A need for more time and space

Hello! have not been updating that much this week because there were so many days that i came home utterly exhausted and lacking energy to update my blog. but now i'm back! well for a while, cuz tomorrow i'm going for a family trip to Malacca, M'sia, for a weekend of good food and reconnecting with the family :) its gonna be so nostalgic! just like when i was younger, wake up at 5 am, sleep in the car all the way to M'sia, yes yes!

I like having lots to do, but it gets tough when things clash. i originally thought wednesday would be free, since no plans were made, but Syak sprang a little surprise on me, with wednesday DINNER! the reason i'm so stunned by this is cuz Syak's curfew after JC has been really... tough, to say the least. so i haven't been able to meet her after SOA all this while, plus everytime there was an activity we were supposed to go together, either of us would be unable to make it. Sadness... but that's why seeing her again on Wed was so great, gave us a chance to reconnect a little, and make plans to meet for longer.

Blah, after a short dinner with Syak, Jane, Sian, Hui Min, Wendy and Sarah ($6!!! like seriously! that was cheap and good XD i should go out with them more often!) had to rush off for R&Gad rehearsal at SMU, and i guess my mind just wasn't there, felt like we have to meet so often because there isn't proper direction and structure to each rehearsal. if there was only some form of structure.... sigh... i should really bring this up to Cheng, but part of me doesn't want to come off as some arrogant prick telling him how to do his job, but the other part also can't really be bothered... sigh... maybe i should approach isaac? then it might be easier to break it for Cheng? i dunno. but i guess i will have a 4 hour bus ride back on Sunday to think about it. (Note to self, bring paper and writing materials.)

Was intending to plan a gathering for the POP boys on thurs, but with the last minute cancellations and the 'having errands to run' (i'm looking at you ZhongTing!) plans kind of fell through, and decided to move our plans to next tuesday! such that we can see both Nick Lau and Marc (if they don't PS me again >.<) and their newly fashioned botak heads :D looking forward to that. So instead of my plan, ZT decides to invite me and varun to dinner at Tampines1, just like how we used to (just that not in Tampines1 of course) and of course its fun laughing at varun, or joking about ZT's insecurities, or me being (not-so-) Fat (-anymore) :D and had a decent dinner at Carl's Juniors, yum. Mmmm... Guacamole *drools the Homer way*

A funny comment came from Varun, "i didn't really make much friends in BMT. I have BMT friends, and the pre-BMT friends, if i make more friends in BMT, then i will lose some of the pre-BMT freinds" or something to that effect. I kinda get what he's getting at though. i mean, with Syak going off in July, Raghav too, Dim's already gone, and in fact is going FURTHER, girls are starting school, we're all drifting in our directions, the true test of our friendships are just beginning.

Then another thing hit me. How we make such friends in the first place. I'm so close to the bunch of guys, consisting of Gene, Marcus, Varun, Kenny, ZT, Fidot, Gavin, just to name a few, is because we used to spend so much time together, we had all the free time in the world to do stupid things and create memories and get to know each other better, things we would like to know, and things we were better off not knowing, its a package, that can only reveal itself with time. I'm thinking that my event planning doesn't have to be as ambitious as doing some expedition or cycling trip, what is important is that we have the space and time to sit around (we don't necessarily have to sit, standing or running is fine with me too (: ) and talk and catch up and reminisce and make fun of Varun.

Good Friends spend time together, Great Friends spend TOO MUCH time with each other.

There's a need for more time and space, to meet up and just connect. without the luxury of school, and with the added weight of more responsibility, it gets tough to have much time to spend with the people we hold close. so that's why i must make time for them, friends, and for this weekend, its all about the family!

There's love that needs to be shared :)