MishMashMosh

no particular reason for the title, i think its funny the way words can come together and make a funny sound! Hopefully this entry will be a short one. havent posted a short entry in a while. i think cuz usually when i post, i have an issue in mind, and so when i do post i can rant on and on about it. but then again when i dont post, i hold it all back, so not even some of it leaks out.

Well. i cant wait for tomorrow, especially the BBQ! it would be good to finally have some other human contact apart from family. Hey, i love my family okay! but i need to be outdoors. need to streth and move, and get things jogging in my mind. if not i really think i am sitting at home rotting.

MSN is not my style, so i dont wanna chat or have long elaborate conversations. i realise that most of my words and feelings come out in sound effects. that is why i do not have a way with words, its every other thing that communicates the message. facial expression, body language, tone, sound effects, etc.

Therefore i know that i am not the only one that is anticipating tomorrows arrival! Sigh, but i think some people dont see what i see in the "elder SC". i mean, thats why i want to get so close to them right? they are different. they aren't competition, they are people that i either look up to or dont, i dont always have to work with them. not last year at least. this year its a slightly different ball game. but its good. i think hte more symbolic day will be sat. the SC room handover. now that would be a spectacle!

Im generally happy. if not for the rotting, i think i just need to get a hobby, or at least things to keep me occupied. i havent drawn in a long time. maybe i could pick up my pencil and start sketching again. i think i still have my current sketch book somewhere...

there are things where people just hold back. its for the better of everyone. as much as i would like to say to myself: "it really will be good for you to get it off your chest. its okay, the truth would not change anything" but i somehow cant bring myself to acknowlege that. its tough. and im happy with my current position. maybe someday? im sure i can wait :)

Mish Mash Mosh
Splish Splash Splosh
mixing and matching and squeezing it up
Squishy squish-squash

BLEH