Two ducks sitting side by side, Pair-a-ducks of going back to school

Its finally the last week of holidays! I as any normal person, i bet going back to school is a bittersweet feeling. Back to all the good friends, good times, and of course, the deprivation of boredom. but at the same time, all the work that we gonna have to face, as well as tests in the first 2 weeks. Not to mention BlackLights is coming up, which i may be worried about, but i know it will turn out fine!

Any way, back from my malaysia trip. it could be considered just another family trip and to genting no less, but i think this trip i learnt quite a lot of things that i am both happy, and scared about. no.1) i learn that i have reached an age where genting is no longer fun. to old to appreciate the theme parks, and not old enough to go to the casino. maybe one day (when it is possible) it would be best to go with a group of friends. Bowling, Pool, Arcade, its not the activites that are fun, but like alot of things, it is the company!

So, with nothing to do outside, i was left to the pages between my book, and dreamland to occupy my time. I recently finished "Sons of Fortune" by Jeffrey Archer, and i can say that i quite enjoyed the Politiking of the characters, but also it also made me realise a few things. somehow, after finishing the book, i felt compelled to work harder in my studies. it just seemed that even though the characters were of different background, despite being genetically the same, they both had a commonality. Drive, intelligence and courage. now, both characters did really well in their studies, which contributed to them attaining presidency in their school, and later on, even in the country. one way of gaining this respect, would be to do better in my studies. i am not just a joker with no academic strength, i want to show that if i put my mind to it i can do it too. this in addition to the fear and the guilt i am finally feeling for not doing my work, it is pushing me to want to excel in my studies, because i have the capacity to.

another would also be my family. somehow, at home i feel lonely, because my parents are at work, and my brother doesn't really talk to me. but over the holiday in m'sia, i got a chance to be NICE to my brother. the block letters is not because i am being sarcastic, but it is because i have hardly ever been nice to the poor kid, and i dont want things to stay that way. and i always love being around my parents, they just make my life good. they are the best support anyone can find.

Back from my holidy, i had a thousand things on my mind, BlackLights, Schoolwork, and the new found want to excel in studies. it would be quite crazy to balance and fit them all into a day, especially while changing to want to study more (in other words, i am still easily distracted)

SYAK AND JANE! SYAK AND JANE! SYAK AND JANE!
this was on specail request by syakirah! haha, yes you 2 mean the world to me!

This sunday we 3 shall be performing at Jane's condo, Sunhaven, for some Sunhaven Idol. as much as we would like to win, it has been fun spending time practicing and rehearsing for the thing. Another reason i want to back to school!

time and time again, i really ponder over how my friendships will end up. and maybe it might be another superficial one, but i have teh gut feeling it wont be that simple. I like jane's photo on friendsterm the one with the caption "my 2 favorite people", and i wanna thank syak for getting something for me when she went on holiday. we may not have the opportunity to chat much, but its great knowing you gals are around! :)

and one more person made my oh-so-boring holidays not so "oh-so-boring". thats mee favourite kaya cake! no i havent been stuffing myself with THAT, but you know what i mean. No matter what happens there will always be one person to be there no matter what! haha! so if anything. anything at all, give a shout out!

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that was quite a lot of "testimonials", kind of. i think it has made me realise that the holidays weren't so bad afterall. maybe i am dissapointed at my attitude to work, and my extreme laziness and procrastination in the first few weeks, but i have certainly learnt a lesson on how to better myself.

Speaking to Kerry today, i am worried about school. her high stress/worry level is starting to rub off quite significantly, and even i, the extreme sloth, is starting to seriously consider focusing and putting in my all.

Having a little difficulty changing though, Rome wasnt built in a day, and i find it difficult to break from my easily distracted self. but everytime i do, i try to pull my self back. i think i sutdy better with a group. at least that was the case studying with Sean today. got quite a bit done, but i guess since it was only the short span of an hour. but maybe i can set up another study grp, then i can focus better, and also, teaching is the best form of revising.

So now. on my agenda. finish up my overdue work. study hard for the upcoming tests. make sure BlackLights is a HIT! change my attitude. and apologise to teachers, and most importantly my parents, because the guilt largely is in fear of letting them down.

Well, not that i have a choice, but school starts in 4 days time? i'll make the best of what is left!