my blogger is super messed up. as i write my post, its a teeny tiny box at the bottom left corner of the screen. SIGH, things not working out today.
Just came home from sending syak off. and i just finished an email to her too. i'm missing her real bad now, and i think it still isn't that apparent yet. it takes some time to sink in. I'm a little emo, a little dispaired, yet surprisingly calm at the whole state of things. It isn't remotely near futtype (look at Eugene's blog for uncensored version of the same sound) because i don't think i'll ever (allow myself to) decend into that.
I don't want to discuss it so openly, till i figure out what i'm gonna do with this new information. Oh, right, haven't explained what happened. After sending syak off and sitting around with the girls talking about Uni, we went off, and i sat in Terminal 3, talking to Kenneth over the phone, just talking about each other, and about our friends. I couldn't begin to understand why things just aren't going the way i've planned them to be, and why does it feel like i'm left behind, when everyone else is finding a way to deal with their life.
Life doesn't suck. Not for me. but i think most others would beg to differ. and maybe therein lies the difference. that i'm too happy, that i don't understand the 'pain' of my friends around me.
Its so ironic. i'm the normal guy in a room of wierd people. That makes ME the wierd one.
So as i struggle to find a new place, to play with my PS2 platform. i'll just have to take a break from those playing the Wii. But it hard.
sigh. what to do. find a new way of life. (said with much melancholy)
Thursday, July 23, 2009
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