I'm Just.... sick

No, not the mental psychopath way, i've just been really really ill. if i were to sum up my entire week, it would be 75% ill, nad 25% council. Maybe its something to do with being at home and rotting. i breathe in the same stuffy air, adn maybe whatever germs in the air is just recycled, and keeps attacking until it get in. in any case. im sick. and it sucks.

but somehow my body listens to me quite a bit. i can heal just enough to hold out for SC meetings and stuff. but the moment i get back home, and after a night of sleep, the sam symptoms come back, and i'm immobilised for yet another day. On the other hand, im glad i finally took out my stitches! i feel more mobile now! even if i am still a bit wary of my stitches, i want to do something. like a run perhaps? but apparently there are still 2 gaps at both ends of my scar, so i need to secure it, which also means i can swim for about another week.

so sad. now that i have finally moved into the condo, i don't use the facilities that are just under my nose. the swimming pool has been waiting for me. On really quiet days, where i thnk my mind goes deliriuos, i swear that i hear the swimming pool calling my name in the wind... creepy.

In anycase, if i did not get the chance to go back to school, i think i might have gotten a lot worse. i need the fresh air, the movement and the activity, gets my lungs working, and my systems moving. It helps ALOT.

on Thursday was the second General Meeting forthe 30th SC. I never liked those kind of things. i think im a bit perfectionist, in the sense that sometimes i wish people would just shut up and get things over and done with. but of course, with me being myself, i would be one of the contributors to the rowdyness as well... so mr Hyporcrite, what have YOU got to say?

then after the GM, I called for a BlackLights meeting with the TASC. Im glad that we got some direction into it. i finally feel like we are moving away from square one. we may not be at square 2 yet, but at least we in the process of getting there. Spare you the details, but ironically that is what the project needs. Details, all of it.

To put things into action, you must first know specifics, and then work on it. a great planner that cannot execute is obviously useless, but a great executer without any plans is similarly handicapped. I have never enjoyed doing up proposals. In fact looking back at one of the F&B proposals i did for Movie Mania, it was total and utter crap. but when it came to doing Movie Mania, it took some decisiveness, and i swear, comparatively the execution was tonnes better than the planning. But like all things, i need to learn to become better, and doing up the proposal is a good way of thinking things through, and making sure it will work.

Im beginning to trust the people around me more. somehow, people are pushing themselves to WANT to make this a success. and frankly, i am stunned. its quite amazing how my I/Cs are working, accomplishing everything they need to plus more. I won't say that i feel like im lagging behind, but i will say that i am awestruck. at the same time, i had a meeting for the interns today, and it went of a lot better than expected. they werent too rowdy, and they were highly effective in cranking out ideas. Confidence is building up. the project, the team and myself.

This does not make me any less tired though. My mind cannot keep up with many things that are going on around me. it is just in some blurry state where it has a hard time to focus. Just holding on i guess. hoping my illness will subside soon, and i can get back to whatever it was i was doing.

I think my posts are getting more static... i don't exactly have anything overwhleming with angst or emotion to blog about. PERHAPS there is... but i dont want to put it here on public domain. Ah wells... cant be helped. but i dont like to see my blog all stale and tagboard dry, so i shall post snippets of how my life is going. but i do hope to more "passionate"? in my future posts.

I'm just flooded with details. too many concurrent things that buzz in my head. need to clear the junk...... i need to pour it out... sigh.... oh well :D