun keep talking about! so people who frequent here, i'll keep ya'll updated soon!
2 things i realise about my chatting/messaging habits. 1) i use ALOT of emoticons, i think i use it to fill up when i don't know how to express how i feel, afterall, body language communicates ideas so much more easily! but if its not emoticons than its "haha" just feels natural, but i need to cut down alot more... 2) when i start messaging i don't know how to stop XP go check out my face book page
"Jonathan wrote on _____'s Wall
Jonathan wrote on _______'s Wall
20 similar stories"
haha, that's what it's like as an Ammo Tech, too much time, so i end up using FB, not that its a bad thing :)
okay i'm tired, figure out what else to say tmr, till then, goodnight!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Best friends, ChanMon
"PIPE PIPE PIPE DOWN! What's the matter with you people? this woman was trying to do a nice thing for you, and look at her... She's a MESS! Her hair's not brushed, she's got dark circle on her eyes, chocolate on her face and she still looks st-st-stunning!" - Chandler Bing (Cha-nan-dler Bong)
I still love Monica and Chandler. yes i am jealous. :']
I still love Monica and Chandler. yes i am jealous. :']
Monday, April 13, 2009
Go Exploring
I'm kinda tired, and got Much swimming in my head, but i guess its important to keep an update of what i'm doing, will be doing, just because i should.
off the cuff, decided to head on down to school and meet ximin, though that didn't quite work out, but in the end managed to catch up a little with Junior Nad, Kelly and even Yanting, so that was good nonetheless. then had dinner with ZT, or rather, i had dinner as he watched me eat. he's changed, a good changed, more open and more relaxed than i remembered him. though i like the new ZT, more adventurous, and if possible i wouldn't mind getting him as a buddy to go try out new things (that does not sound gay at all)
but more importantly, he threw some thoughts into my face which i would not have done so alone, so i'm appreciative of that. too many things swimming, just swimming around in the head of mine. need to figure things out, but i've packed my schedule quite tight for the next few days. not much time to sit around and just reflect. some how i think i see it as 'moping' and i don't want to be moping. i'd do anything just to not slow down. but i think that's what i need to do. for the time being.
after everything, still she leaves me with contradictions and internal struggles. never failing to make me think, assess and figure out who i am and how to deal with things. hmm... thanks.
tomorrow have got an interview and test with NTU for Sociology, fingers crossed! if these are the only replies i'm getting, then i've got to try extra hard (though i must admit, so far i haven't really done much... or anything for that matter) but yeah. 2 years army, go exploring.
off the cuff, decided to head on down to school and meet ximin, though that didn't quite work out, but in the end managed to catch up a little with Junior Nad, Kelly and even Yanting, so that was good nonetheless. then had dinner with ZT, or rather, i had dinner as he watched me eat. he's changed, a good changed, more open and more relaxed than i remembered him. though i like the new ZT, more adventurous, and if possible i wouldn't mind getting him as a buddy to go try out new things (that does not sound gay at all)
but more importantly, he threw some thoughts into my face which i would not have done so alone, so i'm appreciative of that. too many things swimming, just swimming around in the head of mine. need to figure things out, but i've packed my schedule quite tight for the next few days. not much time to sit around and just reflect. some how i think i see it as 'moping' and i don't want to be moping. i'd do anything just to not slow down. but i think that's what i need to do. for the time being.
after everything, still she leaves me with contradictions and internal struggles. never failing to make me think, assess and figure out who i am and how to deal with things. hmm... thanks.
tomorrow have got an interview and test with NTU for Sociology, fingers crossed! if these are the only replies i'm getting, then i've got to try extra hard (though i must admit, so far i haven't really done much... or anything for that matter) but yeah. 2 years army, go exploring.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
the constant ache
had an enjoyable sunday afternoon. went down to RJ to audition for a part in a play. the audition was a mess, haha, but it's not that heartbr-ache-ing if i don't get the part. its not like i have that much at st-ache there, its just a one off thing, if i get it that'd be great, but if not its okay :)
but what was definitiely more enjoyable were the little excercises, like action/reaction or roleplay. really has reaw-ache-ened my interest in drama, that's what i missed, letting lose and forgetting the world for a while. we did an exercise where we kinda had to improv a shakespearan scene, me and partner did Romeo and Juliet, she was a little... stressed, so it didn't turn out so good, but the rest were good nonetheless.
then met raghav down at raffles city, didn't have anywhere in particular in mind, just wanted to br-ache the monotony of doing nothing on weekends (more for him than for me though) my weekends will have the play rehearsals if all goes well. haha, i hope i m-ache it!
spent the whole day going around as red as a lobster, and painful painful patches all over the body, ahh well, that's the price paid for enjoying yourself to the max, you must pay the price if you want to have your c-ache and eat it too!
but overall its been a good day. not too stressful, a decent pace.
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i realise it is not an overwhelming feeling of unhappiness, but in everything i do, every where i go, the little pangs hit, like a terrible ache. life goes on, but the aches shall be there for a while.
but what was definitiely more enjoyable were the little excercises, like action/reaction or roleplay. really has reaw-ache-ened my interest in drama, that's what i missed, letting lose and forgetting the world for a while. we did an exercise where we kinda had to improv a shakespearan scene, me and partner did Romeo and Juliet, she was a little... stressed, so it didn't turn out so good, but the rest were good nonetheless.
then met raghav down at raffles city, didn't have anywhere in particular in mind, just wanted to br-ache the monotony of doing nothing on weekends (more for him than for me though) my weekends will have the play rehearsals if all goes well. haha, i hope i m-ache it!
spent the whole day going around as red as a lobster, and painful painful patches all over the body, ahh well, that's the price paid for enjoying yourself to the max, you must pay the price if you want to have your c-ache and eat it too!
but overall its been a good day. not too stressful, a decent pace.
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i realise it is not an overwhelming feeling of unhappiness, but in everything i do, every where i go, the little pangs hit, like a terrible ache. life goes on, but the aches shall be there for a while.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Buffy
i couldn't let it end so selfishly.
so now i think about Buffy, may peace be with her.
"You would love with that big heart of yours, love even though it hurt, even though your body was wracked with pain, even as your spine jutted out awkwardly… They would all be covered by a rich, soft coat of love."
Buffy, thank you. Thank you for the lessons your taught, and the gleam in your eye, quiet and reserved, you reminded me of someone not very far from yourself. Do watch over her, she shares a pain not very unlike yours.
so now i think about Buffy, may peace be with her.
"You would love with that big heart of yours, love even though it hurt, even though your body was wracked with pain, even as your spine jutted out awkwardly… They would all be covered by a rich, soft coat of love."
Buffy, thank you. Thank you for the lessons your taught, and the gleam in your eye, quiet and reserved, you reminded me of someone not very far from yourself. Do watch over her, she shares a pain not very unlike yours.
pumping a dry tap
Saturday, good day with the brothers at Sentosa, quite hesitant about going at first, a little sick of Sentosa too, but glad that i went down and had a good time with Marcus, Varun, Eugene, Firdaus and not forgetting Kenneth. these are the good times, the crazy times, that i remember because of the painful sunburns i have on my back now. haha. still awesome day. tired, but good :)
then on the way back home, the thought creeps back, and i don't know what to do with it.
i wish i could just let it out, like just force it all out in one final unhappiness. i tried. seriously, i REALLY TRIED. but i got nothing. i find myself in this state where i can't really express what i want to. like feeling the nose itch, but unable to sneeze.
It's slowly sinking in. i'm slowly realising what i've done. it had to be done. i didn't want to do it. but i did.
i really wish i knew what to say. I'm so scared, beyond scared. Frightened by my reaction. i can't get it out right. something like this should not be lingering, it cannot linger.
i saw the 2 and i read them again and again. i went to find everything i ever recieved and all the pictures, looking again and again. thinking over the countless things said and done. i searched my mail for the letters, the wonderful, amazing letters, speaking across the oceans. i remember the calls, the long, the short, the crying, the silence.
there's so much, there's just SO MUCH. i don't get why the hell i can't let it out. its a sedation, a numbing, that just dilutes the feelings, and prolongs it too.
there's a lot of history at work.
i'm going off to try and pump the tap. what else can i do?
then on the way back home, the thought creeps back, and i don't know what to do with it.
i wish i could just let it out, like just force it all out in one final unhappiness. i tried. seriously, i REALLY TRIED. but i got nothing. i find myself in this state where i can't really express what i want to. like feeling the nose itch, but unable to sneeze.
It's slowly sinking in. i'm slowly realising what i've done. it had to be done. i didn't want to do it. but i did.
i really wish i knew what to say. I'm so scared, beyond scared. Frightened by my reaction. i can't get it out right. something like this should not be lingering, it cannot linger.
i saw the 2 and i read them again and again. i went to find everything i ever recieved and all the pictures, looking again and again. thinking over the countless things said and done. i searched my mail for the letters, the wonderful, amazing letters, speaking across the oceans. i remember the calls, the long, the short, the crying, the silence.
there's so much, there's just SO MUCH. i don't get why the hell i can't let it out. its a sedation, a numbing, that just dilutes the feelings, and prolongs it too.
there's a lot of history at work.
i'm going off to try and pump the tap. what else can i do?
Trickling
I hate how the phone ringing sounds like teardrops trickling, when you don't pick up the phone.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
The 15 year old
Just came back from dinner with Aisyah, Amorn and Amanda. (only when typing this out do i realise their name all starts with A! LOL the A Team, haha) Haven't seen them in a long time, and aisyah and amanda look lovely, while amorn looks... actually a little like he jumped out of a manga... haha must be the hair...
Anyway, they were the same batch of students as me, so all of us came into TJ in 2005, but they've gotten the head start in life, while i went through 2 more years in TA, so in actual fact, they aren't really 'seniors' but more like peers, but older.
yet, in their presence, i will always be the little kid (yes yes, make your BIG/SMALL jokes now XP) and i even feel it in my behaviour when i'm with them! i let loose a little more, i am willing to be a bit more charming, more ego, more silly, and just more of a kid, then i would be with my other friends, and needless to say, the juniors.
maybe its just me taking my role as the little TA kid of the group again. aManda termed it "hegemony" (makes me think of Sharuum, helps that s/he's my current wallpaper) and it means to have a dominance of one social group over another. what I THINK it means, is to basically suscribe to what the dominating social system in the group, and for me that is to be the less mature kiddy guy, despite having had my own share of growing up done.
still, i enjoy playing the munchkin of the group, showing maturity only when i have to, if not its fun indulging as the little one :D
Hopefully the 05-06 Drama Gathering turns out well! i can't wait to see some of the ole drama people again! Leandra, Serena, Raf (amanda! hahaha), and i realise we don't have much guys in drama... much less GUY guys... Why Shouvik! why did you go away :'( still, can't wait! :D
Anyway, they were the same batch of students as me, so all of us came into TJ in 2005, but they've gotten the head start in life, while i went through 2 more years in TA, so in actual fact, they aren't really 'seniors' but more like peers, but older.
yet, in their presence, i will always be the little kid (yes yes, make your BIG/SMALL jokes now XP) and i even feel it in my behaviour when i'm with them! i let loose a little more, i am willing to be a bit more charming, more ego, more silly, and just more of a kid, then i would be with my other friends, and needless to say, the juniors.
maybe its just me taking my role as the little TA kid of the group again. aManda termed it "hegemony" (makes me think of Sharuum, helps that s/he's my current wallpaper) and it means to have a dominance of one social group over another. what I THINK it means, is to basically suscribe to what the dominating social system in the group, and for me that is to be the less mature kiddy guy, despite having had my own share of growing up done.
still, i enjoy playing the munchkin of the group, showing maturity only when i have to, if not its fun indulging as the little one :D
Hopefully the 05-06 Drama Gathering turns out well! i can't wait to see some of the ole drama people again! Leandra, Serena, Raf (amanda! hahaha), and i realise we don't have much guys in drama... much less GUY guys... Why Shouvik! why did you go away :'( still, can't wait! :D
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Emergency! change of plans!
I've never been the type to put up pictures on my blog, just always though that words were enough to say it all, but now, like all changes, i'm gonna do a lot more photo posts than i usually do :D after all a picture says a thousand words! and here's the first thousand to kick it off!
I like breaking convention, doing things completely unexpected, at the best of times. sometimes i end up with wierd looks, but i've gotten use to it now :) after all, sometimes, having no shame is a good thing!
just look at this picture! funny as hell from an instructional diagram standpoint, but if someone were to actually do it, man would he get heat from everyone >.< i want to figure this out. i want to figure out how people think, and how they easily assume things, simple and complex, and i want to break that convention. Don't want to do the same old thing that everyone else has done, be just like the Joker, doing the unimaginable.
of course there's the very practical motivation of just wanting to be noticed, and hoping for attention, but who wouldn't want attention some of the time? its a human acceptance thing, we want to be validated for our actions, so that's fine with me :)
it was awesome with kenneth around, another kindred soul unafraid to break the usual trend, and have the BALLS to do what others would turn and say "siao!", "crazy!", "LAME". haha, cannot forget TA2, studying for exams, or the infocenter "portrait" so many countless RANDOM things we did in our TA life, that's why he's definitely one of the friends i want to hang on to, so that the spontaneity will last, hopefully even till we are 40+ and having our mid life-crises, and need to find something crazy and random to do!
its hard finding someone so open and willing to put himself in a situation that is new and different. people like that are hard to come by, if you're one, then please do tell me, lets go do something random together!
and to end it all off, here's EMERGENCY! BREAK GLASS!
I like breaking convention, doing things completely unexpected, at the best of times. sometimes i end up with wierd looks, but i've gotten use to it now :) after all, sometimes, having no shame is a good thing!just look at this picture! funny as hell from an instructional diagram standpoint, but if someone were to actually do it, man would he get heat from everyone >.< i want to figure this out. i want to figure out how people think, and how they easily assume things, simple and complex, and i want to break that convention. Don't want to do the same old thing that everyone else has done, be just like the Joker, doing the unimaginable.
of course there's the very practical motivation of just wanting to be noticed, and hoping for attention, but who wouldn't want attention some of the time? its a human acceptance thing, we want to be validated for our actions, so that's fine with me :)
it was awesome with kenneth around, another kindred soul unafraid to break the usual trend, and have the BALLS to do what others would turn and say "siao!", "crazy!", "LAME". haha, cannot forget TA2, studying for exams, or the infocenter "portrait" so many countless RANDOM things we did in our TA life, that's why he's definitely one of the friends i want to hang on to, so that the spontaneity will last, hopefully even till we are 40+ and having our mid life-crises, and need to find something crazy and random to do!
its hard finding someone so open and willing to put himself in a situation that is new and different. people like that are hard to come by, if you're one, then please do tell me, lets go do something random together!
and to end it all off, here's EMERGENCY! BREAK GLASS!
Monday, April 06, 2009
Liar Game
I think my curiosity in psychology was also sparked off by Akiyama-san, ingenious character from the fictitious world of Liar Game. Some of you might have heard of it before, but most of you prolly haven't. Anyway, Liar Game is a Manga and was made into a live action show (much better than the manga in my opinion, except for the ending...) and it really looks into the behavior of greed and selfishness exhibited by people. Sure, its a manga, and some of the qualities are highly exaggerated, but its very reflective on the society we live in, things to think about when you go about in your daily life
liar game
plus, it doesn't hurt that the main character is really cute :D
people just fascinate me, at least that's the only real thing that i can say right now. i can't remember what else i wanted to blog in this post, cuz i was too busy watching Liar Game, haha, maybe some other time my blog will be more... wholesome :D
liar gameplus, it doesn't hurt that the main character is really cute :D
people just fascinate me, at least that's the only real thing that i can say right now. i can't remember what else i wanted to blog in this post, cuz i was too busy watching Liar Game, haha, maybe some other time my blog will be more... wholesome :D
Sunday, April 05, 2009
SCC&TASCO&D&D&SW&S
SC Camp & TASC Outing & Dungeons & Dragons & Social Work & SLEEP
super tired now, and yet i choose to blog before i get some rest, haha, at least i'm posting right?
Dungeons and Dragons was awe-freaking-some (courtesy of Eugene :D) going crazy over the lame choices we made (HAM!) and the enemies we fought (WOLVES!) and all the stupid NPC's we met (INDIAN BLACKSMITH! f*** your mother!) it was damn fun! haha, even to complete newbie's such as Marcus, Matthew and I, picking it up was real simple, especially since after teh basic groundwork, most of the things were adapted on the spot, that makes this a really flexible game, able to adapt to our constraints (i foresee time will be one of them!) and our personalities. Its one of those things that would take hours to describe, but once you're in it, you never look back :D
Then with an hour of sleep, headed down to rag's place, thanks for the lovely Thosai's! i love freshly cooked, homemade thosai's. i think i finally understand why indians (and italians) say that their mom makes the best *insert group* food. Aunty Jane's Thosai was slightly different from Raghav's family's, very subtle, but definitely there, and i can imagine growing up on such food, you wouldn't think anyone else's is better.
Then from there, we collected the food at Little India, and proceeded on to the... the... okay so i forgot the name, but it was an old folks place nonetheless, and helped served food, just like cookhouse aunty/uncles! haha, feels interesting to be on the other side of the serving counter for once. still considering whether i should continue, cuz i still want to explore some other things, but social work definitely should be in my plans for the future.
Note to self: i want to post about the old folks home, entitled "waiting" or somewhere along these lines, when i remember/ got the time, will elaborate.
at this point of my post i realise i forgot to post about SC campfire and TASC Outing, it was good, as all TASC outings are :D, but maybe with the TASC there, they felt too awkward turtle, so i didn't really know whether to go around chatting up the seniors and 32nd, did a little, but felt bad and went back to the TASC often, haha, we are in an awkward position lah, neither here nor there, "the first, the last, the only" heh. still, nice to see them all again!
then off to Cafe Cartel for Half Priced Cheesecakes, on Half washed plates. yes yes, gross-ness. still the company was good, and we click with each other after going through so much, so we a good bunch of friends, with lots of bets and challenges to redeem years later :)
what a wonderfully fruitful and fulfilling weekend, "eh, eugene, i can't do this every weekend... we getting old ah?" "haha, yah" every once in a while can chiong like this, but will surely burn out, but its good to do so when we can :D these are the things that we'll remember!
super tired now, and yet i choose to blog before i get some rest, haha, at least i'm posting right?
Dungeons and Dragons was awe-freaking-some (courtesy of Eugene :D) going crazy over the lame choices we made (HAM!) and the enemies we fought (WOLVES!) and all the stupid NPC's we met (INDIAN BLACKSMITH! f*** your mother!) it was damn fun! haha, even to complete newbie's such as Marcus, Matthew and I, picking it up was real simple, especially since after teh basic groundwork, most of the things were adapted on the spot, that makes this a really flexible game, able to adapt to our constraints (i foresee time will be one of them!) and our personalities. Its one of those things that would take hours to describe, but once you're in it, you never look back :D
Then with an hour of sleep, headed down to rag's place, thanks for the lovely Thosai's! i love freshly cooked, homemade thosai's. i think i finally understand why indians (and italians) say that their mom makes the best *insert group* food. Aunty Jane's Thosai was slightly different from Raghav's family's, very subtle, but definitely there, and i can imagine growing up on such food, you wouldn't think anyone else's is better.
Then from there, we collected the food at Little India, and proceeded on to the... the... okay so i forgot the name, but it was an old folks place nonetheless, and helped served food, just like cookhouse aunty/uncles! haha, feels interesting to be on the other side of the serving counter for once. still considering whether i should continue, cuz i still want to explore some other things, but social work definitely should be in my plans for the future.
Note to self: i want to post about the old folks home, entitled "waiting" or somewhere along these lines, when i remember/ got the time, will elaborate.
at this point of my post i realise i forgot to post about SC campfire and TASC Outing, it was good, as all TASC outings are :D, but maybe with the TASC there, they felt too awkward turtle, so i didn't really know whether to go around chatting up the seniors and 32nd, did a little, but felt bad and went back to the TASC often, haha, we are in an awkward position lah, neither here nor there, "the first, the last, the only" heh. still, nice to see them all again!
then off to Cafe Cartel for Half Priced Cheesecakes, on Half washed plates. yes yes, gross-ness. still the company was good, and we click with each other after going through so much, so we a good bunch of friends, with lots of bets and challenges to redeem years later :)
what a wonderfully fruitful and fulfilling weekend, "eh, eugene, i can't do this every weekend... we getting old ah?" "haha, yah" every once in a while can chiong like this, but will surely burn out, but its good to do so when we can :D these are the things that we'll remember!
Saturday, April 04, 2009
Night Drive
Bukit Batok Driving Center, the beginning of possibly quite the scary responsibility, all part of my initiation into manhood. I went to enroll for driving lessons today.
I guess most people don't give a second thought about driving, it's one of those skills that everyone else seems to have, so you should learn how to drive too. so that's how i approached it, up till the point my mom had a minor freakout with me applying for driving lessons now.
I love my mom to bits, but its kinda freaky when she suddenly unloads her maternal worry all at once, haha. but its important to know what you're getting yourself into when you put yourself behind the wheel to a "high potential lethal machine" - quote mom. but it's true, accidents happen all the time, and you hear all about them in the papers, but yet we don't really consider, what if that were you?
when you drive you are not only responsible for yourself, but the safety of everyone in, and outside, the vehicle. not only must you get from A to B, but you need to pay attention to the road, other drivers, where you're going, and still focus such that you're not distracted by the other passengers.
I'm too used to having so many drivers in the family, i almost assume its second nature to drive. like a rite of passage, my dad learnt to drive to drive his family around, my mom learnt to drive to get in and out of Wolskell Road, and now i want to drive to feel like a contributing member to my family, driving is more than a skill to me.
haha, you can prolly tell that this responsibility is kinda starting to weigh on me, but i guess that's the kind of mentality i should adopt if i'm going to be a responsible driver. Time to grow up a bit, mature more, and understand that there are times in life you gotta let loose and have fun, but there are times like these where you have to buckle down and take control of the wheel.
i'm going to have fun driving, but cannot forget the importance of taking this seriously :)
I guess most people don't give a second thought about driving, it's one of those skills that everyone else seems to have, so you should learn how to drive too. so that's how i approached it, up till the point my mom had a minor freakout with me applying for driving lessons now.
I love my mom to bits, but its kinda freaky when she suddenly unloads her maternal worry all at once, haha. but its important to know what you're getting yourself into when you put yourself behind the wheel to a "high potential lethal machine" - quote mom. but it's true, accidents happen all the time, and you hear all about them in the papers, but yet we don't really consider, what if that were you?
when you drive you are not only responsible for yourself, but the safety of everyone in, and outside, the vehicle. not only must you get from A to B, but you need to pay attention to the road, other drivers, where you're going, and still focus such that you're not distracted by the other passengers.
I'm too used to having so many drivers in the family, i almost assume its second nature to drive. like a rite of passage, my dad learnt to drive to drive his family around, my mom learnt to drive to get in and out of Wolskell Road, and now i want to drive to feel like a contributing member to my family, driving is more than a skill to me.
haha, you can prolly tell that this responsibility is kinda starting to weigh on me, but i guess that's the kind of mentality i should adopt if i'm going to be a responsible driver. Time to grow up a bit, mature more, and understand that there are times in life you gotta let loose and have fun, but there are times like these where you have to buckle down and take control of the wheel.
i'm going to have fun driving, but cannot forget the importance of taking this seriously :)
Friday, April 03, 2009
Nut shot
its one of those things that you can't help but share! I'm glad to be alive where you know you're male even in computer games.
ouch, i hope you don't get your own nut shot :D
Shall wii play?
I love fridays! half hour earlier from SOA, and no need to worry about waking early to get to school tomorrow! YES! hahaha
and hence i can play the wii guilt-free! no impending doom felt from tests, and no applications to Uni to rush! HOWEVER, did get a message from Mom, about a call from SMU about arrangement for my Info Systems Technology interview. just saying it is a mouthful "Info-Systems Technology". It 'sounded' interesting when browsing through the possible courses, i can't even remember which choice it was >.< soo... will have to do a little reading up on that i guess! but hopefully its not too soon, will have to call the guy tmr.
Still! i got my chance to play the wii just now! Super Smash Bro.'s Brawl is just the best! such simple button combinations, but yet such a rewarding game, especially when played with others. and though heng woon has no clue what she's doing, at least we had a bit of fun unlocking CAPTAIN FALCON, and SONIC! captain falcon is freaking awesome, he may be vulnerable when building special attacks, but his attacks knock the stuffing out of every guy on the field! Remember kids, FALCON PUNCH! the solution to teenage pregnancy :)
But anyway, for now, i'm gonna enjoy my friday! make a few arrangements for weekend plans, and get an early night (sorta, haha)
this weekend!
Sat: morning breakfast with family hopefully!
afternoon might be rest at home, or maybe meet fidot, depending on who's free
night, council campfire, followed by TASC outing, followed by some of the guys coming over to my place (supposed to be lester's house, but, long story)
SLEEPOVER Whee!
sunday: if i'm not too hammered, hopefully i'll be perky enough to attend the social work with raghav! haven't done this sorta thing in a while, a little initimidated, and a little excited :D
the rest of the day i guess i should study some of my Ammunition stuff, i still wanna do well i guess, cuz its important to do enough so that i'm in a more favourable position after finishing the course. wouldn't want to slave aways at sai kang!
To the weekend! here i come!
and hence i can play the wii guilt-free! no impending doom felt from tests, and no applications to Uni to rush! HOWEVER, did get a message from Mom, about a call from SMU about arrangement for my Info Systems Technology interview. just saying it is a mouthful "Info-Systems Technology". It 'sounded' interesting when browsing through the possible courses, i can't even remember which choice it was >.< soo... will have to do a little reading up on that i guess! but hopefully its not too soon, will have to call the guy tmr.
Still! i got my chance to play the wii just now! Super Smash Bro.'s Brawl is just the best! such simple button combinations, but yet such a rewarding game, especially when played with others. and though heng woon has no clue what she's doing, at least we had a bit of fun unlocking CAPTAIN FALCON, and SONIC! captain falcon is freaking awesome, he may be vulnerable when building special attacks, but his attacks knock the stuffing out of every guy on the field! Remember kids, FALCON PUNCH! the solution to teenage pregnancy :)
But anyway, for now, i'm gonna enjoy my friday! make a few arrangements for weekend plans, and get an early night (sorta, haha)
this weekend!
Sat: morning breakfast with family hopefully!
afternoon might be rest at home, or maybe meet fidot, depending on who's free
night, council campfire, followed by TASC outing, followed by some of the guys coming over to my place (supposed to be lester's house, but, long story)
SLEEPOVER Whee!
sunday: if i'm not too hammered, hopefully i'll be perky enough to attend the social work with raghav! haven't done this sorta thing in a while, a little initimidated, and a little excited :D
the rest of the day i guess i should study some of my Ammunition stuff, i still wanna do well i guess, cuz its important to do enough so that i'm in a more favourable position after finishing the course. wouldn't want to slave aways at sai kang!
To the weekend! here i come!
Thursday, April 02, 2009
Nobody wants to hear you sing about tradgedy
how apt! my title for today is lyrics from Disloyal Order of the Water Buffaloes - Fall Out Boy, looks like my blog is all about FOB nowadays, i'm not a crazed fanboy, but you gotta admit, their music is awesome! (testimonials from Raghav and Eugene if you need :D)
i look at some of the old posts, and actually even the previous one (though prolly not so much) are a little emo. have the tendency to do that when i come to a dark, blue, gloomy blogskin, even if i did like the "Giant in the City" imagery! so there was the tendency to come to my blog and lament. BUT NO MORE! that's the whole idea with the revamp! i would like to come and post anything here, but since its more like a journal of my life, i'd like to fill it with happy memories, things that i want to look back and laugh at when i'm older :)
Studying at SOA bores me, but i must say that life is being quite good to me with this posting. sure, studying sucks, but i get to use facebook all day XP and i'm sure that's annoying the hell out of some guys with stay in vocations and TEXTBOOKS to study, haha. and for girls, they wonder, why the hell is jon so free! posting on facebook all day, SHEESH! hahaha (actually i imagine wendy saying this, cuz she's all day on facebook watching me prance around on walls and quizzes, haha)
also, i think i'm quite blessed with the workload. no homework! just the way i like it. and i pay a reasonable amount of attention in class, such that even with minimal study last night (yes yes i was online FB-ing and surfing) i managed to be top 3 in class! (fine, so it was third, SHEESH) well, as long as it is good enough for me to get a "good job" after SOA, then i'm happy enough.
not to mention having lots of time to myself after class! just came back from a jog, bleh tired, but i guess after BMT, i'm kinda getting use to it. gotta get my stupid silver for IPPT (pass is 12 points and silver is 15, might as well just aim for silver! $100 too!) but i also know its good for me, if i want to improve on my Gorgeous figure :D
So good times ahead for me, at least i can foresee for this week + weekend, its gonna be awesome, D&D, Council Campfire, maybe i can slot in 1 more thing... maybe should do something with family!
i'm very bad at finding things to talk about. my blog usually dies when i run out of things to say, so if you're interested in hearing things about my life, tag! then i'll try to dedicate posts to it :) just like a radio show.
Jon Heng signing off! -Bzzt- -Bzzt- *no more reception*
i look at some of the old posts, and actually even the previous one (though prolly not so much) are a little emo. have the tendency to do that when i come to a dark, blue, gloomy blogskin, even if i did like the "Giant in the City" imagery! so there was the tendency to come to my blog and lament. BUT NO MORE! that's the whole idea with the revamp! i would like to come and post anything here, but since its more like a journal of my life, i'd like to fill it with happy memories, things that i want to look back and laugh at when i'm older :)
Studying at SOA bores me, but i must say that life is being quite good to me with this posting. sure, studying sucks, but i get to use facebook all day XP and i'm sure that's annoying the hell out of some guys with stay in vocations and TEXTBOOKS to study, haha. and for girls, they wonder, why the hell is jon so free! posting on facebook all day, SHEESH! hahaha (actually i imagine wendy saying this, cuz she's all day on facebook watching me prance around on walls and quizzes, haha)
also, i think i'm quite blessed with the workload. no homework! just the way i like it. and i pay a reasonable amount of attention in class, such that even with minimal study last night (yes yes i was online FB-ing and surfing) i managed to be top 3 in class! (fine, so it was third, SHEESH) well, as long as it is good enough for me to get a "good job" after SOA, then i'm happy enough.
not to mention having lots of time to myself after class! just came back from a jog, bleh tired, but i guess after BMT, i'm kinda getting use to it. gotta get my stupid silver for IPPT (pass is 12 points and silver is 15, might as well just aim for silver! $100 too!) but i also know its good for me, if i want to improve on my Gorgeous figure :D
So good times ahead for me, at least i can foresee for this week + weekend, its gonna be awesome, D&D, Council Campfire, maybe i can slot in 1 more thing... maybe should do something with family!
i'm very bad at finding things to talk about. my blog usually dies when i run out of things to say, so if you're interested in hearing things about my life, tag! then i'll try to dedicate posts to it :) just like a radio show.
Jon Heng signing off! -Bzzt- -Bzzt- *no more reception*
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Displeasurable certainty
It was a nice time not collecting our A level results, i mean, i wouldn't have to face the results be it good or bad, and can just enjoy being "in transition" where there is nothing bad weighing you down, that's a nice place to be, but i wouldn't want to stay there forever.
Once i got my results, they were less than ideal. they were just downright horrible, but as disappointing as it IS, at least, now that i know the facts, i can do something about it. With my poor results i still try to apply for Uni, see if i'm good enough. if i'm not, then knowing my results give me the opportunity to move forward, and either retake my A levels, or give in, and maybe take my degree elsewhere.
so, please don't "spare the rod, (and) spoil the child", i'd rather learn my lesson, and move on, if today turns out bad, at least i can hope for a brighter tomorrow :)
Once i got my results, they were less than ideal. they were just downright horrible, but as disappointing as it IS, at least, now that i know the facts, i can do something about it. With my poor results i still try to apply for Uni, see if i'm good enough. if i'm not, then knowing my results give me the opportunity to move forward, and either retake my A levels, or give in, and maybe take my degree elsewhere.
so, please don't "spare the rod, (and) spoil the child", i'd rather learn my lesson, and move on, if today turns out bad, at least i can hope for a brighter tomorrow :)
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