Ohana

I've come back from council camp, so i guess that is something worth blogging about. I forgot that council is not just about what you can do for the school, or the things you can change or even the events you plan. Fundamentally, council is about the people.

Perhaps, with my relisation, i have a few more things to consider before i jump into anything, or even jump to conclusions. but those stuff i can/should/need to handle on my own, no need to say too much here.

Council camp was quite good. sure there was a lot of pain involved, with all the physical training and the time limits and such. and even today, on tuesday, i believe some parts of my body are still sleeping and aching. However, there were times where it really pulled out the team spirit of the whole group, some of which i do agree with, but some that i do not necessarily mesh with.

I learnt something from council camp. on the night of the campfire, many of the seniors came back. i recognised people all the way from the 25th to the 29th Councils, and i bet they recognised me too. Yet, i didn't seem to be able to talk and really connect with them. there were a few of course, like some of the 28th, after all, they were the ones that conduct my nomination period, and i am grateful for them being there. the one that surprised me quite a bit was the 29th, perhaps they were busy trying to catch up with each other, but i kind of felt like i did not know them anymore, and neither did they know me.

the thought has passed through my head that even though i may know a lot of people, how many of these relationships are deep, and how many more are transient. When i leave this school, is what i am going to leave behind purely material, or will people remember me for who i am, and for being their friend?

I know where i want to start. I want to really get to know my Babies, because sure it might have only been a game back last year, but they have grown on me in a way, and seeing htem always makes me cheery! Speaking of which, it was yanting's birthday on Sunday (last day of camp) and it was nice to be able to spend it with her (even if it was while we were all half dead) and give her a present.

TJ has become my home, and i would like to create the people i deem family. When i leave TJ, it will be this people i can always talk to again, even when not in school boundaries. That is the kind of meaningful relations i would like to make, and it needs to start with me.

I just keep learning and learning. there is just so muc more to know.

Ohana~ means family, and family means no body gets left behind :)