Indifferrent. Selfish. Content.

sometimes its just better to ignore the things around me, as it saves a lot of unwanted, and unneccesary pain. Its just easier to surround youself with joy and comfort, and appreciate the things you have instead of lamenting over what you dont.

so that is where the selfishness kicks in. yes it would be selfish to ignore certain things and certain issues even if it involves you. on the other hand, it doesnt neccesarily mean that if you get involved it would become better. its all about judgment. there are bound to be things that are important and you can change, but there are just certain things that are pointless and immature, and just ignoring it would be the best option.

surrounding myself with the people i enjoy being around, or finding time to do things that you enjoy. just staying content and stable. there are many things to worry about and there are resposibilities i need to tend to, but the best way to handle everything would be just to stay positive, and to be upbeat.

Mardi Gras was a blast! the drama performance was okay, and there were certain things that were quite entertaining, but the thing was that it was a break from mundane school life, and it was a night to spend time with friends, while seeing the smiles on people's faces! Most of the night i spent wandering around on my own. It was really great seeing the J2's that came back. Derek with his crew cut was cool as usual, but it was the best when i saw Momma again! as usual she had her flari and the style she always did, and when i saw her, gave a BBIIIIGGGG hug! others i saw in the crowd were Aqil and Kia Liang. the teachers made it a success. without their sporting enthusiasm and willingness to look like complete idiots, it made the night so much more entertaining, and fun.


i think i am quite happy with life as a whole now. there are bound to be problems and days where arent so great. Maybe my schedule is starting to free up, and soon i would have more time, and so will my friends. term is taxing, im sure i have mentioned it countless times, but i still wouldnt give it up for the world.

I am quite blessed. i have been given so many opportunities to do things, and it never stops. every step of the way i learn something new, and i find something to enjoy. even when i hit a low, i know that i would always have the support i need from friends and especially family. I know i dont always reciprocate, but i try, and one of the ways i channel the support my parents give me, would be to be support to my friends.

I may need more guy friends though. I think its a new low when i end up in a conversation with 2 girls pop-quizzing me if i know the different kinds of girl clothing. Nick is cool, but like me, he is very busy too, and we always seem to have clashing schedules. Sean is another nice friend. we have similar thought wavelengths. Haish, maybe it really doesnt matter. friends are friends, and i know i can count on them, and vice versa.

so am i indifferent? Selfish? or Content? im all, and happy with it. SmileZ!